hill

__discodaydream @ 2007-04-05T22:14:00

2007-04-06T05:17:27Z

being in love is the best and the worst thing in the world.

i dont know how people do long distance relatioships in the beginning when all you want to do is be with them!

i ache, and i cry, and i stress, and i look crazy.

ugh, i just pray pray pray

__discodaydream @ 2006-12-31T23:47:00

2006-12-31T23:47:26Z

im getting a camera soon, and if you guys saw the fucking view i have and how beautiful my life is, youd never ever live anywhere else.

__discodaydream @ 2006-12-13T22:37:00

2006-12-13T22:37:49Z

i cant wait to go home to los angeles.
i love studio city trees, and i miss seeing men and women in beautifu long coats.
i miss everyone so much.
i cant wait to see everyone cheerful and shopping.
i miss my sisters horribly.
i love isla vista so much.
i moved to a house on the beach, waking up is amazing.
the new girls im moving in with are all 3rd years at ucsb.
i love them already. im so excited. im pretty sure i wanna transfer over to santa cruz cus i wanna live in the forrest.

i cant wait to see katch and sheeeeerls! and alejaaa!!

i love little lj

__discodaydream @ 2006-10-25T21:41:00

2006-10-25T21:42:27Z

I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I just wanted to be your housewife
All i wanted was to be your housewife
I'll iron your clothes
I'll shine your shoes
I'll make your bed
And cook your food
I'll never cheat
I'll be the best girl you'll ever meet
And for a diamond ring
I'll do these kinds of things
I'll scrub your floor
Never be a bore
I'll tuck you in
I do not snore
I'd wear your black eyes
Bake you apple pies
I don't ask why
And i trys not to crys
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
And its nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to be a housewife
Is to be a housewife
'Cause it's nearly midnight
And all i want with my life
Is to die a housewife
Is to die a housewife

__discodaydream @ 2006-05-18T11:52:00

2006-05-18T19:03:50Z

ok so prom in two dayssss

sam and i are wierd, and thats gonna be awkward considering hes mad at me, and ihave to go at his house and be with him for the whole prom experience...i have date hopped 3 times, and im happy im going with joey, and i got his botanier thing and it was a lot....

and oh im so fucking boring and i think im going crazy cus i haev no hair appt. and i feel like everyone is plotting against me.

im worried im not gonna have fun at prom, so im getting some ectasy, and i feel like some huge drama is gonna blow up

im also worried im gonna be in a corner or in a bathroom the whole night cus i dislike people

OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-26T17:15:00

2006-04-27T00:21:13Z

i never thought id be the person that people would ignore when they called.

i never thought id be so unsure about my 'friends'

this all just breaks my heart so much

and the worst part is that she is hiding something from me and she hasnt told me

i have been waiting for her to tell me something huge for the past 3 weeks.

im tottally dying and freaking out.

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-23T12:20:00

2006-04-23T19:24:38Z

i always thought i was really lucky when i met people that i was able to be comfortable around and feel like they werent shady backstabbing people i had to constantly worry about...i thought theyd always have my back, and regardless wed support eachother...i dont know if i have that anymore

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-20T12:38:00

2006-04-20T19:43:04Z

im pretty sure im going to homeschool

and my amazing trillian is freaking out

bummer fer sure

THE WINDOW IS LIKE BELOW MY TASK BAR

DUBAAYAA TEEE EFFFFF

im trying to get a job at the rich bitch dog storeeeee too

Tite

OH NO

2006-04-16T05:23:03Z

IM TURNING INTO A DUMB GIRL

I WANT A BF!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-11T19:17:00

2006-04-12T02:21:43Z

BABIES IM GETTING THE HELL OUTTA HEREE!!!!!!!!

santa cruz babbbyy babbyyy

EVERYONE SHOULD GIMME SOME TIGHT DOWNLOAD RECCOMENDATIONS CUS IM MAKING A SUH-WEETTT MIXXX!

YIIPEEEKAAAYYYYAYYY MOFUCCKKKAAAZZZ

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-09T10:52:00

2006-04-09T19:04:52Z

im tired of my hair smelling like ciggarettes

im tired of waking up dirty

im tired of waking up with smudged eye make-up

im tired of sleeping in other peoples beds

im tired of vomit breath

i need a break from partying

im tired of being dumb

it ends today!

__discodaydream @ 2006-04-07T14:08:00

2006-04-07T22:17:24Z

im not graduating

__discodaydream @ 2006-03-30T13:44:00

2006-03-30T21:49:06Z

Dear Diary,
today there was a blizzard. mama said to stay inside and let it pass, but i hat to meet bobby at the general stoor. apparently his mamma told him to stay at home to, and i waited until dark. when i got home dinner was cold and daddy was dead. i asked mamma why he just lay there, and she just said o'er and o'er

nobody knows what its like to be a good catholic like me, nobody knows.

i sat in his rocker and looked down on him, the perfect pool of blood gathering and settling around his wooly head. he was a furry man and the blood was in the hair and it looked like road kill. mamma made his favorite dinner, and we ate with papa on the floor. bobby came over after dark and he called the police. im waitin for mamma now, stayin a few nights with bobby, and he says we aint gotta wait to get married. im nervous but he's gentle.

