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Monday, November 30th, 2009
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5:28 pm - Friends only... for the most part.
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Comment to be added and all that shit.
current music: 9 crimes - Damien Rice
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| Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
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1:15 am - I met a man who was once on my side, he wrote a book and now everyone lies
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"But we called him Freddie the Wheel. The name came from one of our first groupies, Jessicka, who went on to form Jack and Jill, a band that I renamed Jack Off Jill and took under my wing briefly, performing with them a few times...he was a good guy and I never treated him any differently than anyone else...Jessicka, however, didn't have any qualms about mocking him. She decided that Freddy had a wheel for a foot and should henceforth be known as Freddy the Wheel. The realized this, of course, after having had sex with him, so she was in no position to mock anyone because she had bowed down before the Wheel and, in fact, gotten caught beneath it."
If you were ever interested in reading "The Long Hard Road out of Hell", know that it's pretty good until Chapter 8.
That passage is where I stopped.
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| Thursday, June 25th, 2009
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3:25 am - with a new computer comes new graphics
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I was a little stingy on the icons, but I'm sure you'll forgive me.
1 Jessicka Wallpaper
2 Jack off Jill Wallpapers
1 Scarling Wallpaper
4 Jessicka icons
(Covet, Love it.)
x-posted
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| Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
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6:48 am - My "thank you" card for Summers.
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The front says "God Bless you. EAch and every kindness is a beautiful reminder of God's great love.
then I wrote a note inside that reads
Mrs. Summers,
I felt as if this card was extremely appropriate. For I and Jesus alike, want to thank you for your hard work and dedication throughout the years. And you know, for not writing me up when I hit you with that shoe in 9th grade. Know that I truly enjoyed working on the paper, organizing things for SADD, and even messing up your copies. :)
You have been a wonderful mentor, and friend. So, I suppose it's okay you toally love Alanna Delfino more than me. Just kidding. Sort of.
For real though, I hope you have a wonderful summer, and a great additional two years in P-Tap. Don't let the asbestos and Radon get to you.
Then the left of the card says "He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. rpvervs 11:25 NIV"
and the right says "Thank you and bless you for being so nice"
PS I was not facetious at all. It's sometimes hard to judge)
I feel as if its all appropriate.
I'm probably going to miss her a lot.
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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6:17 am - Writer's Block: Wild Life
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Surviving wouldn't be hard.
I could make shelter and find/prepare food fairly easy... drinking water may be a challenge, but I'm pretty proficient in fire building, so boiling unsanitary water would probably be my method (unless I was stranded in the wild with chlorine tablets? you never know)
I think when I died, it would either be by suicide, because I get lonely and sad easily, or by some sort of very large animal eating me.
If I had a gun, this wouldnt be an issue.
If it were an island like on Cast Away... I could totally be Tom Hanks.
But as soon as I saw fucking Helen Hunt married my dentist? I'd kill myself.
Fuck that shit. I didn't survive on an island for years just to come home to my woman putting out to someone who gets paid to floss peoples teeth.
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| Monday, April 27th, 2009
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6:54 am - Writer's Block: Musical Affliction
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theres no real video.
this is lame.
but the song has been in my head for a week.
"The candles have blown out, baby, at the party in your head
you're making me so nervous from all the things you've said
you can close your eyes, honey, let the moments melt away
Jesus loves your mouth, sugar, just not the things you say"
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| Monday, March 30th, 2009
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10:08 pm - Writer's Block: Prison Time
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| Thursday, March 19th, 2009
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6:39 am - Writer's Block: Change for the Better over a Decade
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I guess I'm better now because I have lost all of my baby teeth.
No other reasons.
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| Sunday, March 1st, 2009
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11:34 am - Writer's Block: If Animals Could Talk
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Whyyyy did you have to eat my fucking Fig Newtons, Jordin?
Fuck you.
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| Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
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6:40 am - Writer's Block: Daily Grind
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My alarm goes off at 5:30
I go back to sleep.
