cut me

dreams

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 00:00:14 GMT

there is a world i think about... day and night..day and night.... i dream of it so much now that i want to be in it. right now the pictures are only in my head.. but i dont know soon... everything will be different.

thinking hurts your head

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 02:24:59 GMT

.. ... .. ... i cannot think anymore. i need him i want him i miss him i want to fuck him so badly that i dont know anything except that. hmmm.... its a good think that ali cannot read this.. because i hate him and i cannot stand him and i dont want to be with him anymore... i never wanted to be with him to begin with... grrrr......

i love him and they all know that and i want to be with him.

thinking too much

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 04:34:43 GMT

hmmmmm.. I can tell that this is going to be a long week... :( i went places today with people.... its was fun. im just glad to get out of the house once and a while...

well hmmm... i got engaged last night... and well it was hell and i wanted to cry. but hey i keep it together, until some people (sam) started to fuck with things like he always does.. :( sadness things are happeing and wow... yep ... things are just all around fucked up... and still i dont understand why im putting up with it as much as i have....hmmmmmmm......................STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID!

LOL this sound im listing too is so fucking stupid i love it.

my boo my boo my boo

hmm... ... ... ... ... ... ...
if you think too much than you will go crazy..

fuck

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 13:46:45 GMT

fuck him fuck him fuck him

worse christmas ever

i want to die ... i think someone should kill me

nothing is worth writing anymore

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 01:44:02 GMT

the feeling of being free is so unheard of... i forgot what its was liek to be free. to feel that you are in control and that life is good. i really want to go shopping tomarrow... i want to do alot of things... anyways. . . . the fact that there is some much going on but none of it is worth typing is a really bad sign... i really need to get a new life. or fix the one i have already. but the chances of that happening are slim to none... because i really liking NOT caring. Its a new thing that im tring out. so far i really cant tell you how im doing because i havent been alone with him... but i think that so far that its doing alright....

hmmm....pop......

i miss jthm.... man do i miss him!

having no life

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 01:32:16 GMT

Here i am down in Dearborn with him and his fucking thing... god i hate it wish that i could destory it so badly... but anyways... how is life treating you? i want to die but other than that its all good! :) . . . . . . . . . . i really have no life.

yea

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:16:01 GMT

hmm.. somethimes i think killing myself would make things better....

i dont want to feel anymore.