♥ sincerely yours i`ve disowned you ♥

__falseideals @ 2006-01-01T22:55:00

2006-01-02T03:55:57Z

Januarrry.
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?:
stay away from drugs.
2.Who kissed you at midnight?:
mr.jagermeister , but this year anthony :]
3. Does it snow where you live?:
no :[
4. Do you like hot chocolate?:
yessh
5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop?:
yes when i was little.

Febuarrrry.
1. Who was your valentine in 2005?:
hm .. anthony .
2. What did your valentine get you?: nothing . we werent dating
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?:
yes . & made cute cards with the chocolates.
4. What did you remember most about february?:
valentines dayyy !

Marccccch !
1. Are you Irish?:
a little.
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?:
no, not unless i put some on during the day?
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005?:
not a motherfuckingthing

Aprilll !
1. Do you like the rain?:
yes
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?:
no
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter?:
yess !

Maay
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?:
i dont know .
3. Do you like the spring?:
yes :]
4. Finish the phrase April showers bring...?:
mushrooms in the cow pasture !
5. What would you think of as a spring color?:
light green or pink .

juneee !
1. What year did/do you graduate from school?:
2007
2. Did you go on any vacations last June?:
nope !

jew-lie.
1. What did you do on the 4th of July?:
blew up shit with dad , my brother , babe & my bros friend.
2. Went on any vacations during this month?:
no

august!
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer?
nope.
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05?:
going to the beach with everyone & being stupid.
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer?:
yesh !
4. Do you go to the beach a lot?:
mhmm !

SEPTEMBER...
1. Did you attend school/college in '05?:
yes
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher?:
no one.
3. Do you like fall better than summer?:
no

octobeer.
1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever?:
a stripper .
2. What's your favorite candy?:
candy.
3. What did you dress up like this year?:
uhm .

novemmmber !!!!
1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?:
my own ? then ants .
2. Do you like stuffing?:
depends
3. What are you thankful for?:
stuff !

decembaaaarr !
2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe?:
mhm
3. What did you want for christmas this year?:
iPOD , new camera . money?
4. What's the best present you ever got?:
idk .
5. Do you like cold weather?:
yes
6. How would you rate your year on a scale of 1-10?:
eh . 5.5

__falseideals @ 2005-09-02T06:31:00

2005-09-02T10:28:38Z

KsE . As i Lay Dying & Soilwork . tomorrooooooooow .
fuck yeah .
if you don`t go you'`re a fuckin loser .

__falseideals @ 2005-07-05T04:09:00

2005-07-05T08:09:37Z

ugh .
tonight was fucking great . its mine && anthonys 4 months && we went out on the lake . went to chilis && came home n blew shit up !
WHAT COULD BE BETTER !?!? nothin.
but somethings just making my night fucking crash && burn into a million firey pieces .
i`ve looked at pictures && they never affected me . until now . i see you wasting your life away smoking. drinking . doing anything you can get your hands on because you cant cope with your sadness on your own . you know what its fucking PATHETIC . im sick of feeling bad for you & wanting to help you even when you know i cant see you anymore . you still insist on us seeing eachother to help get you back to your old self . you know thats just going to add fuel to the fire . your feelings will become stronger . & i just cant fucking live with that . you've wasted almost 8 months on ONE person . i figured you wouldve let it all go by now . find someone new . someone better . but you cant seem to let it go & you're dead set on getting me back . which will never happen . im happy how i am now . & who im with now . its never changing . EVER . i just wish you could see that . & stop beating yourself over the torn images of our once alive romance . but just pick yourself back up please . & stay up off the floor . you said you'd give me the world . or anything i wanted . what i want is you to hear me out . think about what im saying . maybe take it into consideration clean up & better yourself . maybe then you could get a girlfriend who doesnt do drugs like you do . hm . ever thought of that ? . but yeah . im finished . i cant deal with this anymore .

