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I have been having a bunch of really odd and random dreams lately, haha. On top of that, I've been really busy with homework and the gym and trying to have a life on top of those things. I haven't been able to hang out with as many people as I'd like but I am slowly getting there. Last night I hung out with Amber and Rob, but then Amber had to leave so Rob and I watched the majority of the Woodstock DVD, then I came here and went to bed. Today I'm probably just going to do a lot of homework and go to the gym.... I'm not really sure what else. My room is messy, this happens when I am busy and don't give myself time to clean it.
Whenever I watch that DVD it makes me kind of in awe and think a lot. I wish more people could enjoy life like that and that computers were not everything some people thought about. I mean sure, they enhance businesses and make things a lot easier and that's great, really. But when people go home early just to sit online (ex: my dad) instead of hang out with people, that really pisses me the fuck off. On top of that, everything is so unsafe anymore. So much bullshit occurs and you can't even sit outside at night because you have to worry about getting assaulted or shot. You can rarely leave your doors unlocked or your kids unattended. And why are people so depressed nowadays? So many people are so SAD, and I'm just like... why? I understand why so many people were sad in the sixties...because everyone's sons and brothers and boyfriends were being drafted and killed. Now that's a good reason to be sad. When I talk to adults, they constantly tell me how much better everything was back 50-60 years ago and how everything is so different now. I don't know, man, it just makes me wonder.
Anyways, I want to travel again next summer. Somehow and somewhere...I just do. I can't stand being in one place too long. I have to figure out a way to go somewhere BESIDES Myrtle Beach. Hmmm!!!! I guess I've a lot of thinking to do on this subject.
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[06 Sep 2008|12:19am] |
I hate when I'm too lazy to put something in it's rightful place, so I just set it somewhere that I'm SOSURRRE to remember it, and I fucking forget. Anyways, as a result of that tendency, I get to pay a trip to the lovely dps to get my license. Hopefully I don't get pulled over or anything between now and Monday. I finally wrote that damned personal narrative, I tweaked my little AA story, I feel a little bad doing that. Hey, it made for a good story. This week is going to be busy, I can feel it.
To do:
1. DPS/ waste precious money D:
2. Read history assignment
3. Study psychology
4. Take psychology test early
5. Don't eat on thursday D:
6. Wisdom teeth removed friday
7. Be ded for a few days
My mommy is back :D! ummm, I had a little moment of truth the other day! I need sleep!
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[05 Sep 2008|12:14pm] |
effing politics.
im as much about obamarama as anyone else,
but please stop talking about it at work.
because you never know how the people around you feel,
and it's only going to start arguments.
which i don't want to hear at work.
because i hear about it everywhere else.
everywhere everywhere everywhere everywhere
on a positive note,
real simple magazine rules.
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[03 Sep 2008|11:34pm] |
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I really need to stop staying awake until 1 am on school nights, followed by waking up early to give myself time to get starbucks to wake me up, then work, then repeat. I'm too anxious to concentrate!
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[03 Sep 2008|10:40am] |
i wanna be a hot secretary.
can't wait to get my new glasses.
i miss the sarahs terribly :(
&& not a hot secretary, but just a hot lady with a hot dress that i wanna be.
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| iphone compells me to whore social networks. |
[02 Sep 2008|09:29pm] |
who else uses twitter?
let me follow you like a creepin' creeper on my phone.
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| blair waldorf is a bitch. |
[02 Sep 2008|09:27pm] |
why on earth do i watch gossip girl.
also, why on earth do i even go to parties in denton anymore. not that watching underage girls get drunk has ever really been on my radar, but the entire college scene seems incredibly quasi-retarded to me now, and i've discovered that i can't really be around people still livin' it up college-style!!111 without wanting to forcibly extract my eyeballs from their sockets. someone needs to tell you that animal collective is not good music and nobody gives a shit about your excruciating number of hours this semester.
but it won't be me.
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[01 Sep 2008|12:32pm] |
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This weekend has been awesome, seriously. Friday I hung out in Amber's room from 6-2AM with a shitload of different people. It was definitely a great time and I only left because I was tired as shit and wanted to shower before Kev got here. After Kev got here we just went to sleep because we were both wiped. Saturday we literally didn't do shit besides go to Wal Mart and get Pizza Hut. We didn't even really get moving until around 4. Around 830 we watched Radio then October Sky which were two super awesome movies. Following that, I fell asleep until 11am the next morning.
