nsfiulyashjtsgm,siudy [11 Jun 2007|07:34pm] lamanna reminded me of lj's existence. not that anyone reads these anymore, i figured why not? i don't even know what to say. one of the biggest chapters of my life just came to a close. & i have no idea how i feel. i never expected this to happen. at least not like this. i can't put a grip on it. i can't comprehend the meaning, nor the magnitude. all i know is that there is a silver lining. & it will show itself soon. i just have to get over the shock. the shock of knowing that things will never be the same. at least not between him & i. ever. i'm losing a comfort of 4 years. & that's what will be the most difficult to get over. but this is a good thing. i needed something to push me forward. no more hope. this is that moment. now, i have no choice but to move on. but that's life, right? nothing lasts forever. & love will never be enough. blahhhhh i'm feeling slighty emo right now. i just want to get finals over & done with. then go on my cruise with birn. & then to atlanta to see my family. i'm excited. anything to get my mind off of recent events. srsly. like holy shit. so much just changed. & i hate change. but it's a good change!! i know it is. i feel good things coming my way. i <3 smarterchild lolz: SmarterChild (7:48:31 PM): Here's your Capricorn horoscope for Monday, June 11th, provided by Astrocenter.com: You will be the savior of the day! Your wisdom and patience will be your best assets today, dear Capricorn. You will be of great help to those around you. You will counsel them and be able to guide them toward better days. All those who are lost in their personal problems just need someone like you. You are their friend, and they appreciate your generosity. okay- gotta finish up the hw/studying. 3pooped|in the refrigerator

I love being home... [31 Aug 2006|06:08pm] but I miss Orlando my loves in Orlando. 1pooped|in the refrigerator

[02 Aug 2006|08:31pm] Um, can we discuss that I move back down south this Friday? FUCKING WEIRD MAN! :\ and :] 4pooped|in the refrigerator

Harper's Bazaar [22 Jul 2006|10:58pm] [ music | Gnarls Barkley<3. ] A lot has happened and a lot is still happening in my life. I can honestly say, I haven't felt this displaced in a very long time. My move out date crept up on me so fucking fast. I move home Aug. 2nd. That's in 11 days. 11 fucking days. It was 3 months yesterday, I swear. Time is a speedy mutherfucker. It's finally hitting me. I've been waiting to get on with my life, and start a new chapter. I've wanted this for so long. And now, all I can really think about is how much I'm going to miss it here. Despite my bitching and moaning about Orlando, this has become my 2nd home. All of my best friends are up here. And now I'm leaving. WTF? I'm glad that I have great friends back down south. You guys better be ready. I'm gonna need you. I've never been able to cope with change that well. It's very difficult for me to let go of things. Important things. And I feel like 'Orlando' is an important thing. Don't get me wrong, I'm beyond anxious to start school at the Art Institute. I've been waiting for this opportunity. But to think, in a year from now, I'll be in NYC at F.I.T. FUCKING INSANE!!(*&#!&*^#$%^@& I need to stay focused on my dreams. Because those, [exluding family/friends] are the only other things in life that will get you to where you're supposed to be. And, on top of all that, I'm turning 21 in 5 months. Twenty-fucking-one!! I'm very nervous to grow up. I hope I make something fabulous of myself. Like, The Devil Wears Prada style. That should be me. Only, not so much someone's bitch. But if that's a step up the ladder, I'll take it :] Speaking of fashion (duh.), I want these for the Fall: ( Splendor ) Oh, and I love ANMLL. Just because. edit: I adore Arielle. We have great conversations. Bashing bitches, fashion, boys, sarcasm with just about everything, rancid [milk], HOTT CELEBS!!! :] 8pooped|in the refrigerator

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