so let that be my story.

Fri, 27 May 2011 02:53:06 GMT

What's up, LJ? Still devoted to tumblr, but I check in here every once in a while.

If anyone here still reads this and isn't my friend on tumblr or facebook, I just want to let you know...

I'M MOVING TO FLORIDA IN 9 DAYS TO WORK AT DISNEY WORLD.

That is all.

Thu, 03 Jun 2010 22:44:12 GMT

The past few days have been all about reflection.
I think if I went back in time and found my 13-year old self, she wouldn't believe that I was her.
As I was reading Romeo & Juliet for my Shakespeare class last week, and I was amazed at how different it seemed to me this time around. I had read the play so many times (and performed it once in the chorus) but never really appreciated how true Shakespeare was to girls at that age. Actually, I wrote my discussion board post about it. When you're 13, every little upset is the end of the world, and it's because you're caught between being a kid, just becoming a teenager, and not quite being an adult, but wanting to be all three things at once. No wonder our minds were exploding! And I feel like now, at 20-years old, things are finally not so damn dramatic. I'm scared and excited for what ~~the next few years~~ my entire future will bring, but the best part is that I feel like I can look back on all of the heartache, the hurt feelings, and the insecurities and actually be thankful for them. I mean truly thankful, with no bitterness or regret. Who would I be without these experiences? Someone who is afraid to be her dorky self around people, afraid to speak her mind, afraid to let herself love what she's doing and let herself be good at it, and afraid that no one could ever love her--or even find her attractive, for that matter.
That was who I was at 13-years old, and 7 years later, I can finally see light through the brick wall I've been tearing down. But it's only beginning, and there's a lot more wall to break through.

Brick number one: I'm sorry for hurting you.

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:43:15 GMT

It's so strange watching and listening to all these freshmen buzzing about starting college.
They're all so excited for the beginning and all I can think about is the end and what the hell I'm going to do.

I feel like the past two years have flown by, but that high school was a million years ago.
I'm a very different person now.
Well... no. I'm not different.
I've accepted who I am. I ~~like~~ love who I am.
And that's made me a stronger person.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 04:26:47 GMT

My new friend on lj also enjoys planning theme parties, apparently, and she inspired me to come up with ideas for tea parties.
Which is funny, because I've been wanting to have one.

THEME: either Wonderland (obviously) or French Royal Engagement (a la Marie Antoinette)
or! a Winter Wonderland Tea party.

first, WONDERLAND

here,

or

i would wear this dress
(which i own.)

girl guests would wear alice-like pinafores and dresses that resemble flowers.

boy guests would dress as mad hatters and march hares.

these:

+ tea cups.

food... just go here: http://community.livejournal.com/flb_recipes/

ROYAL FRENCH ENGAGEMENT

for any tea party, really, i want to go to rose cottage in greenfield village.

for some reason i just see these gift wrap kind of dresses with teased hair and a big feather.

and masks, of course.

boys, i don't know.

food... lots of cakes, obviously. haha. basic, floral tea sets.

sorry i just got boring. i'll finish this tomorrow, maybe. i'm very tired now. but you get the jist!

_______________________________________________
next day! lol.

soundtrack ideas!

wonderland;
because - across the universe soundtrack
lucy in the sky with diamonds - the beatles
dr. strangeluv - blonde redhead
coin-operated boy - the dresden dolls
good day - the dresden dolls
baby britain - elliott smith
what you waiting for? - gwen stefani
don't wake me up - the hush sound
wine red - the hush sound
grace kelly - mika
nice day - persephone's bees
sunshine - regina spektor
matinee idol - rufus wainwright
oh baby - siouxsie and the banshees
walking with a ghost - tegan and sara
velvet goldmine - david bowie
secret life of daydreams - pride and prejudice soundtrack
golden afternoon - alice in wonderland soundtrack
let go - frou frou
there's a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven't figured it out yet - panic! at the disco
back in your head - tegan and sara
white rabbit - jefferson airplane
happy house - siouxsie and the banshees

royal french engagement;
into my blood - carina round
girl anachronism - the dresden dolls
dirty business - the dresden dolls
hall of mirrors - louis xiv
break the sky - the hush sound
scratch your name - the noisettes
killer queen - queen
blue orchid - the white stripes
just a girl - no doubt
dawn - pride and prejudice soundtrack
what ever happened - the strokes
dear prudence - the beatles
give it all away - ben jelen
spring and by summer fall - blonde redhead
easy girl - coconut records
rebel rebel - david bowie
drain the blood - the distillers
twilight - elliott smith
one evening - feist
when i grow up - garbage
violet - hole
speeding cars - imogen heap
mouthwash - kate nash
overdrive - katy rose
mr. brightside - the killers
gentle - krezip
madam ray - the long blondes
god killed the queen - louis xiv
love affair - regina spektor
apres moi - regina spektor
portions for foxes - rilo kiley
rebel prince - rufus wainwright
cities in dust - siouxsie and the banshees
nineteen - tegan and sara
original sinsuality - tori amos
a-punk - vampire weekend

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 04:55:27 GMT

psssss; i don't know which of these will work, but here's a video of my friend david doing the exact dance from michael jackson's "beat it" video.

for the facebook video, if the youtube doesn't work: http://hs.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=23405140178

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 03:21:21 GMT

i need to clean house.
if you want to stay my friend, comment here.
if you really are my friend, comment here.
i don't have time for bullshit.
i write about what's going on in my life and how i feel.
don't comment if you don't give a shit what i have to say.

thanks, enjoy your day.

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 15:18:39 GMT

Sweet, I will for sure be performing Tuesday, October 30th!
I'm pumped.

