wow... it's been almost exactly 5 months since i've posted. i have been wanting too but i just can't seem to gather my thoughts completely. so much has gone on since then. the end of school, the start and end of summer at work, the cruise, the new semester. so much.

school, school, school. what more can i say about it? it didn't go as planned this semester and i can't even think about it without making myself feel like i want to throw up. i'm going to be taking classes starting in october for flex 2 so i'm at least glad about that!

work has been alright. so many changes that have been talked about for so long have officially happened and i haven't seen the good in it yet but i'm hoping it's in there somewhere inside all of the chaos going on. normally i have a group of about 20 kids max and just today at work ruben and i had 45 kids! it was so crazy and i just wanted to leave them outside and go home! but as for my co-workers they are all good and fun to be around and most of them make my time go by fast. *notice i said MOST of them and not all of them. some do really piss me off!*

life in general is not too bad and there's not much to complain about aside from school. which is okay because i know that if i put my hard work into it, it will all come together just as it should.

the long labor day weekend was much needed. i haven't had a day off since the cruise! i'm seriously so tired. not really physically but mentally. i need a day off and soon. i'm ready for the weekend already! homemade dinner, movies, tv, relaxing, and much more. i can't wait.

i love everyone that has helped me through the whole school drama. i know that other people go through much worse than school but at the point in my life, school is my life and so when it doesn't work out, i'm very stressed. brian has been the biggest help ever and i love him so much for that. i can't see myself with anyone else. i think it's safe to say that he feels the same way. which makes me way more happy. i don't want anyone else by my side when i need someone the most. i love you, BEEEEEEEE!

ok i'm done. i think i'm goinng to go to sleep. i feel a little better typing this all out.

goodnight. :)

L

i finally became inspired to write last night when brian told me about his post. i sometimes don't write on here because of two possible things. either i'm lazy and i don't want to do it or i don't have time to do it. usually though, it's the first one. haha!

well, lately things for me have been a rollercoaster. some things in my life are up and up and some are not so up. i don't think i have been this stressed in i don't even remember how long. school has been stressing me out so bad! i have a feeling that by sometime next week, i'm going to be hit with homework from all classes. it's gonna suck so bad. and i still need to figure out my financial aid for next year. and see my advisor. and see what i mean?! it's always something!

other than that things are pretty darn good. work is work and always will be. the kids are great as always and i always have a story to tell about them. oh and i'm not with the younger kids anymore. i'm with the middle school girls. talk about attitude!!! but it's ok. i'm surprisingly good with them and i'm glad about that.

i'm looking forward to the school year being over and the one or two weeks we get to work without any kids. it's so relaxing. but i'm not looking forward for summer... it's going to be hell. i can already tell.

well speaking of summer, the cruise. at the moment i have mixed feelings. mostly good feelings but i'm just frustrated about saving money. i wish i could just put my whole paycheck away for it but i have all these bills. :( i hate it. but on a good note, we're about a week away from getting our passports and booking excursions! i'm really excited about that.

life at home is good. it always is. life with brian is great. i couldn't be any happier. oh and it was my bday a couple of days ago! we went to eat at huhot and it was soooo good and we went to see observe and report and it was super funny! oh and i got some good gifts! i was pretty surprised that i got gifts cause i wasn't expecting any. i just wanted to be with my familia. so that was good.

ok i wrote a novel. i could have been doing homework! i'll post again...eventually. :D

-L

sooo im home from work today cause i'm sick. :( i couldn't sleep last night... i fell asleep around 4:30 and i had to wake up 3 hours later! i knew i couldn't last the whole day on 3 hours of sleep so i just texted roxy and let her know i wasn't going to be in. so i've just been home on the computer, playing video games... i'm so bored! :(

i would much rather be at work than here sick. anyway, this weekend was good. friday night i went to brian's house and we just watched a movie and had dinner and then saturday i had to work til about 2 and brian came to pick me up around 4 and we went all over the place. oh and i went to put my new charm on my bracelet so i am hoping to go pick it up today! then we ate at whole foods cause i was starving! if you haven't eaten in their cafe, you should! they have the best pizza hands down and i am crazy over their BLTs! then we went to bath and body works cause i had a couple of giftcards and we picked out some gooood smelling stuff. then we went to sams, came back to my house to drop some stuff off and to switch cars cause my car was messing up! and then we went back to his house, watched tv and stuff! and then we had a laaaate dinner. around 11! crazy!

well then on sunday (yesterday) we planned on going to see watchmen early in the day and then just hanging out at my house but i didnt feel good so dumb me took 2 benadryls! i fell asleep around 12:30 and i didn't get up until almost 6! i felt so bad that we didnt go see the movie but he was really nice about it and we're going to go see it sometime this week. so he came over anyway and my dad grilled some burgers!!! yum! and that was that!

i hope for my workdays this week to speed by but my nights and my days off to go by slow. we all need a good long break from school! and then on thursday we're going to austin! yes!

ok my hands hurt now! bye!

