| Wednesday, October 22nd, 2003 |
| 9:49 pm |
I've lost almost all hope. What is this? I'm supposed to be the beacon of light and positivity. The circle died with our summer...is it my turn? Sincerely, Patrick Donald Mohr ...as I strive for sanity and something I can hold onto...every filled crevise now gaps open, bare and starving... Current Mood:  morose |
| Tuesday, October 14th, 2003 |
| 10:38 pm |
I'm alive...and I miss every single one of you...granted, some more than others, and you know who you are. I have been busy and going completely out of my mind these past couple weeks. With both grandparents sick, I'm the most able to take care of them, so I've been doing my good duties. Plus I do believe I owe my grandmother quite a lot for all she's given me. Don't give up hope just yet. Not just yet. I have a feeling...hopefully it will be right. Hopefully. Current Mood: distant |
| Saturday, October 4th, 2003 |
| 11:47 pm |
I feel so horrible. Memories are flooding my mind, and everytime I close my eyes, they play over and over, nonstop... This was a summer to never forget. It brought me something great...something I have been neglecting, and I feel horrible and stupid and disgusted about my actions. Everyone come by the cottage...the door is open, and I'm probably here. We have to even out the edges...and once this puzzle is back together, bond it together so that it stays. <333333333333333333 all the love in my heart goes out to you. Current Mood:  nauseated |
| Friday, September 19th, 2003 |
| 5:19 pm |
I've got the last of my stuff from Ohio in the back of my van...Winnetka here I come. Home sweet home...I'll be back to stay...and we'll see how good I am at decision making if this turns out the way I hope. Current Mood:  jubilant |
| Thursday, September 11th, 2003 |
| 9:27 pm |
20th Century Boy
Friends say it's fine Friends say it's good Everybody says it's just like Robin Hood I walk like a rat Crawl like a cat Sting like a bee Babe I'm gonna be your man And it's plain to see You were meant for me Yeah, I'm your toy Your 20th Century boy Friends say it's fine Friends say it's good Everybody says it's just like Robin Hood Fly like a plane Drive like a car Ball like a hound Babe I'm gonna be your man And it's plain to see You were meant for me Yeah, I'm your toy Your 20th Century boy 20th Century boy, I wanna be your toy Friends say it's fine Friends say it's good Everybody says it's just like Robin Hood I walk like a rat Crawl like a cat Sting like a bee Babe I'm gonna be your man And it's plain to see You were meant for me Yeah I'm your toy Your 20th Century boy 20th Century boy, I wanna be your toy Heh...I found an old burnt Placebo cd and couldn't resist. ;D Now love me, hug me, bend me, shake me...thrill me. Never mix Mt. Dew Live Wire and Iced Animal Cookies...you'll end up like me. :X Current Mood:  horny |
| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003 |
| 8:58 pm |
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| Sunday, September 7th, 2003 |
| 7:47 pm |
You're so vain, you probably think this song is about you.
So teenies have decided that they want to be us...on the message board...is it just me, or does this ring of stupidity? What is the point? If you pose as someone, at least do it on something more stable, and organized...not something that is flooded with "yeah!"'s and "OMGZ!!!!"'s and "KEVIN C IS HAWT!"'s. Get some lessons people. And spellcheckers. And dictionaries. And a thesaurus would work nicely too. I'm going to go make signs for Sid. I really want to go to the cottage with Sheehan...::sigh:: All in good time I suppose...Since I will be moving into it this week hopefully. Current Mood:  aggravated |
| Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003 |
| 4:22 pm |
The sky's such a sweet blue
I hope this is the last bump in the road, at least for a while. Seems as if it's been lots of ups and downs lately... Yes, the two reds are back together. And I'm happier than ever...It meant a lot to me that he came back...So much more than could ever be known. And I just got a call from my grandmother letting me know that I have been relieved of my duties. My grandfather got to come home today, so now I get to sleep in my bed, spend more time with my love, and actually hang out again. Current Mood:  ecstatic |
| Sunday, August 31st, 2003 |
| 1:19 pm |
I miss you...and I never wanted to hurt you, even if you did deserve it. My heart wants to feel the love again. Please love me... |
| Saturday, August 30th, 2003 |
| 6:26 pm |
