mary.

poisonoak @ 2006-08-02T01:16:00

2006-08-02T05:24:20Z

i haven't updated in approximately 5768 years.
SO lemme just tell you all,
that i love my life. =)
and alessandra.
and dave <33.
and N64.
AND SUMMMMMER.
AND ALCOHOLLLL.
AND CIGARETTTTESSSS.
and hanging out with amazing people.
and waking up to alessandra's lovely face every morning. ;]
AND WATERR.
i pretty much love everything going on right nowwww.
somebody get me some booze&cigarettes,
and you'd make me SO MUCH MORE HAPPIER, if even possible.
summer; please stay.

poisonoak @ 2006-04-03T17:10:00

2006-04-03T21:12:22Z

my mom and dad are on some cruise,
and i miss them already.
and i just talked to my mom on msn,
and it made me happy.!

mary; i have been here many times before. says:
peter is doing speeches tomorrow.

mary; i have been here many times before. says:
wish him luck

mary; i have been here many times before. says:
and i have an essay due tomorrow, that i havent started. :)

mary; i have been here many times before. says:
wish me luck.

Anna Kaye says:
love you again do well at your speech petes and good luck and mary get started love you bye. MOM

lol@awkward conversation.

i love this song.

2006-04-01T21:30:19Z

"You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favours
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world."

niggah whut.

2006-03-29T22:14:14Z

i had a great day today. so relaxing.
fucking literacy test today;
it wasn't hard, it was more-so just fucking annoying.
filling in the fucking circles and writing pointless answers to retarded questions about canoes, and where would be our favourite place to visit. wtf.

after the test, took to bus to the mall with alessandra, sandi, and jess.
ate&talked.
then we went to the park, and played on this huge...sex teeter totter...?
quite fun.
then we saw krystal and alanna, and talked and laughed a whole lot.
"HEY GURRRLLLLZZZ"

ANYWAYS,
i love sandi,
and alessandra,
and jess,
and krystal,
and alanna,
a whole lot.

um yes,
so, tomorrow, thursday, it is going to be 15 degrees, and just sun.
like, just sun,
just sun people, just sun.
i love this weather.
i'm so happy.

wootwoot beepbeep i ain't playin' around,
take one false move, i take ya down,
get back, get back,
you don't know me like that.
...gosh, thanks a lot sandi.

hmmmm.

2006-03-27T00:02:15Z

sometimes i wonder how things would have been if we never went through what we did.

i'm watching a friends marathon of the last season, very emotional. ha.

poisonoak @ 2006-03-25T17:48:00

2006-03-25T22:51:24Z

i found this kinda cute;

As we grow up, we learn that even the one
person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down
probably will. You will have your heart broken probably
more than once and it's harder every time. You'll
break hearts too, so remember how it felt when
yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll
blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry
because time is passing too fast, and you'll
eventually lose someone you love. So take too many
pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a
minute of happiness you'll never get back.

i have to pee so bad.

poisonoak @ 2006-03-24T17:47:00

2006-03-24T23:20:28Z

i hate how emotional i am.
i hate how i have no confidence in myself or in life.
i hate how i have no selfesteem, whatsoever.
i hate how whenever i think things are good, something always goes wrong.
i hate how i'm always down.
i hate how i'm always so bitchy to my family.
i hate how i'm always pretending, and putting on a smile, just to please you.
i hate how although everyone thinks i'm generally happy all the time, i'm not.
i hate how i'm always caring about what people think of me.
i hate how i'm the most jealous person.
i hate how i'm so shy, and no one sees past that.
i hate how little things bring me down SO much.
i hate how i cry so much, and can't help it.
i hate how i hate how having no selfesteem&confidence is taking over me.
i hate how i'm not comfortable in my own body, and wish i could change everything.
...besides feeling all of the above,
i love my friends.
and how they make me feel better,
and make me laugh,
and make me smile,
and make me forget about all of that for that time.
and they love me for me. and who i am on the inside.

i feel like such a tool, for making a stupid post like this.
hopefully i didn't bore you to death.
<3

boredededededed.

2006-03-12T01:11:59Z

haven't updated since monday, so i will now.
hmm, nothing exciting happened this week.
wednesday, KRYSTAL&ALEX&tina&sam were over, and we made a ton of food from scratch, for a project.
it was pretty sweet.
me and krystal ate a lot of chicken that night.

hm, thursday, went to 3rd. then was in munchies for a while with alessandra&jess&sandi.
we talked alot, about...people and how things are changing.
gah. but i love them.
jess&alessandra came over after, and we listened to music and talked.
walked to tim hortons,
almost got raped;
called my mom to pick us up, thank god.
watched tv, ate food, talked, and took pictures.
yadda yadda.

i'm bored&tired.
make me smile?
=)

gahh.

