I'm just a notch on your bedpost, but your just a line in a song

latinheat @ 2008-06-27T16:00:00

2008-06-27T20:04:05Z

this week i've lost my pack of cigarettes three times, yes three times. I'm a fucking mess but a hot mess.

you gotta spend money to make money

2008-05-21T18:46:04Z

it feels great to wake up and not have work, or have any other things to do. Jaime and Natalie came from Vegas thursday and we have be bar hopping and wasting money like its nobody's business. Went to eat at trays restaurant which is a raw food place and literally cost you an arm, leg, and your first born. It was fun eating rich but i'll never do it again. Nora's birthday was cool got dressed up and drunk. Other than that i've been working and working. Hung out with mike and ricky at some queer bar and totally got some guys digits so we'll see how that goes. Gonna go eat some breakfast and see what everyone else is up to, hopefully some debauchery.

will someone just lay on me!

2008-05-03T19:08:40Z

i'm tired out of my mind, i'm not even sure if its physical or mental. I have been going through a lot of wear and tear. Gotta stop getting fucked up so late. Went out wit tray and frank last night sang a couple songs, got high, got drunk, and left the old bar to gets some more drunk at another bar. All in all good times, we all needed to catch up. I don't work today or tommorow so i'm planning to just relax and party this weekend. It cold and its may,...i just don't get that. I can't wait till we all destroy ourselves or mother nature will just have to fight back and send out some horrible plaque or killer monkeys. But its almost summer and i'm hoping for many sunny days at the beach, and cross interstate adventures. yo i just realized i haven't eaten, fruity pebbles or captin crunch?

latinheat @ 2007-12-02T19:38:00

2007-12-03T00:39:02Z

its snowing!

I said i wanted some more attention

2007-08-31T19:59:00Z

i just figured out how to make egg toast and I'm such an attention whore, that I pranced around showing everyone what i made. Like some little kid saying " look what I can do", i'm such a loser. The summer breeze is almost gone but i can't wait for the fall. So out on a whim I decided not to attend school this semester and told my parents so. I did come up with a plan to return in January. The truth was I didn't enjoy john jay a great deal, it just wasn't for me. So instead I will be going to city college next semester. As for this semester i'm taking off sort of to re-evalutate my future and to sort of find myself I guess. I'm definitly gonna work more, get my license, and possibly a better job. But this isn't the end for me, all I want to do i make sure the path i've choosen is the right one, before its to late to make a u-turn. I've never been so scared and optimistic, its pretty exciting. Its definitly time for some damn change.

latinheat @ 2007-08-16T12:31:00

2007-08-16T16:32:24Z

you where the last good thing about this part of town

same old same old and cigarettes in open air

2007-06-11T19:59:57Z

its summer, its sunny and somewhat hot which i am okay with. No serious heat yet or droughts so no complaints. Nothing new just work, hanging out, drugs, rock n roll and and occasional ice cream cone. so um yea....this is gettting annoying i'ma just leave.

latinheat @ 2007-04-02T16:47:00

2007-04-02T20:53:22Z

Its been about 2 weeks since I started working at h&m and I actually like it. Its not bad and the people who work there are really chill. I like the area and atmosphere and of course my discount. I recently got paid and I can't wait to go shopping and splurge a little bit. Sushi dates, and lip piercing are already on my list of things to do. On another note; i have off this week from school because I have spring break and no one really to hang out with which sucks. I'm also glad i don't have diahrea anymore.

latinheat @ 2007-03-15T16:34:00

2007-03-15T20:38:26Z

went to school and a job interview with a different shoe on each foot, and had to spend the whole day like that because I had no opportunity to change, it was actually quite funny but I pulled it off. Got the job. Enjoyed the beautiful weather yesterday with tray n nora. And now to enjoy the weekend....memo to self - wear green on sat.

latinheat @ 2007-03-05T17:52:00

2007-03-05T22:52:57Z

my father can eat shit.