__falseideals @ 2005-06-13T02:26:00

2005-06-13T06:26:47Z

man .
im completely overwhelmed with my feelings . so i think this is going to be one of those heartfelt entries . this is going to be about anthony pretty much . so if you dont want to hear it then dont read my shit .

im so in love with you anthony .
this is just a new feeling for me within three months of dating .. you've showed me theres someone out there that would give me anything to make me happy . & i would do the same in return . i love the way you kiss the back of my neck when we're going to sleep . the way we can lay in my room for hours . && just enjoy eachothers company . the way you grab the back of my neck when you're ' excited ' mmmm . how you kiss me . the way you move .. your body . every inch is perfect to me . i love it . everything about you is too good to be true . i feel so strong around you . like i can hold myself up . instead of being sad when friends are mad at me . im fine . because i know im stronger than that . you make me feel beautiful . like i mean something to you . i just feel so wanted . its the greatest thing . i dont think i could ever ask for more . i just hope im making you feel the same . [ which i'll never find out about ] . i cant really put much more into this . im speechless . i love you . forever . ♥

i never thought id feel this safe again .
♥

team america.. FUCK YEAH !

2005-05-29T13:07:51Z

man .. my summer started out pretty good =)
the original CAP is back .. jay/jared/ethan .. they dont want anything to do with it i guess . or at least in my view.
but yeah ..
wednesday we went to a local show. the bands were pretty badass .. all the things i love shouldve sang when they played norma jean . it wouldve sounded better ..
thursday me . ant . sean . andrew & steven went to the IDT show. there was NO PIT !? for fucking IDT it made me so upset . you motherfuckers .. devil driver was pretty badass . there was like .. a 10 yr. old kid there moshing . he was awesome .. i wanted to hug him !
friday was fuckin great .. me . anthony . sean . andrew . steven . brando & josh stayed the night at anthony/sean's & got drunk as a motherfucker .. hehe .. jay . dirty . & ~~kevin cook~~ were there . but they ended up leaving early .. but maan . that shit was great you guys =) .. next time .lets try to keep our clothes on to avoid having to stumble around the house looking for our shirts .. hahaah . ♥ ..
yesterday woke up at like fucking 8:10 with a hotdog by my leg.. everyone was in different spots .. andrew had syrup in his hair . sean had ketchup and mustard in his hair . pam sprayed on him . same for josh . & smooshed up crackers in his hand .. but chevy ate the hotdog by sean =( .. after they cleaned up & we dropped everyone off at home . me & ant slept til 2 .. & picked up. sean . andrew . steven & brando . then we went to the beaacch =) i didnt get ANY sun whatsoever . buuut .. the water was warm .. we saw some crazy ass shark too .. wuuuuh .. left around 7 ? .. got taco bell !!! mmm . & came home .. i hope my summer keeps going good ..
i love you guys so much .
you too anthony . = P ♥

♥

__falseideals @ 2005-05-25T00:19:00

2005-05-25T04:19:14Z

tonight sucks . </3

__falseideals @ 2005-05-24T06:51:00

2005-05-24T10:51:05Z

man .. i pretty much have the perfect life as of now :]
i have a absolutely gorgeous boyfriend & he actually wants me for something other than sex .
my parents are acting all .. awesome-ish !?
me & jess patched shit up .
so did me & seanzy .
sean & jess hooked up :] so they're both happy for once .

i have more . just dont have time :\

oh && my brothers still a douche .

♥
i love you so much anthony .

__falseideals @ 2005-05-19T14:47:00

2005-05-19T18:47:47Z

lately everythings been good .. although i realized most of my friends dont care for me as much as i thought .

Your Taste in Music:

90's Alternative: Highest Influence

90's Rock: Highest Influence

Alternative Rock: Highest Influence

Heavy Metal: Highest Influence

Punk: Highest Influence

80's Alternative: High Influence

Adult Alternative: High Influence

Classic Rock: High Influence

Hair Bands: High Influence

Hip Hop: High Influence

80's Pop: Medium Influence

80's Rock: Medium Influence

90's Hip Hop: Medium Influence

90's Pop: Medium Influence

Progressive Rock: Medium Influence

Ska: Medium Influence

Dance: Low Influence

Old School Hip Hop: Low Influence

How's Your Taste in Music?

