They don't love you like i do...

__hardcore @ 2004-06-12T15:09:00

2004-06-12T22:16:29Z

Is it true what I heard about the son of god
Did he come to save did
he come at all
and if I dried his feet
with my dirty hair
Would he make me clean again
They say they dont know when but a day is going to come
when there wont be a moon and there wont be a sun
it will just go black it will just go back to the way it was before
I know a lovley girl with such pretty pride
and every man wanted and yet so did I
and so did I
But she up and died
In a fit of Vanity
Now men with purple hearts carry silver guns and they'll kill a man for waht his faters done
but what my father did
it dont mean shit
Im
Not
Him
And you think I need some disapline
well I have my share
now I've been sent to my room
I've been sat in a chair
I held my tounge
I didnt plug my ears
I got a good talking to
AndI dont know why but I still try to smile
When they talk to me like I'm just a child
well I'm not a child
No im much
younger than that
But now I've read some books
and I've grown quite brave
If I could just speak I think I would say
that there is no truth
that there is only you
and what you make the truth
so i'll just sing my songs
and i'll pass a hat
And then i'll leave your town and I wont look back
No I dont look back
Because the road is clear
And laid out inhead of me
now i'll get home
I'll meet my friends at our favoirte bar
we'll gegt some lighter heads for our heavy hearts
And w'll share a drink
Yeah we'll share our fears
and they wiull know how I love them
They will know how I love
THey will know how i love them
I am nothing with out their love.....

__hardcore @ 2004-05-31T22:30:00

2004-06-01T04:34:56Z

I am here and I want to talk to you too...

__hardcore @ 2004-05-22T17:32:00

2004-05-22T23:37:36Z

Ill try again tomarrow
Maybe you'll feel better then
Maybe we'll be better then
Whats one more night
When I cant stand these nights of thoughts of going on without you?
This mood of yours is temorary
It seems worth the wait to see a smile on your face again...

__hardcore @ 2004-05-16T22:09:00

2004-05-17T04:48:59Z

Rollin' wit crew from the Yoch Town
Bumpin the shit
Lettin' um hear the sound

Rollin' to your girlies house
this shit is through
Your girl's lookin good
where the fuck is you

The kids from Antioch know how to play
Drinkin' all night
Sleepin all day

When the sun goes down
these kids get fucked
when we role through
Ya'll better duck

Your girla fly
but mine is thicka
One girls fine
but with two I bust quicka

Peace goes up
An' A*town knows wuts down
Punker white boy
is spittin this sound

When this shit drops
gunna hit the floor
Sellin so much
Gotta open a store

Sittin at party
sippin on a Vega
when this hits
gunna be bigger than lou begga

1 girl
2 girl
3 girl
4
Me and big E just lookin for more

Chicken Churro smellin Nigga

2004-05-03T07:31:21Z

It wasnt even worth it without you with me

__hardcore @ 2004-05-01T01:59:00

2004-05-01T08:03:38Z

Thanks for waiting...

Fuck the School System

2004-04-30T02:14:04Z

The school system is a 12 step mind wash camp (Dead Prez). You spend the first major part of your life in school. They teach you to respect authority and do what ever you are told. Anytime you disagree with a teacher then can punish you. If you fight with a teacher you get sent to jail. You write a paper that they disagree with and they fail you. Even the teachers who would hapily teach the other side of things, they are stopped, fired, or scared out of their beliefs. Fuck School. Fuck the district. Fuck this City, State, This country. How do we spend 11 bilion dollars in a war that we dont have any reason to be in when we cant keep our schools funded. Why do we need a cop walking around campus? We are not terriorists, we are not looking to shoot up our school. What a fucking Police State we live in. In history class why dont we learn about how the CIA filled a Van with bombs, sat it out side of a Mosque and blew it up at the time when the most people would be hurt. How we set up Totalatarian goverments and arm their Armys. We funded Osama's group for years, we were giving Sadam Money and Wepons up until he turned on us. We had no problem arming him as he was gasing the Kurds. "He's a bastard, but atleast he's our bastard" (Colon Powell). Teach yourself, look for alternative sources of media. Stop being lied to and shielded from the truth.

