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[Sun 13 May @ 5:54pm] |
You say you are trying. But really, what have you been doing? How can you say that you are ‟trying” when all that you have been doing is letting me down and delivering nothing but empty words and broken promises? A half truth is still a lie. A broken promise is a lie. Empty words are definitely lies. You have been feeding me lies.
Making it up to a person doesn't just constitute of feeding them lies to make them feel better for the moment, just so that you can do something to let them down again. It consists of sweet gestures, of the little things, the basic things that one would expect of a girlfriend. Taking your own initiative to ask me about my day, make sure I get home safely, send me flowers to cheer me up, bring me some place nice for dinner just because. Just because you want to let me know that you love me, and nothing more.
For the past month, I have been getting nothing but more hurt from you. If it is so difficult to show me that you love me, you can't fault me for doubting your love and your care. So don't give me shit about ‟it is very tiring for me to keep saying I care and I will always be here” because when you let a person down this much, and when you have broken my trust for you completely, you have to do SO MUCH FUCKING MORE than just ‟I will always be here”, ‟I'm sorry”, ‟I'm trying” and ‟What do you expect me to do?” to win back the trust you have lost.
You have nobody to blame but yourself, so you don't get a right to get angry or feel insulted when I do not trust you.
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[Sun 13 May @ 2:52pm] |
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I honestly don't think you care anymore
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[Wed 2 May @ 7:19pm] |
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If I say yes to giving you another chance, it would simply mean I'm giving you another opportunity to hurt me, and nothing more.
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[Wed 2 May @ 7:12pm] |
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If you think 'making it up to me' can be done so passively, you are seriously delusional.
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