I can't stop listening to this song...but I guess crying helps... Halo -by Punoswhen i look into your eyes it helps me understand the reasons that i live the reasons that i am you're the one i give my love and i'll keep you deep inside you're the answers to my prayers you're the reason i'm alive you are my halo you give me all the strength i need and everything's okay when you're around you lift me up when i fall down let's chain our hearts together and live among the clouds our love will last forever no matter where we are i know a secret place where we can sit upon a throne and view the world through lovers eyes and see just how far we've gone you mean everything to me |
| 6:05 pm |
Tangled in this troubled web we weave
So I've been staying at the cottage...you'd think it'd be more painful to stay there, but honestly, I feel like he's still there...I've been so distant lately, to everyone, no matter what they do. I'm sorry to anyone I've hurt or shunned. You just don't know how I feel. It's like I'm intangible, like I don't really exist. I find it hard to breathe, but the hope keeps me alive. I'm going to stick to my plans. I'm transfering here, leaving Ohio behind. It may hurt more than anticipated, but maybe it won't. Sacrifices are nessaccery sometimes, and I feel like this is one of those times. Or maybe I'm just wishing on a shooting star, and my hopes will wilt, in the death of my dreams. Current Mood: exanimate |
| Thursday, August 28th, 2003 |
| 7:56 pm |
I honestly feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. So much for my plans...so much for everything. Fuck it all. I'm gone. Current Mood:  infuriated |
| Monday, August 25th, 2003 |
| 6:30 am |
Yesterday...I don't really know what to say about yesterday... I honestly thought I had lost everything... All because of those damned teenies. Do you think we actually like you? You make our lives miserable. You stole my van to kidnap Paul! >:\ Yesterday was a test...a very hard, painful test, for me, and I think we passed it...I hope we passed it...If I ever have to lose you again, even though it was only for 30 minutes or so, I felt like I had lost you forever...But now we are safe, in our cottage, you are asleep, and I'm entranced, watching you. Never doubt my love. I just want to hold you, and you are here, so that's what I'm going to do...<3 Current Mood:  indescribable |
| Friday, August 22nd, 2003 |
| 7:46 pm |
It seems that I have dropped my brain somewhere in the Winnetka/Chicago areas...if anyone stumbles upon it, please return it asap. =\ |
| Thursday, August 21st, 2003 |
| 6:17 pm |
I love secrets...but the suspense is killer.
Hmmm...glad this is fake...me, marry Ryan's priest? No. Sorry. I want to marry my Shee Shee...(I figured it makes more sense for me to call him that than Paul) Man, these past few nights, staying with my grandma, I've learned a lot. She's taught me a lot about the family, and about myself. Grandmas and Aunts are great. Carney's aunt is all supportive of him and Brendan, and wants to meet everyone, my grandma is giving me relationship advice, and actually a lot more...but details of that later...I've still got some figuring to do. ;D I think I'm going to take a visit to the hospital and go get some food now. Current Mood: anxious |
| Tuesday, August 19th, 2003 |
| 8:05 pm |
I've been thinking, and there is something that I'm dying to talk about, but I just can't get over the fear of actually bringing it up...Maybe I should go think on this somemore...I just needed to a little out...but I don't think it helped much. (I love ellipsis.) Current Mood:  pensive |
| 7:01 pm |
Is it obvious I'm bored? I think I'm going to go get some food. =\ Current Mood:  drained |
| Monday, August 18th, 2003 |
| 7:24 pm |
=\ My grandfather has been put into the hospital with pneumonia so, if I'm not around, I'll probably be visting him, or staying with my grandmother. Feel free to drop by and keep me company though. ; ] PS Kevin Sheehan is sexy hot with 4 x's and 3 t's. : ] Current Mood: contemplative |
| Sunday, August 17th, 2003 |
| 3:45 pm |
Beware: the following is HORRIBLY written.
Held captive by your gaze Holding you close, your heart beats with mine I steady myself We will be here for a long time The words you write down for me Bring tears to my eyes Falling hard, falling fast This eternal love that will never again be disguised Hidden behind a mask of friendship Denial sunk it's ugly teeth in From distance sprung a relationship True love blossoms Current Mood: hopeful |
| Wednesday, August 13th, 2003 |
| 8:53 pm |
How nice. Kind of sums up the past few nights. But I'm happy once again. Oh Red, you make it all possible. ;D That tornado stuff today was pretty scary...not as scary as when Sheehan fell unconcious (aka sleeping, but I didn't know that)...but it was pretty shaky stuff. Man, I need a bed. I'm tired. Anyone interested in joining? ;D (coughredcough) Current Mood:  cheerful |
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