You Have A Type A- Personality

A-

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

i love you anthony ..
♥

__falseideals @ 2005-05-18T10:37:00

2005-05-18T14:37:13Z

wow . mom actually let me stay home from school today .. &&&& shes being nice to me !? what the hell is going on .. anthony . you better come back soon . i miss you = (

i love teh amferney . ♥

__falseideals @ 2005-05-12T14:50:00

2005-05-12T18:50:58Z

KAGEY HINSON MOYERS . I FUCKING HATE YOU WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE . AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SHIT YOU'VE EVER PUT ME THROUGH . SINCE IM SUCH A ' BAD GIRLFRIEND '

FUCK YOU.

XxImLoSeRxX (1:24:29 AM): oops..sorry..i've been drinking and that slipped
XxImLoSeRxX (1:37:51 AM): and i want to cum all over your tits and chest and face
XxImLoSeRxX (1:37:54 AM): sorry about that too

^ thats fucking pathetic that you send that to your ex girlfriend who is happy with her fucking boyfriend . stop trying to bring people down with you if you're not fucking happy .

and anthony .
I LOVE YOU . ♥

__falseideals @ 2005-05-09T13:08:00

2005-05-09T17:11:09Z

anthony baby . i love you so fucking much . ♥

__falseideals @ 2005-05-03T15:07:00

2005-05-03T19:06:59Z

Your #1 Match: ENTP

The Visionary

You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.
You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.
Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.
You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments.

You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #2 Match: ESTP

The Doer

You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second.
You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown.
Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor.
You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you.

You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur.

Your #3 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #4 Match: ESFP

The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #5 Match: INTP

The Thinker

You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.
Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.
Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.
A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.

You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

What's Your Personality Type?

__falseideals @ 2005-04-26T15:56:00

2005-04-26T19:56:51Z

ONE DAY TIL MOTHERFUCKIN SOILWORK BITCHES .

__falseideals @ 2005-04-25T06:10:00

2005-04-25T10:10:31Z

kagey . the song counting stars by sugarcult is something that needs to be dedicated to you .. it reminds me of you .. no wonder i cry everytime i hear it ..

♥

__falseideals @ 2005-04-14T23:04:00

2005-04-15T03:04:29Z

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the birds outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake.
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. A huge sale at your favorite store.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Making other people laugh.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss.
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Competing with your friend and beating your friend.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you
41. Watching the sunrise/sunset.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone that cares about you deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think

__falseideals @ 2005-04-11T20:23:00

2005-04-12T00:23:33Z

In loving memory of Scott Gotlieb (aka-drummer for "Bleed the Dream")

Scott Gotlieb passed away on April 10th 2005

♥

__falseideals @ 2005-04-05T22:57:00

2005-04-06T02:57:20Z

11 years since the death of Kurt Donald Cobain ..
we love & miss you
♥

__falseideals @ 2005-04-04T16:27:00

2005-04-04T20:27:42Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	86%
Stability	\|\|\|\|	16%
Orderliness	\|\|	10%
Empathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Artistic	\|\|	10%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Food indulgent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%

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craves attention, messy, open, rash, irritable, likes large parties, low self control, weird, fragile, does not like to be alone, emotionally sensitive, worrying, depressed, heart over mind, does not respect authority, dependent, not rule conscious, not good at saving money, more interested in relationships than intellectual pursuits, likes to fit in, very social, frequently second guesses self, phobic, suspicious, not careful, outgoing, vain, compassionate, aggressive, likes to make fun, hates to lose

woooooooooooooh . not doin much today . just school . and now to sleep . i miss you amferney .. =(

♥

__falseideals @ 2005-03-31T23:54:00

2005-04-01T04:54:06Z

anthony .. you're an absolutely amazing person. ♥

__falseideals @ 2005-03-31T13:28:00

2005-03-31T18:29:22Z

WEEEESSSAAAHHH !! Hurry and come home. I miss you =(

♥

__falseideals @ 2005-03-26T12:43:00

2005-03-26T17:43:37Z

CHELSEA RYAN HUNT IS A FUCKING SLUT .

sorry thought i had to share with the world .
since she likes to fuck guys in dumpsters and get
MAGGOT CROTCH !!

stupid slut .
--
i love you amferney ♥

__falseideals @ 2005-02-19T13:19:00

2005-02-19T18:19:22Z

friends only .

FUCK.