shake it like

GET OFF THE INTERNET... <3 <3

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 01:34:45 GMT

i feel so 80's.. or early 900's
to be poitical.
where are my friends?
GET OFF THE INTERNET
ill meet you in the street
GET OFF THE INTERNET
ditroy the right wing
GET OFF THE INTERNET
ill meet you in the street
GET OFF THE INTERNET
distroy the right wing
this is repetitive
and nothing has changed
and im crazy
where are my friends
GET OFF THE INTERNET
ill meet you in the street
GET OFF THE INTERNET
destroy the right wing

mmmm how i l000000ve le tigreeee <3 <3 <3 <3

mmmm yesssssh beetches <333

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 22:43:23 GMT

thinking that ive run out of time..

but realizing it was too late to begin with.

if this is what you wanted, then take it before i change my mind.
because this is only getting harder.
as fast as time flies, your face is only getting clearer.
and the memories dont fade as easlily as they say.
time doesnt erase the past,
and your not going anywhere.
if i could change one thing in my life..
it would be ever meeting you.

you were the best thing till it ended.
and now my stomache is in knotts.
your picture is imprinted in my head.
and thats something even surgrey cant fix.

if you knew everything, i know you would still care less..

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 18:40:27 GMT

grounded then suspended then fighting with mom till 3 in the AM =not cool. but, whatev.

jons amazing and im glad i found him.

i miss james....DUH. but slowly but surley im thinking aobut him les and less.. -yestarday and sunday. those were shitty days.

im not hungrey. is that wrong? just STOP with the eating thing already.

"im scared"-mom
"of what"-me
"your anger, what your capable of when your angrey"-mom
"so you think im going to kill myself?"-me
"yeah.. shouldnt i be?"-mom
"no acually.."-me
"no acuually what?"-mom
"no accually, accually, no.. thats the end of it."-me
"whatever, the balls in your court"-mom...and walks off

parents are incredibally laaaaameee. end of story.

i love vanessa and lindsey.
stephanie, thursday, me and you.. yes. it will happen.

why am i still writing in this journal? i have a new one!! im retarded..

__pieces_ofme <--new and still lame.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 17:19:59 GMT

i think that if i couldnt do this anymore, i would be dead in a gutter someware.. but im not saying i can do it forever..

i need you now more than ever..

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 17:51:25 GMT

i miss you so god damn much i dont think you understand. your starting to haunt my dreams and every thing i do, you fucking come up. why wont you just leave me alone... even though thats what your already doing...

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 06:15:45 GMT

i cant take this.. i cant fucking take it....

this..

plus....

equalls... </3

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 01:42:11 GMT

i made a new journal

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 22:39:36 GMT

I was six years old
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door

Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize

....i need a cig.

That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry-

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 23:45:13 GMT

so this is it. the police left a message on my answering machine. i had lindsay break into my house and erase it. their going to call back though. i know it. i didnt do anything wrong. but i will do whatever it takes to keep him from there. he means the world to me. i will do whatever i can. and i mean that. im so emotionably unstable right now knowing i might not see him for a long time that i dont know what im going to do. my hands shake, my head hurts, im dizzy, im sleepy. all i want to do is sleep. to not think about this. but i dont know if thats possible. i want to go home i want to be held in his arms again. i want to feel his big warm lips embrace mine. i want to be comforted by his scent that im so familiar with. i want nothing more that to just be with him. he is...

... my everything

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 23:19:40 GMT

"hello my first name is Distance, and I really do not care if i ever wake up again."

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 23:06:25 GMT

yeah well, im at vanessas house. haveing fun ha ha. were just sitting here. im on the phone iwht james. nothing really going on. i talked to courtney i love her. i missed her. shes so cute. shes all buying me shirts from her work. man, anywho. were going to the chrimson practice later. im scared coz im scared no one will want me there ha ha ha ha. courtney is gunna highlight my hair soon so its another reason to go over here :). well i guess i gotta go now byee...

oh and today me and janell had to stay in at break thanx to fucking miss mehta and her getting mad at us for painting our fingers with glue :) shes such a hot whore jk

Thu, 27 May 2004 18:51:19 GMT

I love James and thats final!! :)

Wed, 26 May 2004 00:15:22 GMT

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated

this is the cutest thing ever!!