latinheat @ 2007-02-24T15:03:00

2007-02-24T20:28:25Z

Last night was actually one of the most random friday nights in a while, and it didn't even feel like friday for some odd reason. Decided we we're going to watch the Departed at trays wit Nora, shannon and toria. Instead we opt to go bowling, but we all didn't have coupons so to the clairmont we go to dine and steal their coupons. The funny part was as soon as we exit i though i lost my coupon so I go back and ask to steal their menu because I needed their coupons and got a "it's perfectly fine". We head to paradise lanes with megan who had also joined us. Bowling was fun but i've come to the conclusion that fags can't bowl but we all had fun under the black lights, which only revealed I need to use lint brushes. After we end up going to Maudes and making plans to eventually meet up with mike and meg and we head to nora's. Once at Nora's we get coersed into going to Tally-ho's...is that how you spell it? So we go down to meet up with Nora's brother and his peeps. Run into some random kid from john jay i've smoked with and that shannon also knew, small fucking world. Played photo hunt with toria, and shannon and some random girl who would occasionally reach over and play with us. Got the high score so I was pleased. Eventually we all had to make our exit to go to mikes for one last hurrah at his apartment before it is no more. Get crunked and play boggle! yes boggle, it was a great way of ending things as they started at mikes. Mike won of course because he probably practices boggle on the down-low. Once we leave me and Nora danced in the street until cars came, and on the ride home listened to tray's weird mix of the spice girls and backstreet boys which we all sang our heart out to...yes i like the spice girls and backstreet boys so fuck off! Got home at 4:30ish, i only wish i saw the sun come up but we'll leave that for another night.

latinheat @ 2007-02-03T19:07:00

2007-02-04T00:09:49Z

geez i had no idea i was this afraid of change, its actually kind of pathetic. I have to stop being so dependent on the present and just shake things up.

latinheat @ 2007-01-14T17:43:00

2007-01-14T22:44:13Z

i've been sick since thursday and it sucks. Tested my luck going out friday, which i shouldn't have and I completely relapsed. I'm starting to think I have meningitis or something...

Why must I label my thoughts?

2007-01-04T01:05:14Z

The new year is still in it's infantcy and i've already broken my new years resolution on quitting smoking. Instead i'll attempt a realistic goal and just try to cut back. Life has been pretty sweet lately, i've understood the reasoning on enjoying the little pleasures in life, because they make me happy. Parents have been gone for a while now and the dishes are piling up again, the house looks terrible. The worst part it gunna hav to do some serious cleaning before my parents come back. I'm completely broke,and all i have to my name is a pack of malboro's and some pot. I hope I can spread it all out for a while. The sad part was i bought my cigarettes using change and scratch offs, which is way too fun. Gotta go eat before I go out so i best get cracka lakin of that.

still lazy

2006-11-16T22:23:37Z

Its been a while since I truly updated. But there is nothing much to tell, school is going good and predictable as always; i think i need to be challenged a tad more. Me and tracey lost our jobs because it closed on us randomly, so now I need to look for another job. Democrats kicked the republican's ass in the midterm elections! yay! britney and kevin are getting a divorce ( because no one saw that coming ), new +44 cd came out and its gunna slaughter fucking angels and airwaves. I'm sick of this scene, I need to break out of the routine.

latinheat @ 2006-10-26T20:52:00

2006-10-27T01:00:01Z

Hot chocolate is great on cold nights.
going to a haunted house later, should be fun.
need pot.

latinheat @ 2006-10-10T21:44:00

2006-10-11T01:44:50Z

I'm glad i see now who's full of shit.

latinheat @ 2006-08-29T17:19:00

2006-08-29T21:24:42Z

I Start school tommorow and i'm pretty excited. Now I have something to do, other than be lazy, watch t.v and eat. At least i did do something productive today, I cleaned my room soooo good. It was disgusting, I cleaned places I haven't cleaned in years. Its technically the last day of my summer and its fucking raining, all i wanna do is go for a walk or to the park. Will someone play with me in the rain?

Drug Tests and World War III

2006-07-28T21:34:33Z

Waited for hours in the hot sun yesterday on the hope that I would be lucky enough to be bestowed with a job, and I actually got one. Pending the results of a drug test, since I ain't no straight-edge mother fucker, I have to buy (steal) that drink that cleans your pee. So monday is drug test day or D-day as everyone else likes to call it. All of my friends aren't smoking until after D-day, which I find kind of paranoid. I mean come on, we have to drink the detox shit and hour before the test and its a temporary fix to give the illusion of a drug free person it always ( knock on wood) works, I could induldge myself in a herion and coke cocktail for breakfast and still pass the drug test. On another note, does anyone think this Mid-East conflict can spiral out of control to become the next world war? i mean its just a thought...or maybe i'm being the paranoid one. Whatever the case may be I'm going to make myself a sandwich....with lots of cheese.

latinheat @ 2006-06-25T15:04:00

2006-06-25T19:05:56Z

I'm dead as dead can be
My doctor tells me
But I just can't believe him
Never the optimistic
One I'm sure of your ability
To become my perfect enemy

Wake up and face me
Don't play dead 'cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say
You disappoint me
Maybe you're better off this way

Leaning over you here
Cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection
Of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become my perfect enemy

Wake up
(Why can’t you?)
And face me
(Come on now)
Don't play dead
(Don’t play dead)
'Cause maybe
(Because maybe)
Someday
(Someday)
I’ll walk away and say
You disappoint me
Maybe you're better off this way

Maybe you're better off this way (×3)
You're better off this (×2)
Maybe you're better off...

