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mgomgomgomgomgogm i am so freaking nervous and antsy.
anthony & i went to look at apartments yesterday & today and there are 2 apts that we are really interested in.
the first was one we viewed yesterday. it's in the capital hill/central seattle area. it's a house, but it's split into 2 units: an upstairs, & a downstairs. we would be the downstairs. it has a cuteeee garden entryway with a cute gate and shrubbery archway you walk under to get to the front door. you walk in and to the left is a stairway to the upstairs unit, and the right is the bedroom. there is a closet in the bedroom, and a hallway closet across from the bedroom. then you walk thru into the living room, which isn't too big but it's not bad. it has 3 huge windows looking into the yard on the left. on the right is a small entryway into the tiny kitchen. i don't like the kitchen. there is almost no counter space. and there's an ugly water heater and furnace for the house that cannot be disguised. but it would be a livable kitchen. then if you keep going straight, tehre is another bedroom but with no closet. this would be our music/computer room. then to the left of the 2nd bedroom is the bathroom, which is, like, the highlight of the apt. it is HUGE! and it has a walk-in glass doored shower, AND a huge jacuzzi bathtub!!!!! it's awesome!!!!!!!! this apartment is $850!!! the only thing is there is a couple of college students who were interested in it first, and they are viewing it again today and if they sign the lease then they get it :( but we are #2 in line for this place and we will probably take it if they do not want it
the second choice apartment is the one we view today and we will probably take it if the first one falls through. it is not too far off jackson in the central seattle area. it is a 4 unit building, kinda house looking as well. but it's not very pretty on the outside. it does have a porch and a very tiny back yard. so when you walk in the door there is a small entry way then a pretty roomy front room/living room with lots of windows. it then opens into another large room, which would be the bedroom, with a mid-sized walk in closet. unfortunately the bedroom & living room are not separated very well, but we thoguht we could hang some cool curtains between the two rooms to divide them up a bit. then you walk further back thru a doorway into the kitchen. it's a decent sized kitchen with lots of storage. the bathroom is nothing too impressive. but then there's another doorway that leads down to a basment room! it's kinda creepy looking but it's a nice bonus room that we could use as our music room/office area.... it just needs some cleaning and brightening and sprucing up cuz it's a basment so it's kinda dark and dreary. but it is a neat addition to the apartment! this apartment is only $800.
SO i kinda like the 2nd one better because it has more character and will allow more freedom of creative expression, but the first one is really super nice and i love the jacuzzi tub!
SO I HOPE WE GET ONE OF THESE 2 APARTMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but the waiting and anticipation is killing me and i want it to just be decided and done and over with so we can start moving! but either way, i think we are going to committ to one of these 2 places and will be moving very very soon! like in a week!!!!!!!! I AM SO INCREDIBLY NERVOUS AND EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANNOT CALM DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I AM SO SO SOSOSOSOOSOS EXCITED!
it's cute! we're going to be moving into our first place together right around our 1 year anniversary, which is next week, september 3rd to be precise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy to have spent the last year with anthony! we are such a good pair. i love him so much! even though we fight more than we would prefer, we always are still so in love and devoted and he is my bestest best best friend and i love spending every day with him and he always knows how to make me smile!!!!!!!! :) it seems like our first date was just yesterday! and now it's already been a year and we're moving in together! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) it's amazing. it makes me so happy! my stomach is getting so many butterflies just typing all this stuff :) it's weird to think how i was so sad a little over a year ago, and i thoguht i would never be this happy! just goes to show you how much your life can be flipped upside down in a year!!!! there is ALWAYS hope!!!!! even when you think you are at your lowest low and you will never find happiness and love again. YOU WILL!.... you just have to be patient and take it one day at a time. it sounds cliche but it's so true. i was in a bad place, drinking all the time just to get thru the pain... i wasn't thinking about taking care of myself at all, and i was living in the past, dwelling on what could have been, rather than focusing on the future and what i wanted to become. i was afraid to step out into the real world, so i didn't work and i just stayed home and slept the days away and then went out drinking all night till i made myself sick cuz it was a fun thing to do with friends. i got myself into a lot of shitty situations when drunk but it didn't matter to me cuz i was "having fun" but now i realize that fun is not drinking and making out with random people and hurting yourself and others and driving drunk and getting into phsyical fights with your exes and crying and trying to jump off roofs or windows to kill yourself. those things are not fun. i was so close to the edge, just about to jump over it.... i think i was very close to becoming an alcoholic..... and i was definitely close to killing myself more than once. it's so sad. i am so glad i made it through that difficult time..... and now i have anthony to keep me sane and sober. he makes me feel strong, and makes me feel like i have a reason to want to be a better person... to keep away from binge drinking, to not cut myself.... and he makes me want to live to see all the wonderous things in the world! ^_^
so this started out as a post to vent about my excitement about moving, and turned into a kinda emo self reflective post... but i feel much more calm and collected... i feel like my thoughts are more centered :) so now i can go back to trying to get people to come willing give their blood to the vampires xD
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