While I was at home this weekend, I went with my mom and brother to the art store to pick up some supplies. I've never attempted painting before because i figured I was no good at it... I always just assumed that my brother had 'inheritted' my mother's skills with drawing, painting, etc... and that I should stick to my writing, music, and photography.
I've been in a really big creative slump for the past year... which seems like forever. It really is a long time to go without any sort of real outlet. I just started feeling like I was really mediochre at a lot of things, rather than being really good at one thing. It's not about being the best at something - it's about enjoying what you are doing and recieving some sort of outcome, whether it be a release, a connection, etc. I think it just was another reason to be apathetic towards any form of expression. This apatheia was in addition to my lack of space, time, etc... I just got distracted by the start of uni, being in a relationship (getting married, moving into my first apartment, bills etc).
But then I realize I've really got to reclaim something in myself that has been lost along with my desire to to create art in some form. I also realized I've been putting myself down by saying that I just didn't inherit the painting 'gene'. I KNOW that I can't draw... or at least yet... but I realized that I've never really tried abstract art seriously........... and that painting in general is a venue I've NEVER explored. What a shame.
So I went to Curry's and spent a bunch of money (that I don't really have), picking out some acrylic paints, a brush, and some cheap canvas boards with the help of my mom and brother, which was cool. They're really supportive of it.
So now I'm going to wait until Brian is at work.... then spread out a plastic bath curtain on the floor, put some music on, clear the coffee table out of the way, open the curtains, take off my socks, roll up my pants, and just DO. I would say try, but I'm going to try not to try. I don't want to look up techniques, or how to's... I want to have no clue what I'm doing and just let it happen. I've been told that I can just paint ovr my canvas with white and start again if I don't like it.
Worst comes to worse, I'll just have to buy a tub of white paint and a paint-roller. haha
