Why like dut?

wait... i'm not a teen anymore. teen movie moment is not allowed!

this is the most single i've been in a long time. i know i've never been in a real, notable, serious relationship - but i've been less single than this. i mean i've at least liked people and thought about people. like, thought thought about people.

i'm not sure if this is good or bad. i feel like not thinking about anyone is liberating but at the same time i feel lost.

but single is nice.

but i feel fragile.

uh...

ok wait too much coffee before too much alcohol and not much dinner = shaking limbs.

i kinda like how things are starting to pick up and i'm starting to get what i want... that's nice. it's a happy thought.

maybe i should meditate.

coffee coffee coffee then alcohol alcohol alcohol = weird brain feeling and shakey-ness