__discodaydream @ 2006-02-02T16:39:00

2006-02-03T00:54:37Z

i was informed i was failing two classes today.
one of them i have taken 3 times.
and she failed me again by 4 percent even tho she said id defintely pass.
its senior year. im taking my final tonight for my art history 102 class at valley college.
i have been taking it for the past two months for 3 hrs a night mon-thursday. if i dont pass that, then im done. im dropping out or killing myself cus i cant do this anymore. i dont give a shit about school and it just really sucks that i have to get through this to do anything.

basically i sobbed at school for the last hour, ive never even cryed at school before. the deans stopped me and both gave me a motivational speech that only makes things shittier.

my grandfather died and my dad has been in denver for the past three weeks. i take the bus. i have no time. my mother turned my baby sister against me and now she says 'mama i dont wanna be near haley' i am poor, stupid, and i have nothing thats substantial in my life. its all gone down down down

__discodaydream @ 2006-01-25T22:11:00

2006-01-26T06:21:25Z

1. Thank the person that tagged you.
2. List 5 random/strange/weird things about you.
3. Tag 5 other people.

thank you sheerlie

1. i fantasize about doing crazy things in the bathroom of my lecture hall in my art history class
2. i fantasize about wat my kids would look like with any boy that i take interest in...
3. i wanna do a documentary on homeless people, and those who ride the dash
4. i dont hate much but i absoultely despise scratching noises and i snap and freak out when i hear them
5. i hate family guy

um ilona, katia in case she hasnt done it, and i dont really have any friends that still do this lj stuff

__discodaydream @ 2006-01-23T17:55:00

2006-01-24T02:02:57Z

gimme a boyfriend thats cute silly weird and crazyyyyy

im a senior

2005-09-06T01:50:58Z

so long sweet summer
i stumbled upon you and greatfully basked in your rays
i fell into you now your gracefully falling away
hey thanks thanks for that summer
its cold where your going i hope that your hearts always warm
i gave you the best i gave you the best that i had

its the last year of school

__discodaydream @ 2005-07-04T17:05:00

2005-07-05T00:15:01Z

its my birthday...
and so this morning my mother called to police to let them know that i assulted her in defense for my defenseless 5 year old sister..
so the police came put me in cuffs the usual, and the day just got better and better. stephanie got grounded and again came to see me and then left me for her bf again..
i have no one that loves me even tho i got 320948 calls and comments for my birthday, i cant help but think its all bullshit...they all 'care' but i feel like they dont...i jsut cant handle it...the person i wanted to call me the most on my birthday didnt, and i left stephanies car with katia today crying...its fucking pathetic...some birthday...its nice to know how much you mean to people...all i ever wanted was to be in a relationship with someone who loved me and cared about me as much as i did them...i havent really eaten for 2 days, summer school starts tomorrow so no eating plus me taking the bus everyday and walking 2 miles per day....im looking forward to being as thin as ever and as unhappy as ever...at least ill have my partner in crime sara bauer to be depressed and meloncholy about it...thank you so much july fourth for always allowing everyone to be happy and letting me be so upset..w/e maybe i just like to drown in self pity but i hate my life...and i really dont care anymore...everyone with any importance now seems to be occupied...

MAKE ME AND INCREEDIBLE MIX! ASAP!

2005-06-12T00:40:08Z

i like it when you hear people and they are like
'omg did you read her away message?!'
thats so me...but keep it on the DL

i also love it when your friends with someone on myspace, but then you guys in real life arent friends or dont talk...gay

i know when my best friend needs something and then i call her and she is like 'omg i need you!'

i love getting high no matter what anyone else says
i hate it when people try to bring me down
i got exactly what i asked for and now im fucked...
im going to die durning summer school and i scored 100bux from my new job
if someone wants to get me a job or give me money id be really happy.
oh yea and if you have a gym membership or wanna take me to the gym id love that too. and if you wanna drive me to the tanning salon, yea id love it...

birthday list:
ipod
another swim suit
later curfew
liposuction
permenant tan

and

__discodaydream @ 2005-05-19T18:17:00

2005-05-20T01:22:18Z

im over prom.
people are upset with me cus of who im going with.
oc tonight im so excited. finale baby.
its not my fault if he wants to go with me.
i dont have a dress.
oh well.
ill figure it out.

dress.
nails.
tan.
my weekend.

lets chill bitches!

__discodaydream @ 2005-05-14T15:58:00

2005-05-14T23:06:44Z

im cleaning things out.
friends and all.

Your Birthdate: July 4

Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer.

You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.

Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.

Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.

The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled.

You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.

There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

im so glad its hot.
i have no money and i need to go shopping.
my phone is kinda turned back on.
my feelings are still being fuct with by boys on a regular basis.
plans are still getting fuct up.
im still unhappy with my looks and every livejournal entry is redundant.
time to delete my life! and start new...
no boys
no valley circle
no sobriety
fuck being dependant on other people for happiness.
fuck liars.
fuck people who lead you on.
im losing another 5-10 lbs anyway i can.
im gonna just bake in the sun for the rest of my life.
maybe ill look better when im done.
so then ill feel better when im done.
so ill just listen to my emo for the rest of my life and cry like usual and refresh my myspace page like a dumb bitch and when people will im me ill act like everything is fine.

keepin it reeeeeeeeeal.

2004-06-13T20:44:26Z

SLUUTS ONLY!

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