Tue, 18 May 2004 23:55:48 GMT

*i asked you if u liked me...u said no. i asked you if i was pretty...u said no. i asked you if i was in your hart...u said no. i asked you if you would cry if i walked away...u said no. so i walked away..then you grabbed my arm and said..i dont like you, i LOVE you. ur not pretty your BEAUTIFUL. your not in my hart, u ARE my hart. and i wouldnt cry if you walked away, i would DIE*

Tue, 18 May 2004 22:27:32 GMT

Me6qz (3:29:51 PM): I dunno if i told you how much i miss you and how much i like you and i love being with and around you you might think i am crazy i thought that when i said love you were gonnago crazy

Me6qz (3:51:35 PM): Lol babe i love you so much i really hope that does not scare you also i could come get you on thursdays

Me6qz (3:58:10 PM): Babe to see you i would do anything anything you mean everything babe
Hop x Less (3:59:15 PM): that put the biggest smile on my face!!
Me6qz (4:01:29 PM): Babe when i am around you or talk to you i have a huge smile on my face i love you so much

Me6qz (4:21:29 PM): I gotta get some good pictures of us for my van babe

(yes, his screen name is shortend for safty reasons)
okay, i oficially love him. hes the greatest

Tue, 18 May 2004 19:50:28 GMT

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he is sooooo wonderful no one even knows. and yeah. so, im at my dads house... my mom sent me here untill im uhm... what do you call it... unsuspended?? ha ha yeah well, whatever. ill see him tomarrow night. i hate so many people right now its not even funny. but i know i DO NOT hate my liz!! i love her so much! im so glad we talked things over and were friends again. muah liz i love you! and hiopfully on my birthday.... we will see eachother! hee hee you have to tell me where your going to be so i can come see you lol. i love you bye!!

Thu, 13 May 2004 18:52:11 GMT

I stitch myself one piece at a time that's what I've done for all my life.
I've stitched my life thus far and I am fine.

Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.

So I:

Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.

Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.

I never thought that broken glass, spilt milk, my life
would make me cry.
I never thought my life would be just fine.

Whoa, hold on I'm getting ahead of myself again.
Whoa, rethinking my words with conviction and the faith of one who wants to stay.

So I:

Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.

Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.

When I don't see you don't think I don't care.
When I'm not with you believe me I am scared.
Whoa slow down I think I'm going to fast again.
Whoa writing my words with the vengeance of someone who wants to run away.

Replace the razor with my pen
The noose becomes my thoughts
My words the pills swallow em down swallow em down.

Tue, 11 May 2004 18:52:10 GMT

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Wed, 05 May 2004 02:18:28 GMT

this whole thing with anna just makes me laugh..

hahaha

Tue, 04 May 2004 17:46:03 GMT

post a memory of me in the comments. it can be anything you want. then
post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

Tue, 04 May 2004 00:25:10 GMT

anna, please,look around you and tell me what you fucking see. nothing. no one. not one person except jose. you screwed us all over and look, it came back and bit you in the fucking ass. how do you feel now? now that youve lost everything, how do you feel? how does it feel to be hated? to be looked at as nothing but a whore. a lier. a cheater. a bad person? i hope your happy. you did this all to yourself. and dont think for one second any of us will ever feel bad for you. your nothing but a stupid emo fuck. now go cut yourself and wither away in your sarrows. you ugly ass whore.

Sat, 01 May 2004 20:11:54 GMT

you'll never get to heaven if you're scared of gettin high!

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 19:02:36 GMT

but now we speak with ruined tongues,
and the words we say aren't meant for anyone.
just a mumbled sentence to a passing aquaintance.

but there was once you.

you said you hate my suffering,
and you understood.
and you'd take care of me.

you'd always be there,
well where are you now?

so me and cliff = nothing. but im okay with that. coz, its all my fault and i totally respect that i 100 percently deserve it all. but he still walks me to all my classes and hugs me goodbye. no kisses though and no hand holding :\. its all due to this guys fault :-D http://www.rateusa.com/data/html/93200.html eeeek that is my new fling James Aaron Webber *<3* he took me out to dinner tuesday.. to the movies last night. and hes picking me up from school today coz, thursday and fridays are his days off. :) so, things are going okay at home. not sure what this weekend holds without laura. hopfully ill spend all weekend with stephanie. i do indeed love her so much. tuesday stephanie and gerrette and chris came down. it was really fun. i hope to hang out with them soon. alright i g2g byeee *<3*

amy: GeT OvEr HeRe AnD FlOg My MoLlIe AlReAdY GoD DaMnIt!!! jay kay i love you ammers!!

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 18:47:09 GMT

too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place
and how shitty this town would seem without you in it

this goes out to so many people, in so many diffrent ways.

1. Stephanie... (shes technically still there but, i just miss her so much.)

2. Chris

3. Paul

4. you dont wanna know.

and i guess, thats the end of my oh-so-short, list :-D

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 18:55:34 GMT

hay.
whats up.
nothing.
what did you do today?
thats cool.
im bout to watch a movie.
itll be fun.
okay byee.