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[10 Sep 2008|12:46pm] |
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We're not the same, dear, as we used to be
The seasons have changed and so have we
There was little we could say and even less that we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you
We buried our love in the wintery grave
A lump in the snow was all that remained
But we stayed by its side, as the days turned to weeks
And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak
When the spring arrived, we were taken by surprise
When the flows under our feet bled into the sea
And nothing was left for you and me
We're not the same dear and it seems to me
There's nowhere we can go with nothing underneath
Then it saddens me to say what we both knew was true
That the ice was getting thinner under me and you
The ice was getting thinner under me and you
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[27 Jul 2008|10:54pm] |
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i am really happy, im starting to think this is a good thing
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[16 Jul 2008|12:26pm] |
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yesterday at work I was helping this lady. She ordered a cake. She then asked me if they just bring the cake to the table when they bring the food. I told her no we don't and to just come up to the front with your receipt and I'll go get the cake for her. about 20 minutes later my manager comes up to me and tells me that he got a REALLY bad complaint about me. I guess the lady told him that I wouldn't go get the cake for her and I pretty much gave her shitty service. I just shrugged it off and figured the lady was overreacting. About an hour later i was sweeping my area and chuck e who happened to be tristan starting pounding on the counter in front of me to catch my attention at the merch table. I gave him a jokingly mean look, and then a little smile. The lady just so happened to be right behind him and as I was counting up her tickets so her little fucking kids can get a prize and she blew up on me. She starting yelling at me telling me that I have been horrible all day and I shouldn't be working there with that attitude I was shocked I didn't say anything back to her and she ran up to my mananger and told him how much of a bad worker I am. I walked to back and I started crying, I'm not going to lie, I hate when people yell at me especially older people it just makes me...sad or a pussy or whatever. My manager walked to the back and was told me that he doesn't know why the lady was so angry, he gave her a free cake, 10 dollars worth of shit from the merch table and 5 dollars in tokens and yet she still felt like she had to yell at me. So now shes calling up corporate about me and she filled out a comment card. So, this is the best part. my co worker was walking her out and she overheard the lady's friend ask her "was she really that mean to you?" She said "No, not really I just felt like doing it on purpose." I have come to the conclusion that she only did it because of the color of my skin. Yes, a white person CAN be a victim of racism.and lets face it, I was the only white person working last night. I can tell when someone gets pissed off that I don't know spanish, but whatever. I've had my share of black, mexican, asain jokes, but i don't consider myself a racist and I would never be rude to someone because of the color of their skin. I really do hope that she does call corporate about me so I can bring her dumbass down. I'm feeling pretty angry at the moment. sorry.
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[14 Apr 2008|04:18pm] |
I, I still remember
How you looked
That afternoon
There was only you
You said it was just like a full moon
Blood beats faster in our veins
We left our trousers by the canal
And our fingers they almost touched You should have asked me for it
I would have been brave
You should have asked me for it
How could I say no?
And our love could have soared
Over playgrounds and rooftops
Now every park bench screams your name
I kept your tie
I'd have gone wherever you wanted And on that teacher's training day
We wrote our names on every train
Laughed at the people off to work
So monochrome and so lukewarm
And I could feel our days where becoming night
I could feel your heart beating across the grass
We should have run, I would go with you anywhere
I should have kissed you by the water I still remember |
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[09 Apr 2008|12:27am] |
So I guess I'm going to write an actual entry, alex inspired me. haha
anywho so my alarm went off at about 715 this morning and i continued to press snooze every 5 minutes so i eventually started getting ready at about 745. And I totally forgot that I had to take my brother to school since my mom was in Brawley picking up baby Gia. SO I had to hurry up and get ready in less then 5 minutes. We head out and i put in Bedouin Soundclash, I think thats my new favorite cd. its so good, puts me in a good mood. serioulsly if you havn't listened to them, check them out fo reallll.
So I start driving to school and I lit up a smoke. It tasted like crap because I had just brushed my teeth...oh well i guess. Make my way to Poli Sci and to find out that the quiz is moved back to tuesday so that took a major lift off my shoulders. I would of had 3 mid terms this week which would have sucked ass.
So then Mr. white asked us what was up with the news. and as always the class was filled with silence. He then starts to call off names from the seating chart. and every person he called stayed quiet and said "i dont know...." and then he calls me. and I silently start to panic, because it had been a week since i had "watched" the news. So I brought up old news. about Clinton and Bosnia and how she exaggerated like crazy and blablah. and He starts laughing at me! and thanks me for being so courageous, but I guess its better then looking like a dumbass and saying "i dont know im stupid" whatever haha. so I get out of class and Augie and I have a smoke. We talked for a bit and I decide to start heading home.
