lost control again . . .

__electrickissx @ 2005-06-16T15:47:00

2005-06-16T20:47:55Z

this girl betsy just made a myspace and told me to help her get friends
caus' im just that cool. =)

www.myspace.com/18777271

__electrickissx @ 2005-06-16T14:57:00

2005-06-16T19:57:42Z

new pictures

2005-04-20T20:39:39Z

& go to gay prom, everybody's doing it.
http://www.ligaly.com/events/pridegala/2005/index.htm

__electrickissx @ 2005-03-01T17:42:00

2005-03-01T22:44:27Z

Wow I've had the craziest past week of my life.
Basically I got in trouble (trouble is putting it lightly) because of my friends' public drunkeness and disturbing the peace (which is such bullshit). my parents blame me when I WASNT EVEN DRINKING AT ALL NOT ONE SIP!
My parents want me dead.
Anyway. I don't use livejournal that much anymore. I'm more of a myspace whore now. So you should add me there.
<33 take care everyone

__electrickissx @ 2005-01-23T17:10:00

2005-01-23T22:11:44Z

sorry I've been such a bad livejournal friend to everyone.
Just know that I love you all and the lack of updates is due to nothing more than a lack of time. :'(
I hope you still love me.
<333

If I finnish this essay soon I'll think of a really great update and I'll take pictures too. =)

My friend actually is making me update because she has to do research for an essay and needs help. So if any of you have any time can you go to her livejournal and fill out a really short poll. It is private and everything. xardealx

Thanks guys.
Much love <3

__electrickissx @ 2004-11-14T15:50:00

2004-11-14T20:51:05Z

__electrickissx @ 2004-11-13T21:51:00

2004-11-14T02:52:02Z

Clever is the general word
While always showing that she's hurt
But never wrong, but never wrong
It takes a lot to make the end
It takes a lot of smart thinking
But never wrong, but never wrong

Clever, clever is all
But you're never wrong
Clever, clever is all
But you're never wrong

i had a really good weekend =)
update with pictures later. <3333

matt

stealing from rachie.

2004-11-04T23:35:16Z

Sign it now or die.

http://www.hrc.org/millionformarriage/index.shtml

<33333matt

__electrickissx @ 2004-11-01T18:42:00

2004-11-02T00:52:25Z

i'm in a really good mood today for some reason. I don't really know why but i love this happy feeling =) hehe
today was a very relaxing monday. I took some photos, played the guitar a bit and went skateboarding around town because for the first time I didn't have a ton of homework. my english teacher told me she wants to try to get a poem I wrote published, which fuckin owns. it made me happy and proud of myself for the first time in ages.
i'm still not really having a lot of luck with the ladies which sucks because I love having just one person. i'm always happy in a relationship and i hate being single. I know that a lot of guys completely disagree with me but that's just how i am. I like having one girl to make happy.
I really want to try to go to the city this weekend. That was random but I just realized I miss a lot of my friends there and doing all the crazy fun shit we always do, we're such jackasses but it's great.
Today i also told of this dick kid in my health class who made a comment about me being bi. Like it's something i should be fucking upset or ashamed about when that asshole is the one who should be ashamed if anything because he is just a fat closed minded dumbass. i'm really not that mean but this kid is such a dick, he's been that way since middle school towards everyone. he is like the kind of kid who picks on little girls and starts lame rumors about his ex girlfriends.
so ya basically the only bad thing that happened today was that i lost my norma jean cd in school, which pissed me off cus it would have never happened if i had just charged my ipod last night. so now i gotta buy a new one =(

__electrickissx @ 2004-10-30T20:56:00

2004-10-31T01:59:43Z

i'm going to action action at the downtown with rachie (xardealx)
if anyone else is going comment and we should meet up! <3 matt

__electrickissx @ 2004-10-30T19:08:00

2004-10-31T00:08:20Z

Incomplete and total adoration my gift to you my heart was yours. ten weeks you shaped it in one night you murdered it. torn from my chest im layed at your feet . that first step you took was the worst. since then you've walked a thousand miles. in silence short of a mark i still have these memories. but we will never see what we could have been. remember when we talked about where we would be in a one year from now. remember when u held my hand like youd never let it go. rememeber cause thats all you can do. well never make another memory. well never make another memory. I iwsh i would have died in your amrs the last time we were together. so i wouldnt have to wait with out you today. this time i thought things were real. you said they were what happend.. you were a priority was i an option. i let you see a side i dont share with anyone. Promises are just word unless they are fufilled. And here from the beginning all i had to offer was my heart. Im sorry that wasnt enough. So we will go our own ways and hopefully you will remember the things i told you. Hopefully youll understand that everyhting i said was in Scincerity. A broken Heart is not what i wanted from this but i guess ive learned from this But arent you supposed to learn from your mistakes. I dont consider this a mistake. I just wish the story didnt end this way. Cause im still in love with the person helped me write it. Remember when u held my hand Like youd never let it go. Remember when we talked about where wed be a year from now.

__electrickissx @ 2004-10-30T16:24:00

2004-10-30T23:31:37Z

i've got some new pictures. I kind of never have time for livejournal anymore. It sucks, because I miss going on. I cant wait till winter vacation when I will have a break from school. The summer would be even better but thats so far away i don't even want to think about it =(
did anyone see Senses Fail? and how has everyones weekend been? i went to the mall today for the first time in forever. its weird that they already have that santa clause thing set up already..
oh and i hate being single
<3 matt

__electrickissx @ 2004-10-11T19:46:00

2004-10-12T00:46:46Z

So what happens in your room
when youre all alone
with me at home going crazy over you
behind these bedroom walls
every night I sing along
with all her favorite songs
I sing until my voice is gone
until my lungs are bleeding
tell me you don't miss these brown eyes
and that you're not in love.

Take this stupid heart
I know it's all you ever want me for
and I hope you keep it close
so that everyone knows
that it's all because of you
that im dead to the world

I hate the way you look at me
wheres the pills for that thing
that you call sweeping me off my feet
it's girls like you that keep open graves
for boys like me that keep themselves locked up for days
behind these bedroom walls
every night I sing along
with all her favorite songs
I sing until my voice is gone
until my lungs are bleeding
tell me you don't miss these brown eyes
and that you're not in love.

I won't wait for you to make me stop.

behind these bedroom walls
every night I sing along
with all her favorite songs
I sing until my voice is gone
until my lungs are bleeding
tell me you don't miss these brown eyes
and that you're not in love.

__electrickissx @ 2004-10-11T18:36:00

2004-10-11T23:37:25Z

__electrickissx @ 2004-09-29T18:25:00

2004-09-29T22:37:20Z

hey guys. <3 thanks to everyone who commented on my first entry, i added all of you. u made me feel happy about my new hair =)
how has school been for everyone? i've been really busy with all of the work, sat prep, etc. i've been trying to go skating as often as i can before winter comes when i wont get to go. my dad has been an asshole about me "maintainging a 4.0" throughout this year so i can go to columbia, where he went. i don't really want to go to columbia that much, it seems too hard and i want to have a social life in college too. but i guess its good for my profession and i do want to go to school in the city. but i also really like a lot of colleges in boston. so i dont know yet. atleast iam not a senior so i dont have to decide now. anyway being single sucks. it feels weird. rachel and i are really good friends now but everything is different. i miss things and now i dont know whats going to happen with us or where we are headed. part of me wishes we could fix things but i have a feeling we cant or she wont. sorry emo vent.<3bye

__electrickissx @ 2004-09-27T15:25:00

2004-09-27T22:25:37Z