My alarm goes off at 6:00
I go back to sleep
My alarm goes off at 6:25
I get up
Shower
Coffee
Hair
Clothes
Makeup
Teeth
School
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| Wednesday, February 18th, 2009
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6:07 am - Writer's Block: Animal Instinct
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| Thursday, February 12th, 2009
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7:23 am - Writer's Block: Dream Job
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I would be an ice cream man :)
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| Friday, February 6th, 2009
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5:05 pm - Writer's Block: Seven
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uh
Sloth, lust, gluttony, anger, envy and pride.
But if I had to pick ONE
it's Gluttony because I'm a fat ass.
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| Saturday, November 29th, 2008
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9:51 am - Writer's Block: Little Women
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Jo, even though she fucking DIES.
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| Sunday, October 19th, 2008
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10:05 pm - Writer's Block: Forbidden Reading
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| Thursday, July 24th, 2008
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12:45 am - letter from amanda =)
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Katie,
Hello love. How is everything going? I'm sorry it took me so long to write you back but we really dont get a lot of personal time, lol it's week five and we are still in freaking red phase. sigh. whatever. But it's sunday and i don't feel like cleaning so I'm hiding in the laundry room writing letters. This is my day to catch up. You should send me a picture of us, if you can find one... how was camp? You excited for school this year? Senior year is a big one. Do you think you could let me know about my myspace? like print out my comments or soemthing? You should put my address on there too llol I'm such a pain in the ass I know. But anyways, you know LTC sent me chocolate like they would really let me eat it... then he sent me cameras. They took those too. But he sent me pictures and oh my god his grandson is just too cute. If you see vallar tell him I hope he is okay. and make sure LTC is keeping a proffesional relationship with my grandma.. she has hairy knees, lmao, has he started with your hairy knees yet? Lol. and yes I'm just a squad leader but my drill sft wants to switch to a female PFC platoon guide soon and he looks at me every time he says it... I don't know if I want to be in charge though... I do but I dont you know? of course you know. Were you in charge at camp? Are you nervous about the inspection? I will be back in time to help you if you need it... well you don't need it, if you want it it's yours though. Oh my god, I miss you so much. I don't have anyone to talk to about dirty perverted things lol. No one understands the oral B toothbrush thing. Lol. Ok well Ive still gotta write LTC and CSM, so I'll wirte you as soon as I get a change. I love and miss you
Love always,
Amanda
Guys this was the best birthday present ever.
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| Wednesday, June 4th, 2008
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11:13 pm
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To this day, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow is considered one of the most renowned Romantic writers. Struck with numerous tragedies including the death of two wives, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow escaped through literature that reflected his life and religion.(cite LB) One of his most famous pieces is entitled “The Tide Rises, The Tide Falls”. This three stanza poem focuses on death as well as closure and exemplifies the themes of Gothicism and Romantic Escapism. In the first stanza it states “The twilight darkens, the curlew calls”. In almost all Romantic literature darkness refers to death and is no exception in this piece. A curlew is a shorebird, and in this particular instance symbolizes death calling for someone to take them away. Furthermore, in the second stanza it states “darkness calls” which further proves death is summonsing the subject.
Later in the poem it says “The little waves, with their soft, white hands, Efface the footprints in the sands, and the tide rides, the tide falls”. This particular statement illustrates both the erasing of a persons life and how nature is infinite. Saying the waves were soft and white represents innocence and purity cleansing the sins of the person who has passed. The waves erasing the footprints not only signifies life being erased but shows how even though many people “walk the beaches” of life nature is eternal and will always outlive them.
Although carrying depressing themes of death and forgetfulness, the poem “The Tide Rises, the Tide Falls” also carries themes of hope and closure. In the last stanza Longfellow writes:
“The morning breaks; the steeds in their stalls
Stamp and neigh as the hostler calls;
The day returns, but nevermore
Returns the traveler to the shore,
And the tide rises, the tide falls”
Life still goes on as seen in the phrase “the morning breaks; the steeds in their stalls”. The traveler has moved on from his loss, and has gained closure. This is made evident through the whole poem; the darkness takes over, forgiveness is granted, memories are erased, and life goes on. The traveler realizes all of these things and doesn’t return to the shore because he has made peace with the loss. It could be said that this poem is in reference to the death of Longfellow’s first wife. Shortly after she died Longfellow wrote “A Psalm of Life” which had a very negative tone. The whole poem was about how life is meaningless because after death is when your real life begins. “The Tide Rises, the Tide Falls” takes a happier tone, suggesting that he’s more content with his fate, and has come to terms with the fact he will eventually die. If you look at the poem in terms of this, it will become blatant that figuratively he is the traveler on the beach, and his wife is who darkness has settled on.