Baby Gia and my mom are there, I watch some lifetime with my mom and play with Gia for a bit. and my mom gave me an extra taco she got from del earlier that day. It was cold, but effin delicious. So I decide its time for my daily nap. I get a call from my mom asking me to watch Gia while she goes to the bank. But seriously...i can't take care of a baby, and plus I was sleeping. So she takes her with her, and I felt kinda bad. but i got over it and call my mom to ask her if she could bring me Mcdonalds and to my suprise she said yes. so when she gets home I eat and then i start to study for my medical terminology midterm (im freaking out by the way) on wednesday.
Pick my bro up and I also saw One cup walking home, so i gave him a lift. we get home, and I study a bit more. My mom made tostadas. So I ate and chill for a while, check out the backyard. its almost finished and its coming out pretty effin sweet. Parttttttttty. jk.
Start getting ready for class and Dre shows up around 530, all early. and hes studying in my room while im getting ready. We go in the kitchen talk to my parents for a bit, ate some banana cream pie and a glass of milk and wait for tash to come over. She eventually came and I take them to school because we car pool. Get to school Tash and I have a smoke before class. and Dre and I go to wonderful computer science. My teacher is really chill, hes a brother. we get our test back and I got an A woot! woot! Check our grades, and we start reviewing for the mid term for the end of class. I think I did pretty well on it.
So me and Dre start walking to my car to wait for Tasha and it is fucking cold. So windy man. Tasha comes and we decide to go to subway. Saw Scott Mcnair in there which was nice:)! Tash and I go halfers on a foot long but they don't have roast beef and it killed me, thats the only meat I really like on my sandwhiches. So I say nevermind. and then the guy is like well I have enough for half the sandwhich so I get my roast beef, and I'm like a kid at disney land eating my 6 inch sub with just roast beef, cheese, and lettuce.
Andres gets the craving to go to Rite aid for some ice cream. So we head over there, bumpin Nsync and some Brand New. fuck to the yes.
We get to rite aid walking quickly to the ice cream station or whatever. and Its this old man and hes like we only got vanilla and tapioca and I'm like "whaaaaaaaaaaaat no chocolateeee :(:(:(" and he said " well, not that my peepers can see" (hick voice) He was pretty mean about it.
so we decide to go get a half gallon of ice cream. But andres and tash dont like chocolate ice cream. I ended up getting cookies and cream and tasha bought a bag of gummi bears to eat it the ice cream with. as we were walking to the register the old man from the ice cream station is there and hes sweeping and he told me "Oh let me sweep here for the royalty" I'm pretty sure hes senile or something...whatever haha it was funny.
Intermission: You have no idea how many times I have wanted to stop writing and then i look and realize that I've written to much to stop now. anyways.........
We get to my house and start eating, we chill for a bit watch some show on TLC with my mom about some chick getting raped at a frat party. what a downer....
they left, and I went to my room and talking to nakita for a bit on msn. and David too.
I started to study for about an hour and I decided to take a shower,and ill finish studying after...but apparently I'm not since i'm writing in here. So I'm gonna finish studying tomorrow before class at 530.
and now i'm just laying here, I can't believe I wrote this much, and if you stuck around and read this entire entry about my boring day then Wow. Alright I think thats it
byeee
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[03 Apr 2008|12:36am] |
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gosssssssssh i have a 7 chapter midterm in medical terminology, im kinda freaking out. "wuuhuuu" 1 more day until we leave to IRVINE/BAMBOOZLE. im esscited.
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[20 Mar 2008|12:17am] |
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I have no idea why it is so hard for me to sit down and write a 2 page assignment when all i have to do is summarize and put my opinion into it. I'm so lazy haha. Anyway today I didn't go to speech because I'm not done writing my narrative so I gave myself an extra week to write it haha. Mr. page is probably the coolest teacher....ever. I woke up around 12ish today. Made myself a pb&j and watched some tv. Went to the bank, saw andres there(i always see him there!) and got a money order for my laptop bill. came back home, took my bro to work, then chilled at home for a bit and studied until i had to go to medical terminology. Man, I love that class. Got out around 8ish saw andres AGAIN outside his history class. Talked for a bit, but i decided to go home because i was freezing my tits off. Got home, my mom made some homemade hamburgers..but they ate all the fries. so my mom went and bought me some burger king fries. It was soo good. So I guess I'm not going to beach house this spring break. But im pretty sure Tash, nakita and I are gonna go up on Tuesday and chill in sd all day until josie's am track comes in at night. So it should be fun. I'm thinking we should go to the beach or something cool=). and in 2 weeks BAMBOOZLE!!!!!! wooo hooooooo! cannnot wait =). its going to be so awesome! Seriously I need a new job. I hattte chuck e cheese. Its horrible. This is a pretty long entry, but I guess its because im avoiding writing my paper. ooooH well.