A little help guys

2004-04-26T02:18:51Z

Ok. I need a list. A big list. I need stupid stuff, gross stuff, and painful stuff. Cmon guys. A little help would be nice, I am looking for a list of about 50 things, they need to be good. Really hardcore stuff.

Grand....

2004-04-23T05:10:56Z

If I had to pick one word in all of the english language that I truely hated, it would be "grand". I hate that word. It is by far the worst word. I think that it is becasue it is so cliche to say it now. It is those damn acting kids. The ones that do the voice. They do the voice and say everything is so grand and it makes me want to kill myself.

__hardcore @ 2004-04-21T22:46:00

2004-04-22T04:51:11Z

Move bitch
I got somethin' to say
Joe's hella gay bitch
Joe's hella gay

-Writting by me and Joe at lunch

Like a child with forks in it eyes

2004-04-22T04:47:42Z

*HUGS* TOTAL!
give Copher more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

Now I am cool too

__hardcore @ 2004-04-19T23:43:00

2004-04-20T05:47:47Z

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I will answer your questions in a reply.Then, I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

MC cophers rap haha It looks longer on paper.

2004-04-19T22:54:53Z

Another day wakin' up in the Yoch
Gettin' up this mornin its 7'o'clock
Liftin weights, take a jog around the block.
Everyday just like the last
Except happieness slips farther into the past.
Trying to find peace of mind
in these crazy times
Trying to find something I lost long ago
turning up empty handed with nothing to show
They say its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all
But is the time spent climbing really worth the fall?

__hardcore @ 2004-04-12T00:54:00

2004-04-12T06:58:47Z

Darling its better
Down where its wetter

Under da sea

__hardcore @ 2004-04-11T22:15:00

2004-04-12T04:20:04Z

I wish that I was gone

Because Your Not Going Any Where

CRAP

2004-04-09T05:51:24Z

The water swells
and drops to the floor

The blood spills
and still I beg for more

You are what I want
and you are what I need

I get pushed away
but on my knees I plead

I love you now
and I always will

I can drink too deep
and still not get my fill

Take your time
all that it takes

this decision
is your to make

Philosophy class from today a bit extended and probobly some dropped

2004-04-02T04:41:05Z

"The Big Three" reliogions are all only about 3 thousand years old (the oldest is about three thosand) Budhism is something like about 3 to 4 and Hinduism (the oldest of the five big religions) is at the most about five thousand. The agricultural revolution happend about ten thousand years ago. Up until that point people were living in hunter/gathering groups. All of the big religions are life hating religions. The big three, you just live life to make god like you enough to let you into heaven, in the two eastern religions you live life over and over until you realize that you are just one with everything (in a nut shell) and then you are finished and that is what you want. The is the bad place. Heaven is up and away from the earth, while hell is in the earth the closer to the earth you are closer to satan and hell you are. Before the agricultural revolution people worshiped the things that they ate and gave them life (i.e. water shelter ect.) it wasnt until after the cultural revolution that we worshiped things that we cant see and started disliking where we are. In communities that dont know of the big three or the eastern two there are no jails no police and no mental hospitals. I think that it is weird that in our civilized world we need to have these things because the whole time we grow up we learn about how this place is so bad and how we should hate it and I think that all of this anger and negativity leads us to destroy, take, need, and go crazy over things that tribal peoples dont even worry about. They dont have them because they dont need them, they dont have them becasue they arent taught to need them

__hardcore @ 2004-03-30T17:09:00

2004-03-31T00:13:15Z

I adopted a cute lil' pikachu fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

HAHA PikaFetus

Hmmm.