Wake up
(Why can't you?)
And face me
(Come on now)
Don't play dead
(Don’t play dead)
'Cause maybe
(Because maybe)
Someday
(Someday)
I’ll walk away and say
You fucking disappoint me
Maybe you're better off this way!

Go ahead and play dead
(GO!)
I know that you can hear this
(GO!)
Go ahead and play dead
(GO!)

Why can't you turn and face me?
(WAKE UP!)
Why can't you turn and face me?
(WAKE UP!)
Why can't you turn and face me?
(WAKE UP!)
Why can't you turn against me?
(GO!)
You fucking disappoint me

Passive-aggressive bullshit..

latinheat @ 2006-06-13T13:55:00

2006-06-13T18:03:25Z

For the last two days I've had this feeling of needing to shit more often than usual, my tummy just isn't feeling like itself. Maybe I should cut back on all the junk food, and snacks because that seems to be all that i'm eating. I know it's not healthy and it doesn't compliment my stomach either, so I should stop. It seems like such a beautiful day outside, but just my luck that a have to go to work at 3. Fuck selling suits, its so boring. Half the time I don't even know what to do with myself. Well let me go try to find something healthy to eat before work, if not I guess I'll just pop in like 5 tums.

latinheat @ 2006-05-19T14:12:00

2006-05-19T18:16:45Z

So me having no shoes in my dream supposedly means the Postponement of success. Never lasting love. Dishonor in social life...what? kinda sounds like bullshit.

The real trouble with reality is that there's no background music.

2006-04-15T20:40:02Z

I have come to the conclusion that I am somewhat bored with my life. I mean I am a optimistic person and I always try my best to look at the bright side of things. But sometimes you can't help but feel comfortable. Comfortable in the sense that I don't want to change and I don't won't to go out to the world and see whats out there. I have to start taking risks, meeting new people and break out of the routine and into the spontaneous. Because the last thing I want is a life conformed to a schedule, and thats not what life is all about.

Random Rant

2006-03-15T21:44:48Z

Everything that goes on in the World today makes me pissed, worried, and sorry.
I mean everywhere you look; shit is hitting the fan. Genocide in Sudan ( but when isn't there?), starving children all over the world, Iran and Palestine both supporting terrorist regimes and Iran has the ingrediants to make a nuclear cocktails, America is just fucking retarted and evil, global warming, and for the icing on the cake AIDS. The Earth is just a fucked up place. And for all those who believe in God, i mean where is he when you need him? why dosen't he get of his lazy ass and do something? because he not real. The world is just a fucked up place because us humans fuck it up, always doing this and that; and taking things for granted. And then we all get down on our knee's and beg ( insert god here ) for help and forgiveness. Which does nothing, and the never ending cycle continues. At least i'm a very optimistic person and I know everything is out of my control so I just live my life the best i can and focus on making me happy. Moral of the story is peanut butter and George W. Bush should both die. The End

latinheat @ 2006-03-11T20:11:00

2006-03-12T01:19:28Z

As you get to know people more and more, you can start to draw certain conclusions. You can obviously see who puts in effort and who dosen't. And to those who don't put in effort into being there for you, why do I give them chance after chance, after chance? I guess i'm just a sucker.

I'm just a notch on your bedpost, but your just a line in a song

__latinheat__ @ 2008-06-27T16:00:00

you gotta spend money to make money

will someone just lay on me!

__latinheat__ @ 2007-12-02T19:38:00

I said i wanted some more attention

__latinheat__ @ 2007-08-16T12:31:00

same old same old and cigarettes in open air

__latinheat__ @ 2007-04-02T16:47:00

__latinheat__ @ 2007-03-15T16:34:00

__latinheat__ @ 2007-03-05T17:52:00

__latinheat__ @ 2007-02-24T15:03:00

__latinheat__ @ 2007-02-03T19:07:00

__latinheat__ @ 2007-01-14T17:43:00