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| Sunday, May 18th, 2008
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11:45 pm - Prom
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9:59 am - Prom
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So I went to prom... I looked a hot mess.
My hair was too curly, my dress was too small..and my boyfriend displeases me.
Actually, he'll only be my boyfriend for a few more hours.
he wouldn't dance with me. At all. i tried to make him dance, and he wouldnt. I was like "I've never done this before, but I think this is what you're supposed to do," and I like turned around and went to put his hand on my waist and he's like "I dont dance like that" and dropped his arm and CONTINUED to stand there and do nothing. then I tried dancing like a dork, and he tapped his foot a bit. It was awful.
Then Amanda and her date Tyler came over and started dancing by the tiles on the floor in which we occupied and I was ready to die. ONE because Amanda was like "aww katie you look beautiful" TWO she was all "COME ON YOU TWO DANCE" but he STILL wouldnt and THREE she does the most adorable thing with her lips when she dances and it made me want to touch her.
Oh, and before we left my mom had to tell Trey to make sure he told me I looked pretty every chance he got. Thats embarrassing on so many levels. First off, my mom should not have had to tell him. Second, its really bad when your MOTHER has to tell your boyfriend to make a positive comment about the way you look, because she knows he wont. She should have kept her mouth shut.
I texted my mom and told her to mind her own business, because she cant do things like that... and my dad said she cried a lot. i feel bad. She thought she ruined my night.. my night was ruined a month ago when I decided I really dont like him anymore.
I texted brittany parks (amanda's sort of best friend) and told her that I think i like Amanda a little more than I thought, and asked her to talk me up. But it wont do any good.
I'm ugly and fat, and she can do better...so she will.
The only thing I really have to offer her is hospitality, and niceness. But shes not looking for that. She's looking for a hot fling. I'm not the person people go to for that. I'm for when they're ready to settle down.
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| Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
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7:39 pm
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When I say I'm not going to do something, usually... that means I'm going to do it the next opportunity I get.
In this particular instance, its telling Amanda that I liked her. I really don't know why I'm so incapable of keeping my mouth shut, alas I am.
We were at lunch and she was sitting next to me and we were talking to Michaela, and it was like this:
Michaela: I don't want a boyfriend. They're needy and emotional.
Amanda: Well they're overrated anyway. You think you want one, but then when you get it you realize you don't like them that much, and you dont want to hurt their feelings so you let yourself be miserable and hope they break up with you.
And the whole time Amanda said that, she was doing it like... looking at me from the corner of her eye, and so:
Me: and SOMETIMES its a bit more complicated than that. And next time if you want to say something to me, just say it to me, Amanda.
Amanda: Well, I was just throwing it out there. Giving you ideas I guess.
and then Brittney parks came over so Amanda started talking to her, and I sent her a text saying this
Me:"I'm going to go out on a limb and say this and hope to God you never speak of it. Ever. But I think.... I like you a little. And I'm confused about life and I thought you should know"
Her: "Lol, I would never tell anyone. And like I kid around about it but I'm not even going to lie... I would rather be with a girl than a guy. I'm pretty sure that I'm gay or Bi.
Me: "Yeah, things like that happen. and you spend a long ass time tying to find yourself... but in the end you realize you cant escape shit."
Her: "I know, and the worst part is not being able to talk to anyone."
Me: "Well, know that I'm here for you if you ever need to talk. I mean that. I'm really sorry for bringing this up. It's just overwhelming at times."
Her: "I understand."
and that was the end of the convo... and when the bell rang and we got up to go to 4th period, she gave me a hug, and kissed the side of my head and said "Shake it off, kid"
I absolutely hate my life right now.
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