dim star

FIN

2005-05-30T19:55:22Z

this is DEAD.
me? well, figure out where i am now...
personal site? go click the WWW down there *points down*

__dimstar @ 2005-03-15T10:07:00

2005-03-15T02:08:07Z

im just helping out...

spread the word peeps!

~~idrewhearts~~ = bunnyspoons
she misses you over there

__dimstar @ 2005-02-28T16:45:00

2005-02-28T09:03:51Z

how come there's an empty room beside my heart?
don't tell me there's nothing left to say because

... words were something we both never needed.

__dimstar @ 2005-02-15T03:15:00

2005-02-14T19:25:52Z

so you're all wondering where i've been...
well, i've been cramming my ass off. this week's my midterms and last week was hell. GAR.

i can't remember a single night when i slept earlier than 2am.

i'm really busy but i'm enjoying it. takes my mind off the crappy ♥day...

oh and that reminds me, my site's up now! you can view it haha! there's not much in it yet but i made sure my school files were uploaded, well... all because i needed it up, my prof's gonna check it tomorrow. and yes dtot, some of my school works are there, i added more into it since you last saw it, d ka na mabibitin!

ok, i'm finished waiting for my files to be up. i gotta get some sleep now, im so exhausted.. i'll talk about my life later haha. as soon as i get more than 3 hrs of sleep. ok?

btw, now im officially a walking skeleton... you should see me, people kept oogling all weird like.. prolly thinking if my calendar's way off because it's not halloween yet.

__dimstar @ 2005-01-31T14:31:00

2005-01-31T06:32:24Z

i made jools and nino wallpapers too! haha

lookie here:
jool's

nino's

my early valentines gift for them :)

i really should go start on my flash ecard... gah!! im sooo lazy these past few days... always behind on what should be done, always doing everything at the last minute

You Are 16 Years Old

16

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

__dimstar @ 2005-01-30T16:29:00

2005-01-30T08:30:00Z

shameless plug:

__dimstar @ 2005-01-30T02:43:00

2005-01-29T20:47:16Z

ok so, ragee wanted wallpapers for her new 'desktop skin'. my task is to give it as pink as possible... and i'm finally finished!

these are edited works of kurt halsey, and since she swore to not use it in any other way except for her wallpapers, we are not violating any copyright laws. :) thanx kurt for the wonderful images and the inspirations

gee, don't worry, ima make grungy ones next time... :) kaw pa! haha of course, ima use it namn din for my desktop e, so expect more pink wallpapers soon!! :))

kiss wallpaper

(this is mah fave!! i colored it in, took a lot of time...)

kiss wallpaper v.2

(didn't know what's better!! haha)

nutshell wallpaper

song wallpaper

__dimstar @ 2005-01-27T09:39:00

2005-01-27T01:39:54Z

hay... i'm in my 3D drawing class... last night i slept at 3am in the mornin (ok so it wasn't last night) because i was figuring out how to open my autocad drawing on my dad's program and installing maya. i ended up deleting 3 programs just so i can free up disk space!! GARR. so you can say i'm pretty sleepy right now... plus i was talking to sickchiq on YM last night, i was telling her to join NUMINA and we were talking about web hosting. :) so last night i remembered nikiniki and our avatars!!! look!!

<<<< me and niki's identical avatars
right down to the same tank top!! imagine that!

i'm so bored... oh! btw, i'm currently lovin sunshine_candy's site! props to sammi and nikki!!! :)

i'm choosing between mobilehive and turfsite as my webhost, anybody who could give me tips out there? what i should look for,etc? hehe... im lost. but EXCITED as hell!! haha. imagine that, after 2 years, i'll be able to have my own domain!! haha.

last night, my ex (yeah, boyface is my ex now...) was telling me that he wasn't sure if he wants us to get back together or do he look for another girl. when i asked him why, he told me it's because he wants to experience another... :( hm, okay?! GRR, i knew i shouldn't have mentioned this at all because my day would suck! oh well..

