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August 2nd,
2006
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i realize i haven;t updated in a very long time. i thought perhaps i should take a moment to say something
but i am not sure as to what i should say
nobody reads this anyways.
and anyone that does knows basically everything that i am doing in my life.
life is fantastic right now.
my boyfriend, jason is amazing.
i spend as much time with him as possible.
i love him a lot.
and i think that this is going to be something very special.
i love my friends. they are amazing.
i love my new job.
[i work at the local pages now]
&&i just feel that everything is all worth it these days.
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June 18th,
2006
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 so i have been thinking. and there;s something i never have realized before until now. and to be honest what i have come across has put so much peace over me. i was talking to this girl online the other night. we were just chatting. something came up about the whole situation with jeremy. and she was trying to console me about the situation and tell me about one of her own situations of losing someone very close to her. and then it happened. she said something like don;t you wish that they would come back just long enough for you to tell them one more thing. &&my immediate reaction was to say i don;t know i think the only thing i would want to say was something that he has always known. and to me idk it made me feel a little better. because atleast i know that he has known. he has known how much i love him no matter what. and that really is the most important thing to me. i love jeremy lyman and i will never forget any memory of us together.
in other news. not as great but still wonderful. i got a new job. i will be starting on the 27th :D i am so happy about that right now. it will be great. i am getting out of alorica. which is pretty much the best news ever. mhmmm. that is going to be a big release for me. eeeeeeeek.
oh and i am in love.
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October 6th,
2005
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you know the deal.
comment to be added+++
love;;;
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October 4th,
2005
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i am falling in love[with a knife]
&&i will not make sense[with my writings in blood]
i am not your normal happiness.
i dance to the music in my head.
i look up to you
you look down my shirt
my mind is in pieces.
i am currently still searching for some.
look under the bed.
pull out the band-aids bitches.
honestly.
this is so fucked up.
i am laughing at myself
"w h a t were you thinking?"
you commit all these sins
"does it make you happy?"
you try to fit in
do whatever you can
you lost yourself
"can you be found again?"
i looked in the mirror today
"who is that looking at me?"
i want to crawl out of my own skin
and burn it til there's nothing left
"who is that outside girl?"
she was n e v e r me
i am t r a p p e d living this life
"how can you escape?"
there is no escape.
i am trapped in my own skin
s t o p tearing at me with dull razors
"can you feel the blood stream?"
its washing me away
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