We got up and showered and got ready to go to Presque Isle for the day. We were there til it got kind of cold and we were starving because we didn't bring any food but 1/4 of a can of Pringles. Here are some pictures from our time there. They're not in order.
( Read more... )
After we left we stopped by Amber's room to get some stuff for the get together I was having. Then Kev and I came back here and made rice and watched Grandma's Boy. Around 10:15 everyone showed up...everyone as in Amber, Drew, Rob, Nick, Pat, Kelly, and Zach. Kev and I pregammed and ever since Europe I drink straight so I was already wasted when everyone got there. How attractive, I know. But I care none because I had a lot of fun. Only a few of us were actually drinking which was good because what little alcohol we had was strong enough to get all of us going pretty good. After about an hour, Zach, Rob, Drew, and Amber left. All of us were hanging out when Pat decided to leave and Kelly. Nick thought Kev and I wanted to be alone so he left too, and then Kev and I stayed up for about 2 more hours then passed out. I woke up feeling like shit but I'm okay with it because life is fucking awesome and I love all of my friends.
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[30 Aug 2008|08:33pm] |
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So I'm officially a college student.
I'm all unpacked and moved into my new home for the next year. I don't want to say it, and I've been trying to deny it all day. But I'm going to say it now. I want to go home. I want my own bed. My own room. I want familiarity.
I want Sam. I miss him so much it hurts. And I know pretty soon its going to hurt much worse. Pretty much if itd hard now, its going to be ten times as hard in the future. I want to cry but I'm not letting myself because I'm trying to be all grown up and mature about this whole college experience. Everyone else seems so much more mature than me. When did that happen?
Everyone is going out somewhere. Apparently there is a huge party at MIT. I was vaguely invited by Alana my room mate. I can't go. I can barely function on a slightly normal level. All I want to do is take a shower and go to sleep. And I know that I will make a huge habit out of it if I don't get out and make friends with people. Alana has already made friends with a bunch of girls. And I have yet too. Maybe it will come with time.
I feel so lost.
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[30 Aug 2008|05:07am] |
 
i used to be beautiful, i do not understand life.
yet, but i'm getting there.
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[28 Aug 2008|11:00am] |
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I have been getting a pretty decent amount of homework which actually makes me really happy because I enjoy doing it when it helps me learn the chapter more. I'm also significantly interested in each subject that I'm taking this fall, so that helps out a lot. Some exciting things involving my education courses are this semester I have to do a classroom observation at a school in the area. How freaking exciting is that? I remember when I was in high school and people would observe and now it's MY turn... this is bomb ass. In that class we all have to do a history poster which is extremely beneficial to all of the social studies ed majors. I have to think of what I want to do though, there's so many friggin options!!! In my other education course (the one class I'm getting mad work in because it's 300 level) we are learning to make transparencies, use gradequick/gradepro/any other related grading program, use smart boards more in depth, etc etc. It's awesome. I'm so excited for my classes this year and I'm so excited to have gotten the english and bullshit out of the way so I can start learning the things I'm going to be teaching. I only have two math courses left to finish and the one I'm taking now is more than easy. I just feel so seriously excited to be a teacher. I know that's where I want to be because I feel so right and like it's where I'm supposed to be when I'm in the education classes. My whole life literally feels right as of lately, except the spiders in the window of my room and the centipede in the shower this morning. But I'll get over those with time.
Even better...Kevin is coming tomorrow night =) =). I cannot wait to kiss his entire face and fall asleep next to him again. Never have I slept so soundly as I do with him. I plan on getting all of my homework done so I am totally clear for this weekend to hang with him. He is going to teach me some basic math that I don't know though, so that should be interesting, ha. Well I am going to get ready for class now so have a great day people.
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[27 Aug 2008|10:21pm] |
my boyfriend is hot.
shirtless in a denim vest.
wearing bunny ears.