__dimstar @ 2005-01-26T23:46:00

2005-01-26T15:54:40Z

be proud! animo benilde: HSBC Young IT Awards hah! take that! hahah. ok enough of the gloating...

i'm finally going to have a domain. it's not up yet so i won't give out the link yet, but it'll be soon, so watch out for it.

plus, i've finally gotten Maya installed. WHEEE 3D graphics here i come! haha, i'm still a beginner so no great works from me yet, but im excited to be able to create 3D drawings. i'm looking for cad2000 so i can continue my freakin 'street signs' plate. which i didn't get to save the work i did in class. GRR. oh well, you can tell how hectic school is! haha

oh and hey, i made a xanga... yeah i know, not another e-journ! haha, i can't help myself, i was curious! haha :D

__dimstar @ 2005-01-20T23:14:00

2005-01-20T15:16:19Z

i just finished my ofmulti homepage haha! its too simple... lolx but i guess it'll work... it's just so i can save my exercises into the ftp :)

wanna see?

__dimstar @ 2005-01-19T16:41:00

2005-01-19T08:59:49Z

weh, i was doin my autocad exercise, i'm sooooo confused!! i'm not used to solving math problems anymore... haha! although its just a simple exercise... lookie:

(image)

oh well, i'm doing nothing now... just waiting for people around me to finish up.. .and for the bell. ugh!! i want the necklace melonwatermelon's selling in sunshinecandy... but iono, its too expensive.. 250 bucks? i'll look for the pic so i can show you guys... i'm still thinking about it. that's how i want it soo bad.

__dimstar @ 2005-01-16T22:52:00

2005-01-16T15:23:20Z

er... blame it on my lack of anything interesting to do... haha!

yup... nothing better to do... doesn't his avatar look so gay?!

__dimstar @ 2005-01-10T13:12:00

2005-01-10T05:14:35Z

oh lookie my cute wallpaper!! haha compliments of http://www.iloveegg.com weeee ayt, well, its been back to school with me. i have sooo many subjects i love but im so stressed because im nervous i won't be gettin high grades this time...

anyway, i'll just update with more stuff later...

__dimstar @ 2005-01-08T20:54:00

2005-01-08T12:56:56Z

im posting this because monkey_bear wanted to keep this alive. and after reading it myself, i want it to too. so here goes the article removed from the Daily Collegian website (wherever that was):

What She Doesn't Know Will Kill You

by Matt Brochu
November 21, 2003

You met her a few months ago, and somehow she managed to seep into your subconscious like that "Suga how you get so fly" song. Just like you have no clue who the hell sings it, you don't know why she's there. But she is, whether you like it or not. You know her cell phone, her room phone. You can dial her Aunt Doreen's house in West Springfield (where she goes to do her laundry every two weeks) faster than you can peck-out 911. But she doesn't know.

Her screenname, that generic one with her first name followed by three to five random numbers or UMass, has its own category at the top of your buddy list. Not only do you know what a "Buddy Alert" is, you've rigged your computer to play "Fat Guy in a Little Coat" from "Tommy Boy" every time her screen name changes from gray to black. Then her away message comes down, and you have a decision to make. To IM or not to IM? These are the ridiculous games that you play on a daily basis. But she doesn't know.

She's it. All right, so maybe not "it" it. Not necessarily Ms. Right, but closer to Ms. Right-up-there-with-Anna-Kournikova-and-Lizzie-McGuire-on-your-list-of-people-you'd-give-anything-to-be-stranded-with-on-a-broken-down-elevator. But it's about more than that. When is it ever about more than that? Never. Not like frilly white dress, overpriced catering, embarrassing drunk in-laws more, but closer to UMass sweatpants, two D.P. Dough Roni Zonies, a futon and a movie you have no interest in seeing more. But she doesn't know.

She's gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement. More like you're startled every time you see her because you notice something new in a "Where's Waldo" sort of way. More like you can't stop writing third grade run-on sentences because you can't remotely begin to describe something ... someone ... so inherently amazing. But you're a writer. You can describe anything. That's what you do: pictures to words, events to words, words to even better words. But nothing seems right. More like you're afraid that if you stare at her for too long, you'll prove your parents right: that yes, your face will stick that way. But you wouldn't mind.