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i just made some badass brownies..and now im watching Just my Luck, I'm staying in tonight, nakita is joining me...Today I sorta cleaned my room, and got rid of some old clothes. I found my Ipod and now im trying to fix it. Not really working out though. My bro is grounded For getting a C in school and getting suspended at work..haha i think its funny. I am so unbelievably bored. I need to do my homework, I have to write a speech and write a essay for english. This is gay. and I nhave homework for Political Science, seems easy though. Wow, I can hear the wind outside. Its crazy.. Medical Terminology is going great, I'm doing well on all my tests. I really want someone to make a movie out of The Perks of Being a Wallflower...so bad. It would seriously make my life. Also, I've been trying to order "No One belongs here more than you" but amazon fucked it up. Bitches. Oh and go see Charlie Barlett. Kinda weird movie, but its good! Thats all..
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[23 Feb 2008|11:45am] |
Paula?
Making an entry?
what?
yop. i have work in about an hour or so and ive been laying in bed all day. My dad and bro went to nascar for the weekend so the house is nice and quiet. I'm going to Tasha's Dad's retirement party tonight..TACO MAN! hell to the yes. Ivc is kind of gay, and so is my schedule. I have school mon-thursday all my class in the morning and then i have 3 at night, which blows on gas. Things are good right now. Yesterday the weather was so perfect during the day. Nice and sunny and not to windy. So me kita and tash went to Bucklin Park. Then it got fucking windy. to the point where you wanted to cut off all your hair because it kept getting in your face. Then we went to tasha's and told her dad that were going to make the tallest beer pyramid...in his room. ahah, but really i think we are one of these days. Then we navigated over to my vacant house and tash made me quesidillas. and then she left to go eat dinner with her mom. Nakita stayed for a bit, but then Andres wanted to jam with her, so i took her home. I watched degrassi and about a girl for like ever until tash and i drove to imperial to play some beer pong at chris' house. I was DD for the night so tash drank the beer.....and we lost badly. Enough said haha. But ya the night was fun. Nakita showed up later in the night which made it better because i wasn't the only sober one haha.
well i think its about that time where i go to my kitchen and make myself a pb&j and then get ready for work
peace out.
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[17 Jan 2008|02:00am] |
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in 6 days its going to be one year, and its all i can think about lately
i hate this feeling
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[12 Nov 2007|08:59pm] |
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this weekend/last night was pretty much the shittt =)
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[11 Oct 2007|01:20am] |
studied all freaking night at kita's for my history mid term tomorrow, im going to kick this essay's ass, i know it!!
anywho.
went to a party, broke the tap, now people want to rip my tits off. hahahah
that shit would only happen to me, its funny tho
mmm theres this hott boy in one of my classes that i NEED to get to talking to.
today, i got my nails done and the asain guy was sooooooo mean he made my fingers bleed and now their all sore like no other.
so i said... no tip for mr. miyagi.
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[16 Aug 2007|09:04pm] |
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open your eyes and see like me open up your plans and damn your free look into your heart and you'll find love love love
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[07 Aug 2007|02:53pm] |
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camping this past weekend with my friends was so much fun. I'm really going to miss tasha. next year is going to be really different with all my friends. But im really glad i have nakita and andres stuck down here with me. trifecta, you know.
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[23 Jul 2007|09:17pm] |
today is half a year since rudy died.
i love you buddy
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[22 Jun 2007|12:45pm] |
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summer has started off fun :)
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[10 Jun 2007|09:26am] |
i am the most jaded person you will ever meet.
whatever..
3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[06 Jun 2007|07:25pm] |
6 days left..
i cant freaking believe it.
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[28 May 2007|09:56pm] |
Everytime I go to Michelle's house, i always think of Rudy. This was his old house, and i touch the handle of each door i open and i close my eyes and i feel like im touching him. Thats sounds kind of weird, but dang...this is the house he grew up in, and now one of my best friends lives in it. Today I went over for some carne asada, i parked and i looked at the drive way, and i couldn't stop crying. I could just picture him walking down that drive way as I was picking him up for church.
i miss him
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[20 Apr 2007|06:48pm] |
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manny asked me to prom :)
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