2006-03-07T04:17:35Z

i miss sandi.
so fucking much.

dallasgreen;havemybabies.

2006-03-04T03:56:18Z

i came here to update about something;
but now that i'm here, i totally forgot.

OHH kay i remember.
i asked my dad to get my lip pierced; and he yelled at me, LOL.
and lectured me for an hour.
it was funny.
actually it is now, but during the time, i was crying.
he said we have to meet in the middle.
so for my birthday, i can get 2 new piercings in my earrrrr;
pretty much anywhere i want.
i'm going to get my cartilage pierced, at the top, but i'm thinking of the other spot to put the second onee.
possibly, 2 cartilage ones, YEAHHH.
like, one at the top, like everyone has, haha, and one along the side, that's still on the cartilage part.
get what i mean bitches?, cause i'm not sure i do.........=/

i didn't do anything tonight, cause i was WAY too lazy to leave the house, and alessandra was WAY to lazy to get her ass over here.
so, uhm, i love dallas green.
and i realllly miss sandi, so we're hanging out sooon.
i love alessandra too, i can't remember things before we became friends, and that was only this year.

this is the most pointless post.
later HOTTIEESSS<3

sleeeeep.

2006-03-02T02:43:34Z

my life is so dumb right now.

i asked my mom if i can stay home tomorrow cause i'm exhaustedddd.
so she let me.
but she's also making me sleep and eat.
cause apparently, i do very little of both?
yay.

i'm going to go shower.
fuck.

but yay.
i get to sleep in till like, 1 tomorrow.
i'm exciteddddddd.

uhmmm.

2006-02-26T23:26:25Z

so, i'm sitting here, listening to Dallas Green, and balling my eyes out;
the reason?
i love him so fucking much.
i love him more than my life, no joke.

something that i want more in this entire world is to see him play,
and possibly even meet him; which isn't hard to do, because he is so down to earth.

my wish is to one day meet Dallas Green, that would make my ENTIRE life.
i will be able to die happy.
fuck man, i love him.
<3

------------------------------
mmm'kay, so there was a spider on my wall,
so i took a big box and killed it with it, and i held the box to the spider on the wall for a few minutes, and cried and screamed for my dad to come hold the box and get rid of it.
ugh.

but on the plus side;
i killed my first spider today, :).
............=/

yesterday;

2006-02-26T00:15:27Z

SO, yesterday was amazing.
i skipped school with alessandra and jess.
we went to the mall in the morning, and went shopping for a bit, and bought hairdye for jess, cause we were gonna dye her hair.

so after we got everything, we took the buss to markham mainstreet, and bought hair extensions,
then bussed to jess'.

we measured the pieces, and i sewed the clips to the extensions and whatnot, and it was cool.
so jess and her mom go to dye her hair in the bathroom, whilst me and alessandra talked, and tried to figure out a bunch of shit, and played with jess' little brother.

after a bunch of conflict, we then are on our way to raymerville park to meet up with dan, anthony, and jordan.
took pictures, and laughed, and froze our asses off.
then we walk back to anthony's and eat lots of food, and take pictures, and record stuff.
overall, it was a really fun day&night, and i wouldn't have changed anything.

i pretty much LOVE jess&alessandra.

omggggg.

2006-02-25T07:51:17Z

all i can say;
fucking amazing day&night yesterday.
it was definately better than going to semi.
i love jess&alessandra.
soso much.
<3

i'll explain my day tomorrow;
i'm going to bed now.
:)

poisonoak @ 2006-02-22T18:33:00

2006-02-22T23:38:44Z

i have gross flem in my throat.
i have the grossest cough.
i have a stuffy nose.
my voice is going away.
and i sound retarded.
i have tons of homework; that i should be doing.
and i hate people right now.

wonderfullllll liffffe.
BUT,
i love jess,alessandra,vikki,and krystal a WHOLE LOT right now.
=)<3

poisonoak @ 2006-02-18T00:43:00

2006-02-18T05:50:44Z

i really missed hanging out with vikki.
just me and her.
tonight was amazing,
and it kindof made my life.

i absolutly HATED today.
and i absolutly HATE you.
so much.
but being with vikki, made me forget about that, and you, and it made me happy again.
goes to show what friends can do for you.
:)<3

i laughed so much tonight,
just what i needed.

download:
moments- westlife.
it'll make your life.
i swear.
"every moment we share together is even better than the moments BEFORE."
LOL awww.

so uhm;

2006-02-17T04:22:32Z

i pretty much love krystal.
more than words can describe.
and i don't know where i'd be without her.
<3

i hate you though; just so you know.

anyways, yeah, krystal is my life.

hi.