You wouldn't mind that the questioning, "Hello?" on the other end makes you want to smile and throw up at the same time. You wouldn't mind worrying about what to get her for her birthday and spending $300 when you only have $17.50 and a Triple-A card to your name. You wouldn't mind that she left your TV on and the blaring infomercials wake you up at 4 a.m. ... because it gives you a chance to watch her sleep. You don't mind that you've slipped up twice when you were hammered and hinted at how you feel, but she was too drunk to remember. So she doesn't know.

Sure, she's pretty, but it's about more than that. You two connect. Anything you throw at her, she can throw right back. You figured out what's going on in that predictable head of hers in under five minutes, but something tells you her heart would take about five years.

You remember everything she's ever said to you, and when that freaks her out you blame it on your photographic memory (which is a lie, you have a 2.7 GPA). You can't remember your teaching assistant's name, and you can't remember that your Puffton rent check was due four days ago, yet you remember the middle name of the kid who tripped her in fifth grade and gave her that cute little scar on her shoulder. Maybe it's because you actually listen when she talks. When do you actually listen? Never. But she doesn't know.

But she has a boyfriend. The kid is a tool, and you are not. He has no redeeming qualities, and you have about 38, even when you're hung over. You could kick his butt, and you've never been in a fight in your life. He treats her like crap, and you would treat her like the princess she believed herself to be on Halloween in 1988.

But she loves him. He wouldn't know what he had even if she slapped him across the face and dumped him, but somehow she still loves him. And somehow she still doesn't know.

Then, out of nowhere, she slaps him across the face and dumps him. She comes to you. You've been there before, so you seem like the smartest guy on earth. She cries, but your corny half-joke, half-compliment somehow gets a smile out of her that almost makes you feel ashamed that you're the only one around who gets to witness it. It looks like you might make her realize that all guys don't deserve to have rocks thrown at them.

But nothing changes. She doesn't know. You get that library elevator feeling in your stomach that she'll never know. You get that feeling that you'll be forced to write a cheesy Collegian column about her that makes "Sleepless in Seattle" look like "Girls Gone Wild."

You go to sleep. You wake up. She doesn't know. You're not in love. You're not obsessed. You blame it on the fact that you just need to get some, but still, it's about more than that. It would just be nice if once in your life, things worked out the way you wanted them to.

So ___________, it's about time you know.

Now cut this out, fill in her name, and give it to her, coward. Just let me know how it works out.

Matt Brochu is a Collegian columnist.

i found this in this URL too: http://philhuang.com/reading-shedoesntknow.php incase you wanted to bookmark it without going to my page.... spread the word! :)

__dimstar @ 2005-01-05T12:16:00

2005-01-05T04:19:38Z

its been a while, i haven't been posting due to the very busy but very boring and hassling xmas season and finals projects before that. now, im here again, waiting for my brain to register that i'm going to school and for my legs to quit freezing and get moving because im about to be late! haha.

updates:
x. MY PHONE'S MESSED UP AGAIN, so yeah, it's broken haha
x. I LOVE BEING A SUN USER! weeeeeeee 24/7 unlimited is the best, daldalan galore with my friends
x. IM LOVIN MY PROFS! weeeee digital illustration? and flash?! who wouldn't be pleased?
x. I HAVEN'T WRAPPED my gifts for my friends!! haha
ima post pictures soon...

and kiks, i miss ya!

__dimstar @ 2004-12-17T02:23:00

2004-12-16T18:24:16Z

Isang araw
Magigising akong hindi ikaw
Ang unang iniisip.

Mapapansin ko
Ang anyo ng umaga rito,
Ang lasa ng kape, ang hedlayn sa diyaryo.

Hindi ako titingin sa orasan
At mag-iisip mayat maya
Kung nasan ka,

Kung naabutan ka ng ulan,
Kung kumain ka na
Ng pananghalian.

Isang hapon,
Hindi ako biglang matitigilan
Kung sumagi sa isip ang iyong pangalan;

At hindi kita maalala
Sa mga tugtuog ng radio
O sa mga nakikita sa pligid ko.

