| Scatterbrained, And How to Collapse Everything at Once.. |
[21 Jul 2008|01:09pm] |
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A flood inside of my throat,
of white and black and gray like
the only decent dress of a television set;
like the eye color of coma victim 1,209 of
human year two-thousand and eight,
built of blood and guts and chemical stupidity,
no more or less.
I now know the dread and the weight
that I've worried so dreamily over since age ten,
when I found a hand up my skirt
and ALL OF A SUDDEN lost alla my ticklish tendencies;
discovered No Feeling.
How the war between my ears has now grown into my heart,
I know of problems greater than whether or not
our minds may escape the dirt when it's all
"said and done."
--And done.
I hope for the sake of hope,
that no soul finds the touch of
darling sadness I sleep cuddled up tight to nightly,
DRUGGED and SMOTHERED and never sleeping really.
I blame the glow inside of my belly!
I blame the once warm hug of a mother being friendly!
I blame the bluebird's glory-songs so catchy in the morning!
yet I blame nothing just the same,
for the only face I ever loved,
I've trampled with fabulous aim.
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[19 Jul 2008|12:42am] |
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music |
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the kilimanjaro darkjazz emsemble - lobby |
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ghastly imagery on the face of a rock-wall
one hundred feet about tear level, fixed
sockets on cream colored lightning faces
perched on the necks of those universe wounds
that find time to enjoy their time.
it's no wonder at all
where i'll be;
there's no use in worryin' about me.
soSMILE.
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[16 Jul 2008|10:27pm] |
Nonsense. I woke to find my rainbow
crushed beneath the train tracks again.
And
the fever had broken.
I spent the next three days in a tub of ice
and neither one nor two were ever inside of my
mind-- i swear it up and down.
I said "doomed" an innumerable
count and fell asleep once more.
No one will ever see this place the same;
when my skull pops outta this ocean, it's
gonna blow the roof off of this goddamn world.
and i know you'll be there,
along for the dive.
Ain't no one ever gonna break this spell
of desperate crazies when their so called love
had fell.
Sad, I'm certain.
So sad, I concur.
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