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Does anyone have trouble with their lower body? 
My butt is 2x the size of the rest of me, and I look so mis-proportional.  
Im 125lbs. If I get down to my gw of 105, will my booty go away?
I feel so alone in my size....

I'm feeling so unaccomplished.

I wanted to fast today for...well I didnt' really set a day to stop. I had just planned on getting into the swing of things before I even thought about stopping.

Didn't work at all.
I'm babysitting, so it's hard to just avoid food, you know? Babys eat all the time. Putting me in temptation and my will-power just isn't so strong all the time. I really need help!


I'm babysitting until Sunday evening. After that, I'm painting with the school and I'm pretty sure I'll be able to avoid food after Sunday.

So I'm going on a water fast starting Monday.
Anyone with me?

Heyy I'm kinda new so heres my stats.

Name:Allison
Age:14(almost 15)
Location:U.S.A.

CW:112
HW:130(in recovery)
LW:92

GW:105
GW2:100
GW3:95 (by september)



I AM -
[x] anorexic but i have bulimic "episodes"
[] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x]thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] wanting to be "under 100 when school starts"
[x] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast with other people

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if i'm anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[] say i'm too skinny
[ ] say i'm ugly
[x] say i'm pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[] say i eat too much
[] wish i'd stop
[] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] i was THIN
[x] i had a better body
[x] i didn't have to eat
[x] i could control myself
[X] i was under 100lbs
[x] i could avoid food
[x] i could hide what i am
[x] i wasn't fat
[x] i was pretty
[ ] i could stop

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[who does??] shaking
[x being weak, becuase i know i'm losing weight
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet soda
[x] coffee
[ ] laxatives
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

Im looking for people to fast with and talk to, so comment mee.

has anyone ever tried the 'sacred heart diet' and how did it work?  is it true that is what they put morbidly obese people on in the hospital?  because in that case i'm gunna neeeed to go on it. haha. let me know. ;] thanks guys.

ps. idk if all text posts are allowed? so heres some thinspo just incase.



ughhhh. look at that body!  i hate myself.

I'm 20 pounds lower than my high weight.  How do I look?  Be as mean or nice as you want to!

 Urrgghh. 
I havn't posted here in a while... infact I think I've only posted here once or twice before,
but anyways, today has been horrible. I binged in the morning on around 700(!) calories.
I swore to myself over a year ago that I would never purge again, no matter how bad I binged, but today i just couldn't help myself.
I felt soo much better afterwards but I really don't want to get into the habit again.

Hope everyone's o.k, even if I'm not.

Thin Thin.

Love Stella X