Isang gabi,
Hihiga akong hindi hinahanap
Ang inaantok n boses mo sa telepono.

Matutulog ako,
At hindi mananginip;
At magigising na hindi ikaw

Ang
Unang
Iniisip.

__dimstar @ 2004-12-16T00:18:00

2004-12-15T16:20:41Z

i've got nothing to do... sue me.
you know that joke?

ps: real entry, look at my previous entry.DAMN im so bored

__dimstar @ 2004-12-15T22:51:00

2004-12-15T14:54:00Z

somebody posted on my friendster bulletin board... and i dunno what to say. i feel like she's talking to me but i know she's not... ok so here it is

I just don't get it why people nowadays give so
much importance on having a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Well, well well. So what's this topic all about huh?
First off I want to clear here that I am NOT a
female chauvinist or sexist, manhater or whatever
you call it. Reality bites. And based on my
experiences as well no matter how you guys argue
with me I know I have my grounds for saying such
things, so...

Not a manhater, and I can't be LOL. Majority of my
friends are guys. And duh?! I've been in 3 serious
relationships already. Longest was the one with
my last boyfriend, Rhyl (read my previous post and
you'll have a lil clue on what happened lol). It's just
so disappointing in the end when you get to your
senses and you realize that you just wasted too
much time, effort, emotions, and the worst thing
that can happen to anyone is to have your ego and
self esteem crushed by some sh*tty ass jerky guys
that's not even worth all of the sacrifices that you
made. Sad isn't it? But as what I always say,
welcome to the real world Sheens. You don't
expect people to treat you the way that you wanna
be treated. In this world where being ungodly is
more favorable you should learn how to stand on
your own when the world turn its back against you.
Don't expect peopl to do things for you. Learn how
to be independent and how to get up from a fall.
Admittedly, it took me some time before I was
able to get up.

For the past two years that I've been single my not-
so-happy past was able to serve as a lesson to
me for me to be a better person, and serve as my
friends' confidant whenever they seek me for
advise. So far, people have been asking me lately
how was I able to survive such experience that
they don't even think that a girl can handle such
thing specially at my young age at that time (I was
18-20) and do I survive being single for quite
some time already. The answer is simple, avoid
commiting the same old mistakes. And man, life is
too short to be wasted don't you think? Admittedly,
I used to stay at one corner and cry my ass off for
months but it just ended up making me feel more
miserable and sorry for myself.

And so if I'm all alone in Toronto? What's the big
deal if he left me and took me for granted despite
of the fact that I sacrificed half of my life just to be
with him, moving out from the place where I grew
up just to go to a foreign land where I don't even
know anyone except for the jerk who made me cry,
abused me, and used me. Learning how to stand
on my own as my talent helped me somehow, but
can't blame me if sometimes I feel sorry for myself
every now and then knowing the fact that I don't
have that much friends to run to and cry my ass off
and I end up spending $1000 just on long distance
calls. HAHA. There's no use feeling sorry for
myself. I have to live my life the way I want it to be.
With or without that asshole I said to myself.
Technically, I've been single for two years, but it
was just last month when I realized that there's so
much time to be spend on things that are more
worthwhile than trying to work on someone who's
not even being truthful to you. Harsh truth.

And on being single for two years, another set of
questions that people usually asks, "How can you
survive without companionship? The intimacy
part? Pare hindi ba lahat ng babae they need their
knights in shining armour?" The answer is simple:
How can I commit myself to someone when I can't
even commit myself to be single? And how can I
be in a relationship if just expect other people to
take care of me? Before entering a relationship,
you should know how to take care of yourself, thus
knowing how others want to be taken of as well.
Companionship issue? Well, I have my friends to
keep me company at times. And ey, being alone
every now and then is healthy as well. And yes
according to survey 90% of women want
companionship and all thus ending up getting a
boyfriend, but cmon the main reason why you
commit yourself to someone is because you love
that person right? Not just because you want
your own knight in shining armour.

