"can't" and "sorry" seem to be the words of the past few days
i don't know what to do with myself anymore.
i haven't been this depressed in a long time.

there are things i guess i could be happy about, i've been seeing and talking to more peope, but i just don't even want to put myself out there to risk the inevitable disappointment that'll end up happening.
maybe i just shouldn't have expectations anymore.