2004-03-29T03:08:47Z

Its weird. The way that children are that is. They are so accepting of one another. As we grow older we seem to push people away. But when we are young we love interaction with others. Who you are as a child, many times shapes your future. Take myself for example. I was always very quiet. Very shy, shabby hair cut and afraid of girls. I was like this for as long as I can remember. All the way up to about 8th grade I had never kissed a girl. I was always shy. I even had the same shabby bowl cut that I had since I was about 6. I have been the same way my whole life. A lot of people think that they know me, but they dont. They know Copher, yeah its my name but it isnt really me. It is a mask that I put on in front of people. I am scared to death of rejection. I have a hard time talking to anyone except for those close to me. I dont know if I can really say that it is a fake me anymore though. It has been so long, not even I am sure what is me and what is Copher. Maybe it is someone inbetween the nervous dweeb and the gross outgoing dont give a damn person that I show. I am not sure. All I know is that when I am alone I am much different than how anyone else really knows me. There are a few that really know me, but the list is small. I hope that who I am isnt just a big sham. I would feel bad for lieing to everyone that I care about. Maybe everyone is like this, mabye I am just crazy. I think that everyone must and a person inside that they dont really show to anyone else. I was always afraid of rejection, so I just made up this character. Portrayed my self to be him. And lived life through his eyes, but it has been so long now who is to say that he isnt me and I am not really him. We could be the same person couldnt we. I hope that I am not alone in feeling this way. But I know that we must be two differnt things, or that there is soemthing else different in me. Because I can have a conversation with my self. I have conflicting beliefs. I love to learn and to read, but I hate to study and I love to play video games. I love girls, but I am scared to death of them. Am I me or am I copher, or are we the same? Is there someone else. I feel like this guy in a movie I once saw. He killed a bunch of people, but in his head it was all a movie that he was watch and he was everyone in the movie, I dont know if he really did kill all of those people or if he had made all of it up in his head, But I feel like I can do that, I can get lost in my head for hours just thinking. Laying some where between wake and sleep, consious and awareness. Here and there, Me and Him. I am confused about life. Why I am here, am I here, what about you, are you really here or did I just make you up. All of you could just be a manifestation of my thoughts. All of your actions being played out in front or me or in me? through my will or yours or gods or someone elses?

You want to click the link

2004-03-29T02:51:35Z

http://www.outwar.com/page.php?x=2025588

Just do it ass.

I am reading Catcher in the Rye. It puts me in the mood to talk like all of the acting kids. Maybe that is where they got the voice. It also makes me want to write. But I think that if I write it will end up sounding like either Catcher or Perks. They arent bad books, they have a distinctive style of writing and anything that I will write will probobly sound like them. Just like when I try and write a song as I am lisnening to music. If I end up writing I will post it later.

Payce

Save My Computer

2004-03-23T05:31:33Z

Someone please save me computer. I am lost in a world of pop-ups and pop-unders and I dont know how to get out. My computer is going so slow. It wont even keep up[ with me as a I type. Sorry for any seplling errors.

__hardcore @ 2004-03-20T15:06:00

2004-03-20T23:09:17Z

have you ever been so in love you would go to the ends of the earth just to be with the person that you are in love with.
have you ever been so in love you would give up everything just to be with that person even if it took a lifetime to get them.
have you ever been so in love that you would risk dying just to spend one night in their arms and have them tell you that they love you.
have you ever been so in love that you would kill yourself if they died, just so you would be together in death.
have you ever been so in love?

<3xxx.

__hardcore @ 2004-03-14T15:15:00

2004-03-14T23:17:05Z

since chris will probably never post in this journal...
i think that anow it belongs to me.
i made it anyways.
i already posted in my other journal 3 times today,
i think that is enough for one day dont you??

<3xxx.

__hardcore @ 2004-03-07T21:11:00

2004-03-08T05:13:28Z

this is chris' new new journal, thanks to his
wonderful, loving, perfect, sweet girlfriend
char...[[can you tell who wrote this??]]

<3xxx.