Going back to my previous statement, you have to
learn how to take care of yourself before
commiting so that you know how your boyfriend
wants to be treated as well! It's just so funny that
although I just turned 21 last month people do get
shocked that I don't have a boyfriend, and they
make it sound like it is a MUST for girls, specially
at my age to have one. LIKE DUH?! I'm not even
planning on getting married yet, and how can I
plan those things when I haven't met my GB yet?
(God's best) It is better to wait for HIM rather than
waste so much effort, time, money etc. to
someone who's not even close to the word best
don't you think?

So please. No need to rush things. I'm not being a
hard to get girl here. I just believe that a guy, if he's
really so much into a girl that he really loves (trust
me girls on this one) HE WOULD DO ANYTHING
JUST FOR THAT GIRL. He would respect the girl
and at the same time give his best shot,
why? 'Coz he sure wants to bring home the bacon.
That simple. Even if the girl tells him to give her
some time and all no matter what happens IF HES
REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT YOU THEN HE
WOULD RESPECT YOUR DECISION AND WAIT
FOR YOU! Every girl wants to meet a guy who can
sweep them off their feet, and all I can say is the
wait is all worth it for that guy. No need to waste
your time and energy to some jerks and asswipes.
And ofcourse, each and everyone of us is GB in
the making. I know mine's somewhere out there
still looking for me. Ey I don't do the looking, guys
do the looking. They look for ME. HAHA! I am a
God's best in the making. Although most people
think that I am too good to be true at times,
specially whenever they find out that I don't smoke,
drink and do drugs (YES I am very much proud of
these things) I know there's still room for
improvement and humans aren't created to be
prefect. Incase you don't know I am veryy moody at
times. Even Keanu Reeves, he may have
everything but man, hes gay! You see the picture
here?

Lastly, learn how to be a cosmopolitan girl, errr I
mean being independent. Whether you're a guy or
a girl reading this I hope you get something from
this. *Allan I swear I owe you for calling me a
cosmopolitan girl. HAHAHA* Well, that's it for now.
=)

ps: it's kinda long... but was worth the read

__dimstar @ 2004-12-13T20:14:00

2004-12-13T12:18:54Z

ok, so this week has been so busy! i hardly had time to write on my journal, let alone go online! i already passed a lot of projects for my finals, two more to go!! my fredraw panels aren't agreeing with me, i haven't finished coloring them yet... to think that tomorrow by 8.00 i have to pass it sa sch. CRAM!!! although my interdes site is going along well, i designed a layout already but i'm not extremely happy with it, but well, it'll do...

hm.. what else... oh, i saw nikki on my homepage in friendster... hehe that got me to laugh :)

and on top of everything else, i still get around to check my accts on friendster! haha, yeah... i have a twisted sense of priorities! hm.

ok, i'll be back soon... and d, i MISS YOU!!!!!

__dimstar @ 2004-12-12T02:01:00

2004-12-11T18:03:03Z

It is NOT TRUE that you are not perfect
And that your special someone is not perfect either
What is important is, that you are PERFECT for
each other...

Once you say I LOVE YOU to a person
you automatically give that person
the right/authority to HURT YOU....

Remember that the BEST RELATIONSHIP
Is when you LOVE each other...
Love is STANDING IN not FALLING FOR
It is primarily GIVING not RECEIVING
It is by giving ones life with JOY, INTEREST,
UNDERSTANDING, HUMOR KNOWLEDGE
and of course SADNESS....

Don't waste your time WAITING for SOMEONE
who never really loved you the way you do
or felt the same way you did
but OPEN your HEART AGAIN
and GIVE YOURSELF the chance to find someone
who would make the PAIN and SACRIFICE of the(your) LOVE WORTH!...

Remember, IF we LOSE LOVE we LOSE it for a REASON
that reason may be TOO HARD
but whatever it is we just have TO BELIEVE
that GOD takes AWAY where HE give us
someone better...