-L

wow, livejournal. it's really been a long while since i've really posted. let's have a go at it, shall we?

well let's start with school. i'm doing 12 hours and i'm taking a good heavy course load and this week is mid-terms and i'm starting to feel the pressure. i just hope this semester is over soon so i can be done with those classes! ugh! and then summer school and it feels like it's never going to end. it will eventually... and i'll be so happy!

next is work. it's been good. the kids are kids so they're loud and hyper and never want to do anything but paint or play outside. but it's ok cause they're just kids and that's what i love about them. the people i work with are always great and keep me going when i seriously feel like i'm going to have a mental breakdown.

hmmm what's next? oh yes. my personal life. it's wonderful as always. i really do have a wonderful boyfriend who just never ceases to amaze me. we had a really good valentine's day and he had a good birthday (i hope). he says he does but he could be lying to my face so he doesn't make me sad! ha! it's ok though. brian and i and my family are going on a cruise this summer. we're leaving june 21 to be exact. we're going all along the caribbean sea to jamaica, cozumel, and the cayman islands. it's going to be great and a very well deserved/needed break! it'll be 4 years for brian and i this summer. i just can not get over that. it makes me happy just thinking about it. gosh! i'm such a girl. haha!

ok well my fingers are tired and i want to just watch tv and relax! i've been at school since 7:30 and haven't had a break since. minus the huge dinner brian and i just had. i'm stuffed! i need a fast crash diet. before the cruise for sure! i feel like watching annie and the sound of music. i want to sing! HA!

-L

i'm the type of person who pays attention to anything and everything that our media says about this country, and especially our economy.

i knew it was getting bad. BUT i didn't know it was going to affect my family directly.

i will be praying for this economy to change for the better. not only does my family need it but so do other families.

please pray for us.

wow! i havent updated in so long! today is new year's eve and i'm still cleaning my room from about 2 hours ago! haha! it's going to be such a crazy day. brian should be here in a while and we're gonna have to start getting things ready for later when everyone is here. i can't wait for drinks! haha! i don't mean to sound like an alcoholic but today's a great occasion! :)

welllll christmas was great this year! i got brian a new xbox 360 cause his was breaking and i bought him a bottle. haha! ;) and so he ended up getting me a BLACKBERRY BOLD! wtf! i was so excited and so happy. i could have kissed someone! haha well, i did. anyway, it was great and i was so glad he got me that and i was sooo thankful. my parents bought me a new orange ipod nano. its a beauty. so we had a good christmas and i'm excited for tonight and of course the fact that i'm not working until monday! yessss!

well this past semester was good. i made B's in my classes and all the stuff and agreements that i had to do since transferring back to uiw are gone and i'm cleared and free! so i'm registered for 12 hours again this semseter. i'm taking anthropology, world lit, hebrew scriptures, and foundations of education. i'm sure this spring will be tough for me! but i'm ready.

oh and for my birthday, we're going to austin for the weekend. i'm really excited.

things have just been really good for me lately. i hope it doesn't go bad soon. it's been 3 1/2 years with brian and things have been sooo good with us lately. i wouldn't want it any other way. well, i do but in time. :)


well i guess thats about it for now. i'm so surprised that i updated. :D

L.

wow... that is all i really can say. it's been a while since i've posted and not to mention so much has happened since then. i really don't want to recap so i'm not. the only thing i'll say is halloween at work seriously kicked my butt. i worked so much and i was tired for days after that! but it was super fun.

hmmm... what else? oh yeah, school. i am getting bored with it this semester. i'm ready to finish so i can be done with school. work is good just been really busy. so many changes have been made since the crazy stuff going on with having to reapply but it's okay i guess. i'm still getting paid so i guess that's a good thing! :)

things for me have been looking up... i mean i do have some down points in my days but who doesn't? this past weekend was an interesting one. brian and i went to see the spurs on friday and had a bad blowout on my way home. 1 am, so cold, and my dad was there fixing my tire! then on saturday we went to see george lopez. the rest of saturday night was a blur considering i'm still catching up on my sleep cause i got home soooooo late! but its okay. i'm actually glad this weekend is over. i'm just really looking forward to this coming weekend and next week. thanksgiving!!! oh and brian and i are going shopping super early on black friday. i want to buy everything!

i'm so glad the weather is getting colder. it puts everyone in better moods and my hair always does what i want it to. haha!

i guess that's about it. there may be more to come later. maybe not. it all just depends. tomorrows a new day. let's see what's in store.

ugh and brian put that prince ali song in my head! hahaha!

