Stitch Up My Emptiness

I'm going to make this short and sweet.
I'm done with school, I need a new goal.
I already know what it is.
I need to find where I belong in this world.
And its clear in my mind where I dont belong.

I'm not going to go any further with any of that.
Basicly, I'm going to use my other lj that no one knows about full time.
I'm going to use my other screen name on aim that no one knows too.
I'm restarting my life right now and I'm leaving everything behind.

And yeah, you laughed in my fucking face last night.
Just because you are better friends with the other person and you like that person more gives you no reason to laugh in my face. You can fuck off and die. I look foward to seeing your faces in the obituary someday.

That is all, it's the last time a lot of you are going to hear from me.









P.S.
For the record Dan, whatever you may think, pot isn't bad. It's how some immature people go about using it.

My sister is moving home. Which is good because now I'll have some company.
I really hope the critters get to move in too. It'd be cool to actually have some pets.
Especially Thumbs cuz he's like my best friend in the whole world.

Last night I went to the hooka lounge in East Lansing. Definatly an awesome place.
Everyone is so nice and the owner smokes with you, how cool is that?
I met some really cool people there so I hope to go back soon.
Their chai lattes are the best ones I've ever had and their buffalo tender wraps are to die for.
The best part is, since it's a college town, everything is really cheap.

Man the radio show went like crap.
Couldnt play any new songs, had 2 callers, the only 2 listeners.
Gah.
Do people get gayer and gayer by the minute or something?
You all know how I hate it when someone says they're gonna call me and never do.
I have to add to that. Dont say you're going to call into my show then not even listen.
Andy from Texas, you're a badass, and we'll definatly play Korn for you.
Useless energy, he's not reading this.


Hooka Lounge friday! yay!
Also, show friday.
Derek calls in live from the hooka lounge lol.
Typical, so typical.

I learned today that every song named "Burn" is awesome.
I've never heard a bad song named "Burn".
Same with the word "Rise".
Any song with "Rise" in the name is awesome.


Almost done with school
Can't wait to crawl in a whole and leave all the bad shit behind me.

I spent my day in Grand Blanc.
Relaxing day except I feel horrible.
My poor dad is going through so much shit right now.
Due to his divorce, and Lisa is being a complete bitch to him.
She was going to buy my dad's TV but she ripped up the check because my dad wouldn't sign a paper yet because my uncle (who is a lawyer so knows what he's talking about) said not to sign it.
So my dad is pretty depressed right now.
Which makes me depressed because I wish I could've been a better son to him.
A lot of shit I gave him he didn't deserve.
I cleaned off my desk the other day and found a letter he wrote me when we weren't talking and I almost cried.
I'm such a prick.
I've decided for once I'm going to be a good son, when he needs a friend the most.
He told me today that he didn't think he was cut out to be loved.
He's a great man and if it weren't for him I wouldn't know who alice in chains is.
He always played them when I could barely walk, and that means my dad is the reason I'm still living.
Because Alice in Chains keeps me going every day.

He's moving to Fenton so I think when I'm done with school I'm going to spend most of my time there.

"Do you remember that one time when we had Taco Bell in Nebraska and all they had was corn?"-me




Lilly Munster died, and now, a part of me has too.

It's getting late and something is waiting in the city tonight
This place is crazy and it makes me wanna fuck up my mind
I like the lights the trippy lights and all the pornographic stores
I light this thing as they complain about the junkies and the whores

When I was young I dreamed I'd come here and I guess I did
Surivive the scum and I'd become someone but never did
These village slums I let become my life I guess I did
I'm just a bum pathetic scum thats just the way I live

This is the life
You want the life
NO

It's getting late and guess who's playing in the city tonight
This place is amazing and it makes me wanna fucking get high
I love the way the buildings sway and all the garbage on the streets
The sounds of trains and sirens make lovely music while I sleep

I'm going farther than I ever thought that far could be
By 21 I had a gun and ditched authority
At 22 I never knew the sights that I would see
At 24 I made the score that killed that part of me

This is the life
You want the life
NO

THATS DOPE ALRIGHT!
AND IN MARCH THEY'RE BACK!
HELL YEAH NIGGAS!


My last day of school is a week from tomorrow. yay.

Well I finally have something to write about.
Yet again, it isn't good.

Basicly, I'm kicked out of 2 classes tomorrow because my passes are nowhere to be found.
Which means I'm absolutley screwed and I have no one to blame but myself.
I swear if it wasn't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all, but I don't help that at all.
I tore my basement apart looking for those passes (that I never found) then it sounds like someones in my house moving all my furnature around. I'm already in a bad mood, so I rush upstairs to find that it's just the intense wind.
I may get out of school at 1:10 tomorrow, and if I do, I'm going to cry, and probably bash my head against the wall until I crack my head open again.

Also, the same thing for the past year has sucked, and it continues.
I still feel like slapping myself over the face over all of it.
stupid, stupid, stupid.
Does that seem to be a theme in all of my lj complaining?

I'm telling you Dan, take advantage of what you have and seize the moment.
If you don't, someday you may be typing the same thing on here as I am right now (without the whole not graduating part of course), and I hope that won't happen.
I can't describe a more frustrating and confusing feeling in the world.
I hope that you learn from my mistake.

It's sad when I hardly update livejournal in a serious manner due to the fact that nothing in my life ever changes.
The most exciting news I have is that I have band practice again tomorrow.
I know, it's so thrilling for the rest of you.

I've gotten into bad habbits again.
But guess what, it gives me something to do for a change.

holy shit! how the hell did he miss?!?!?!?!?!