2006-02-11T05:45:36Z

it's 12:36 am.
i haven't wrote here in a while.
i'm bored&tired.
alessandra came over today,
and we went to rogers, wanting to rent A Walk To Remember, but it was sold out, SO we rented The Sisterhood Of The Travelling Pants.
and then we went to Pizzapizza, and ordered a ton of food, that could probably feed 4 people.
we ate most of it. and i'm full.

the movie was good, bitches.
i cried.
a lot.

we talked about our retarded dreams, and a bunch of old memories we have of friends and such, it was awesome.
i ended up crying later on thinking about everything.

i have to go to the dentist tomorrow. technically today.
ugh. wtf.

fnidsfiodjfoids.

2006-02-05T06:24:39Z

"there's something wrong with you, and you need help"
what wonderful words to hear from someone you love.

wow.

2006-02-04T23:17:49Z

so, uhm, today, i decided to watch March of The Penguins.
why? i have no idea.
it was alright.
but it was kindof like watching penguin porn;
i had to watch them get intimate and such....=/
so it wasn't that exciting.

me and marcus are going to get a penguin together, though.
so that's a plus.
and give him a really cool name. he came up with naming it "penguin".
so, hmmm, we'll think about it.
when we get him/her,
it'll look like this:

AWWW!

<3

i love sandi.

2006-02-03T22:46:26Z

“i was listening to dallas green today and i thought of how you cried at the video...then I realized how much i actually love you LOL” -Sandi.

sandi sent me a comment on myspace today, saying that; and it made me so happy.
it deserved it's own...post thing?
lmao, i love her.
so much.
her&dallas make my life.
same with every single one of my friends.
<3

today has been an exciting day!

FUCKmeSIDEways.

2006-02-03T20:00:19Z

hmmm, last night was fun.
alessandra was over for a while.
and we ate food,
and we watched the OC,
and we made her a myspace,
and we talked and laughed.
sweet deal.

but vikki is at her grandparents/dad's until sunday;
she left on thursday, yesterday.
and i already miss her.
normally, we're together, or on the phone, or on msn talking for hours.
i sound so pathetic, but yo, vikki, come back.

ANYWAYS,
i'm in not such a good mood today, so i'm staying in.
i'll talk to you later, lovers.

so...

2006-02-02T07:19:32Z

those plans below definately didn't work out; haha.
but i spent the day with vikki, so whatever. <3

you know what i love more than anything;
LIES.
oh, what fun.
whatever, i wanna forget about all this shit.
it's bringing me to a point where i DONT want to be.

it's like, 2:17 am right now, and i have nothing to do.
...but sleep?
fuckshit.

fnkogsdjigosdfsd.

2006-02-01T23:49:20Z

it's funny how i'm just realizing now what you fucking did to me.
and how much it hurt.
oh, great life.

but, that's besides the point.
vikki&alessandra are coming over reallllllllly soon;
and we're gonna watch A Walk To Remember,
and cry.
especially me, cause i've never seen it, and i cry a lot.
and we're gonna eat food.
and make alessandra a myspace, and scene her up...=/
and take pictures.
and make fun of people;
cause that's what we seem to do best.
fuck, i'm so bitter right now.

i dyed&cut my hair, bitches.
and i just ate a really good sandwich.
come over, and i'll make you one too.
my sandwiches > your life.
they'll make you really happy.

...kay, i'm gonna go.
i'm going on about absolutly nothing.

hi lovers.

2006-01-30T20:12:12Z

so, uhm; i'm really happy right now.
kay, so my day? i'm sure you all want to hear about it.

i had my math exam today, and it was alright, but i'm pretty sure i didn't do so good.
so me and alessandra went to Lombardo, and told her lies about how she was a good teacher, and such, so she'll hopefully pass us; haha, oh man.
...that's pretty much it.

anyways, i've been saving my money for quite some time now, seen as though, all i do is babysit, so i'm happy with what i have.
i've been saving up for my digital camera, that i will be getting within the next 2 weeks hopefully.
so, my plan is to take 38478374834 pictures with all of you lovely hotasses, and all my amazing friends.:)
so that will be exciting.

and i'm getting a new cell phone soon, finally.
probably for my birthday or something!

i update this too much,
i love you if you took the time to read this, aha.
:)<3.