"I've Honestly tried to let YOU GO,
I've Honestly tried to FORGET YOU,
I've Honestly tried not to THINK OF YOU,
but, I Honestly CAN'T because,
I Honestly don't want to"

__dimstar @ 2004-12-09T20:47:00

2004-12-09T12:49:46Z

IF YOU'RE IN THE PHILS AND ARE INTERESTED IN ARTS, some important dates to remember and go to:

in10city, a multimedia exhibit by 10 great multimedia artists from College of St. Benilde... till December 6-10 only, morning-7pm. Enterprise Center, Level 3, Tower 2, Ayala Avenue, Makati City. Don't miss this rare opportunity to see the future world-class artists!

Opening Exhibit and Awarding Ceremony of the 57th AAP Annual Art Competition 2004 on December 17, 2004 at GSIS Museum, Roxas Blvd at 6pm. AAP stands for Art Association of the Philippines. Witness hundreds of great works in Painting, Sculpture, Mixed Media, Photography, Print Making, Digital Art and Black & White Drawing. Exhibit runs until the second week of January 2005. GSIS Museum is near to the Boom na Boom and World Trade Center and very near to the Film Center, now Dream Theatre. Free admission. Hope you could come.

__dimstar @ 2004-12-08T02:56:00

2004-12-07T18:58:20Z

DANG! punyetang buhay to... nov 18... 2 days before aniv. ampucha. ano ba to? ha? kalimutan? gamitan!? gantihan!? ANG FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT. nasa TRASH pa, nyeta tinago. alam na mali. BWST. fine. ganyanan if ganyanan.

now, EXPLAIN THAT.

__dimstar @ 2004-12-07T16:59:00

2004-12-07T09:15:22Z

finally! cute shoes!! i've been scorging (?) every store everytime i go out to find the perfect shoes. i found one in Manel's but the next time i went back there, IT WAS OUT OF STOCK. so imagine my frustration... so i decided to get these one. although they're not as comfortable as the one i saw at Manel's i like it still, it looks real pretty with anything. my feet hurt a lot though... got blisters on my toes. so yeah...

today, i learned i was supposed to pass my finals in PHILIEN. on my previous entry, it was obvious that i knew that we were supposed to pass it on thursday. GOD, i panicked, i was so scared what consequence i'll get because i won't pass on time, i was worrying what to tell my prof. i decided to tell the truth and plead she accept it till later today and get a grade no higher than 80+. when i approached my prof, i told her what happened, and put on my puppydog face. miracles of miracles, i was given time till thursday to finish it without even given an ultimatum! I COULD HAVE DANCED WITH JOY!!!! i'm going to pray everyday for her from now on. :))

__dimstar @ 2004-12-06T22:16:00

2004-12-06T14:24:37Z

it's been a long day... protect the innocent! i said, but it was me who kept stabbing the knife inside my heart. let's face it, i'm a glutton for punishment. this week is one hell of a hell week. (redundant usage of 'hell' intended) ive got a lot of things on my mind, i don't know how i get up every morning and drag my ass into doing whatever i have to do.
just so i'll be reminded:
x. fredraw plates (tom)
x. fredraw inked (next week)
x. colorte tryptich with sam and nikki (next week)
x. philien 'scrapbooking' (thurs)
x. drafting plate (fri?)

last night was fun, although i really am guilty i came 2 hours late! i'll tell you all about it at my next post.
ps: anybody interested in melonwatermelon's danglies? she makes pretty ones, i swear. she'll have a stall in ateneo on dec 10. go there.

oh and i made a new acct in friendster, im on my 15th now. haha! sue me

__dimstar @ 2004-12-04T17:08:00

2004-12-04T09:33:47Z

there's this light after Yoyong. brilliant red sun, it's like it plans to make up for not showing for the past 2 days... and it scares me how its so hot now. funny, it almost seems like a metaphor. i'm talking with ilah now, she's sharing her one heck of a lovelife. and i can't help wondering how everyone of us has problems, one cannot compare with the other, all of it as complicated as the other. it just makes me realize im not alone, and that i shouldn't drown myself in misery, because just as quickly and as devastating the storm is, the sun would always shine through, sometimes it'll even be better than you'd expect.

and another song written like it was for me

Session Road - Suntok Sa Buwan

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan

'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin

Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin