its been an insane amount of time since i updated this livejournal.

where to start.


highschool ended on a down note, as i ended up in an alley, drunk at a show i really didnt have fun at (thats a lie). it was prom night and my supposed date refused me half-heartedly. because of this night i have developed a belief that really goes along with einstein and all his jargon. every positive outcome really does have a negative, and vice versa. well if one really depressing thing happens to you (i.e. prom date goes AWOL) theres always a positive from it. for example, i didnt have to go to prom and act all formal and shit. right. small positive. the large positive that came out of this was i met my girlfriend. i didnt know shed be my girlfriend but weirder things have happened.

what happened with the prom date is a different story but the point is, if i had gone to prom i might be in a completely different situation relationship wise.


so. after prom was graduation.

i started the summer out right by going to see leftover crack play at club infinity RIGHT AFTER i got my diploma.

then i preceded to keep myself in a sedated state by use of drugs/alcohol.

i was sober maybe 8 days out of summer. probably less.

so, now im in college. the work is harder but its worth it to not del with all of the administrative bullshit.

finally i can smoke where and when i want and i can actually touch on sensitive subject matter ad i can listen to some goddamn music when im doing my homework in the library like i have been for the past 2 hours.




YAY for laptop loans.


i think my time is running out on it actually so i should probably get going.


im pretty happy. thats all.



BUT



that doesnt mean life isnt frustrating.......