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13th-Nov-2007 06:14 pm(no subject)
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So, here's my wishlist for this year. Really mostly for my own & family's reference, but if you guys feel you can contribute, feel free. =D

Rainbow socks? Lolita skirts? Blocks of wood?! )

Alright, that's pretty long...but, that's all. For Christmas -and- my birthday (in February).

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Kao
6th-Aug-2007 01:44 am - Break from the China trip posts..
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失去才会懂得珍惜
但我珍惜你
伤越痛就是爱越深
我不相信
你和我同时停止呼吸
每一次我们靠近
你让我忘了困惑
忘了所有烦心
我把你紧紧拥入怀里
捧你在我手心
谁叫我真的爱的就是你
在爱的纯净世界
你就是我唯一
永远永远不要怀疑
我把你当作我的空气
如此形影不离
我大声说我爱的就是你
在爱的幸福国度
你就是我唯一
我唯一爱的就是你
我真的爱的就是你
oh~~~~~oh~~~~~
就是你~~~~~yeah~~~~~
唯一爱的就是你
爱的就是你

Exactly how I feel right now, and exactly what I want to say to someone. Even if you don't read this, I still have to say it somehow. You don't have to reply, if you don't want.

Sorry, can't tell any of you exactly what anything's about right now. Though I'm sure it's pretty obvious.
1st-Aug-2007 12:27 am(no subject)
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Alright... sorry I haven't updated in so long. There's so much that's happened, but I can't really bring myself to actually talk about any of it. It's not all bad, not at all. Very little of it is. I'm just so tired, exhausted both mentally and physically, that I can't bring myself to talk.

I went to China and came back. I didn't want to, I was dreading reentering the US... I'm going back to China as soon as possible. Hopefully, for Uni, if I can make it into a school there as a Chinese language student. My Chinese skills are still around the level they were before I left, but I can comprehend more of what people are saying to me, even if I can't always say stuff back to them in the language.

While I was there, Seth broke up with me... she said she couldn't trust me, blah blah blah... it hurts. Really. Every time I think about it or her or anything to that effect, I have to fight not to cry, and sometimes I don't win. And, she wants nothing to do with me now, at all. Which is really hard to deal with... I think it'd be easier if she'd actually talk to me. But, That's not going to happen. I just have to get over it, and hopefully move on.

My first host was Fang Siyu 方思雨 (Cherish), and my second was Li Yutong 李玉童 (Ashley). It was so much fun staying with them... They're so nice, and so are their families. Cherish and I took some pictures with her best friend Alice, I'll post them scanned. They're those little pictures, the size of purikura. I tried so many new foods, and I really like Baozi and the BBQ pork spareribs that Wuxi's famous for. And normally, I hate pork. Really the only things that I refused to try out of everything I was offered was the chicken feet and chicken/duck head. Shopping was fun, everything there is so cheap... and, they have no sales tax, and if you dont like the price you can haggle and get the price down to something closer to what you're willing to pay. It's actually very polite to do that there. A warning: public restrooms are NASTY, and take your own toilet paper. There's never any in public BRs. And there's rarely an actual toilet in a public br, either. They're all squatting urinals, and they differ between two types: one like a trough running through every stall, or little porcelain holes in the ground in each stall.

There's more to tell, but I'm tired right now. I'll post more about it later, in more detail. There's pics on my facebook... I'll link to them soon. For now, take care guys, ok? Please. For me.

I love you guys, really. Even if I never show it, and show you my emo side most of the time. ♥

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Serena
17th-Jul-2007 04:00 am(no subject)
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Okay, so. It's currently 4 am and I've had no sleep.

We're heading to the airport as soon as I finish typing this.

I can't say HOW excited I am >w<

You guys, you all take care while I'm gone!!!

I'll bring back presents if I can.

See ya in eleven days.


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Kaokao (IS GOIN TO CHINA BIATCH)

XD ♥
8th-Jul-2007 01:42 pm(no subject)
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Ahh, I forgot it in my last post... But!

While I'm in China, I'll try to send postcards to people! ^^ If you want me to send you a postcard, just leave your address (comments are screened), or email it to me (here). And if you want something small from there, I can try to get you something, just tell me ^^

Okay~, that's all I think. ♥

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Kao
26th-Jun-2007 08:29 pm - Evidently, I'm Chinese...
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Stop! Meme time~ (Okay, so yeah, that was lame. -_-;) )
3rd-Feb-2007 10:28 am(no subject)
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I am...

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.
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