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[27 Aug 2008|09:48pm] |
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Say Anything- Chia-like I Shall Grow |
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and the stars still scar my ceiling.
in two? three? (i can never count) days, i am leaving for boston to move into my dorm and start my semi-adult life in college. i'll be responsible for myself and my actions. i won't have anyone telling me what to do or what not to do. there will be no firm hand of the parents telling me NO. i'm so tired of being 'excited' about this. i'm tired. i want to sleep. i don't want to load all my crap into my tiny corolla and drive in to boston only to unload it amid chaos and haul it up three flights. no thank you.
today was my last day of work. and i left just as unnoticeable as i came in. no one said good bye, except for mel and megan. i'm pretty sure everyone else is pretty happy to see "the snobby one" go. now i have two days off before the epic move-in day at Simmons College.
tomorrow i have to take my dad out to lunch for his birthday. i have no money. its been spent on gas, skittles, sobe, target brand gummy bears, and a midnight run to wendy's for chicken nuggets and french fries. so this means my dad will be taking me out to lunch for his birthday. i got him the god damned coldplay cd for his birthday, and i wanted it.
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[27 Aug 2008|07:05pm] |
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[26 Aug 2008|03:24pm] |
gahh
so stressed today. Well it turns out that hearing "Lyna, we'll do what we can to help you with school" means buying one book. Coming out to a tiny fraction of the nearly $2,000 that I'm spitting out on my own.
It's just so aggravating, it makes me want to not go to school at all. How the fuck do I not qualify for financial aid??? My mom isn't paid very well, we have a family of five, I'm paying for this whole damn thing myself.
On another note, I'm really sick of my dad laying out a fucking red carpet for my brother. When I was in 9th grade, I rode the fucking bus, I rode it til like 11th for that matter! buttttt I have to go pick him up and wait in a fucking sea of suburban moms in lexus', in my dads focus without radio to pick up my damn brother. Might I add that we live right down the street from his school.
English, that only class I was pretty stoked on and I get stuck with the most bland teacher I've ever seen. and WHYTHEFUCKAREBOOKSSOOOOOEXPENSIVE?!? ihml right now
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[26 Aug 2008|10:20am] |
life is so good.
i have amazing friends that i can talk to about real things, and who let me crash at their places all the time.
my birthday is coming up soon. i will be a 23-year-old college graduate (honors degree and magna cum laude!) with a real job. (!)
also, club healthy rules, and i spend most of my free time at the kokomo sports center. or eating oreos, cancelling out the work that i do at the kokomo sports center.
this season of project runway sucks it dry.
i love michael cera. as trendy as it is.<3
i will be seeing his new movie, even though it sounds gay.
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[26 Aug 2008|09:22am] |
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The past few days back at Edinboro have been awesome. Saturday my dad's side of the family and my mom helped me move in and then we went to eat at the Crossroads Diner. A lady there offered me a job as a host and then a server soon thereafter. I would if I didn't have so many classes and as a result, I don't think I can juggle all of that. After we came back to my place, my parents left and I unpacked then went to towers to hang out with all of my friends. I hung out literally all freaking day til about midnight then went to bed. Sunday I got up and went to lunch with Angel and Matty then we just hung out all damn day doing who knows what. Today I had class and it was awesome because I loved being back in the classroom, especially since Angel's roommate Amber is in a couple of my classes and she's really nice. I've met a lot of really dope people so far which makes me happy that I've been trying to be nicer and more friendly. It seems everyone is nicer to me and you meet more people when you are nice as well so I think I've officially turned over a new "leaf."
I am having so much fun here that I don't know if I ever feel like going back home, haha. For example, last night Carrie, Angel, Matty, myself, and another girl were making hemp necklaces/bracelets, which was dope and Carrie is super cool. She also took us all to the new restaurant in town called the Campus Dog where Angel and I were basically the only ones who couldn't finish the huge portions that place provides. However, it's exceptionally cheap for the amount they give you so we'll definitely be going back.
Kevin is coming up this weekend and we're going to Presqueisle and Waldameer sometime because Matty has free passes. I seriously cannot WAIT to see Kev and spend three beautiful days with him. <3 We were gonna try to get some cid but that doesn't appear to be working out so no "long, strange trip" for us.
Soon I have to venture off to the bookstore because I bought two of the wrong books so my dad is going to fix the situation. Aside from that, I don't know what else is on for tonight but I know there will be something and I know it will be awesome.
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| d-spot rocks the d-spot. |
[25 Aug 2008|09:40am] |
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sleep, spooning, and sandwiches. i'm so glad he's back.
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