-L.

well it's been a long while since i've posted something about my life lately. it's been crazy busy and so far days have been going by fast! school started back in august and it's already october. i love being back at incarnate word... i've missed it there and it feels good to know i've done well enough to earn me a spot back there. i'm supposed to be working on a paper for my education class that's due tomorrow (can we say procrastinator?) but it's actually been tough finding the information about what i'm supposed to write.

aside from school i've been working my ass off lately. first because i love it there and mostly because of the kids. they keep me on my toes. but what has sucked about work is that we heard that they were going to be "restructuring" our program AND staff. i work with 5 other people so that obviously meant someone was losing their job. so anyway, we lost so much money from grants and that's the only way we keep this place running so we were basically told that our jobs ended september 30 and the new position started october 1. that meant that if we didn't get offered a new position, we were done. so they made us reapply, go through an interview and wait for 4 long days to find out what was going on. luckily i was called in today and offered a new position. we all were... why didn't they just tell us that? anyway, i was lucky enough to keep my same pay rate but some got huge pay cuts. i felt bad for them but i guess that's just how the business works. anyway, halloween is coming up at work and we're having a haunted house! it should be super fun and this month is full of fun things!

aside from all of that i have surprisingly had enough time to relax a little. i rearranged my room and brian bought me this awesome purple oversized chair that he doesnt get off of when he comes over! haha i'm kidding. but it's the best chair ever... you can crawl up on it and fall asleep. other than that i've just been hanging out with brian and my family and just doing nothing... it's actually good to do nothing for a while. oh and this weekend my parents and nick are leaving for dallas. friday morning actually and wont be back until sunday night. so that means three things: i'm home alone, peace and quiet, and brian will be here with me. i can't be alone at home at night anymore... not since they tried breaking into our house, my grandparents house, and actually breaking into my neighbors house. i still can't understand how i was able to handle being alone with just nick when my parents were on their cruise.

hmmm... what else? this was so freaking long. either i had a lot to say or i just am trying to keep myself from doing homework. oh and my antennae got stolen from my car. the second one in a row! man... there are some dumb kids in this neighborhood. old people and dumb kids!

oh and about that last post... nothing ever came about from it which doesn't really surprise me. it's ok though... i don't worry about it really. i guess i just wanted her to know i still care.

i want to make new friends. not that i don't like the ones i have now but there are a few things they do that i can be without... i want to be friends with someone who doesn't judge me or doesn't piss me off! ok... i need to not rehash the situation from a week or two ago. but still... i want some really cool friends! haha!

ok now i'm really done. i need to go write my paper and do my math homework! boooooring!!!!

L

i used to know this person. we were so alike in so many ways... and we were so different too. i think it was good cause we balanced each other out. she was really my best friend. it didn't take long to form a friendship that i thought would be lifelong. after the school year was out, it was summer. we stayed so close. then school started again. she was still where we used to be and i was at a different stage in my life. i thought we could get through it together considering we had been through a lot, in my opinion. we started growing apart. it was sad... she was no longer my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, or my person to go to with problems. we went from doing everything together to not even being the same like we used to. after our "falling out" cause stuff did happen... we tried to start over. i wanted it to work so bad. and i think she did too but it just wasn't there. and now sometimes i feel like i'm missing something. that person that used to do everything with me. i know things will never be back to that point... and who can expect it to be? i just want her back in my life again. she'll probably never read this and it's okay if she doesn't but if god wants her in my life, she'll find it and see that i'm still here. i think i'm going to try to take that first step and reach out to her. i want her to know i miss her. i want her to know i still care. and i want her to know that she'll always be special to me. i miss those days and i wish i could have them all back. i would do anything to have that friendship back. i'm going to try but i feel like she might not want the friendship anymore. i'll still let her know though.. cause i really wish we could be friends again. :(

-L.

well, it's been a weird past few days for me. i'm not sure what exactly made it so weird but one thing i remember is me being upset and sad and hurt. but i'm pretty sure it was just a little phase and it's done and over.

well i'm hoping this is a good weekend since school's starting monday. oh man... it's gonna be crazy! well, i'm gonna go start getting ready. brian's gonna be here soon and i'm gonna go with him to school and then i think we're gonna go see a movie. i think we're gonna see tropic thunder. it better be funny!!! ok well i'm off. bye!

-L.