HALLOWEEN: LIVE!
Varner Hall - Lab Theatre
Begins 10:30pm
$5
It's only between 30-45 minutes long.
October 28th - 31st

this is what i have to say, take it or leave it.

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 16:52:10 GMT

once upon a time, i met a little girl who was playing in the snow in my front yard. she was the only little girl on my street, and so we became friends. i didn't see her again for 6 months. after that we played together often.
i ended up moving away and didn't see her for 2 years. finally, her family moved into our subdivision. however, she was one year older than me so we didn't have any classes together, but we would play on the playground and walk to each other's houses during the summer. as we got older it became more and more difficult to see each other, especially during the school year, and even more especially when we were at two different schools. but we came to accept the fact that we wouldn't see each other very often. it was actually better that way, because we saw that the people around us who spent every day together couldn't stand each other anymore and would fight often. we hadn't fought since elementary school. and even though our mothers would nag us and say, "well why don't you call her? she's going to think you're mad at her or be hurt that you don't hang out more," we saw each other less and then had more fun when we did get together. sometimes we wouldn't see each other for weeks. once, we didn't see each other for a whole summer because she went to florida. during that time, i spent a lot of time with friends my age. and that spread into the school year.
but now we've come to remember what we always told each other; you have to be able to trust each other that even though you may not see each other constantly, you know that you'll always be there for each other, and when you finally do get together, you have more fun than ever.

i'd like to apologize to anyone who's felt that i've abandoned them for someone else.
it was never my intention, and i have taken to heart everything anyone has said, for those who had the balls to speak up.
now i'd just like to know how many of you can trust that just because i don't call all the time, it doesn't mean i don't like you, or i've chosen my boyfriend over you. because i've spent more time in the last four years with you guys than i have with my best friend of 14 years.
if you'd still like to pout or renounce our friendship, i guess there's nothing i can do, because i'm not dropping to my knees and begging at your feet. i'd be lying if i said i don't start crying every time i think about losing you guys because i've always considered you the best friends anyone could have, but if your definition of friendship is calling all the time and dropping plans so we can hang out, then i guess we're going to have a problem.

so, last call. if you can't deal with this anymore and would rather terminate our friendship, just let me know.
if you're willing to accept that friends don't always have to spend time together, well then thanks for listening to me (another sign of a real friend) and i'm sorry i hurt your feelings.

Thu, 31 May 2007 19:55:53 GMT

michael danz, stop trying to read my livejournal.

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 00:03:31 GMT

Leave a comment and I'll give you a letter. Then you list 10 things you like starting with that letter. Post them in your journal and give out new letters to your commenters in turn.

Arti gave me J.

In no particular order...
1. Juliette
2. Jenni
3. Jordin
4. jelly beans
5. jammin'
6. JELLO!
7. Jack Sparrow
8. Jack Skellington
9. Josie & the Pussycats
10. jewels

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 02:06:11 GMT

i just have to say...
that this icon is amazing.

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 03:22:58 GMT

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 03:31:24 GMT

reason #67024760942706942706 why i love juliette andré:

she just called me from the imogen heap concert so i could hear my favorite song of hers, "speeding cars."

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 02:00:27 GMT

fuck you, ed guay.
just shove it up your ass.

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 02:01:36 GMT

I now have both the new albums.
Right now I'm listening to Evanescence's The Open Door.
I'm so pumped for this concert.

1. Sweet Sacrifice - Starts a bit like "Going Under," but I like the almost electronic kind of sound it has... reminiscent of oldschool Ev. I always like Angry Amy... her angry songs are fun to jump around my room to. It's sarcastic and angry and full of energy and the same reason why I love "Going Under." I guess she just knew that these make good openers to albums. lol.
2. Call Me When You're Sober - You all know I feel about this song, and even though it's not something that I'd expect from Ev, it'll always have a special place in my heart.
3. Weight of the World - Whoa, slightly garage band... I don't know what I mean by that, but go with it. Oooh, and then this cute little music box sound. Makes it almost Dresden Doll-ish. And a little Lacuna Coil, too. Okay, now I'm just babbling. WotW: I approve.
4. Lithium - beautiful vocals (duh), and just beautiful. Kind of brave to name it that though... Nirvana much?
5. Cloud Nine - This would be the trippy song of the album. I la la love it. Just... yeah, trippy's really the best word to describe it.
6. Snow White Queen - Okay, so this is the "Haunted" of this album. Why? Well it's about someone stalking her. Amy Lee actually wrote it about some guy that stalked her. Creepy. But it's a really cool song. (And the "Snow White" part comes from her username on Evboard.com.)
7. Lacrymosa - Alright, this one I had actually already downloaded. Oh well. Anyway, I loooove the violins or violas or whatever the hell they are in the background (and the return of the Creepy Death Singers from "Whisper!" Yay! lol).
8. Like You - I had forgotten at first that this song was written about her sister, who died at a very young age. If you thought "Hello" was sad, prepare yourself for something downright emotional. Once I realized who she was singing about, the song's intensity rose. It's terribly sad without being slow.
9. Lose Control - Okay, the only word to describe this song is INTENSE. It starts out slow and kind of eerie. Okay maybe "intense" wasn't the only word... "eerie" fits well too. This one is very different, and yet still very Ev. Definitely one of my favorites on the album.
10. The Only One - I actually already heard this song (oops, bad me). I feel like this is one of their ones that is "typical Evanescence" and doesn't really stand out from the rest, but it's anything but bad.
11. Your Star - I just have to say, one of the things I love about Amy Lee is that you never ever know what note she's going to sing next. It's never something you'd expect. When you hear the song, you'll know what I'm talking about. Anyway, when it gets to the chorus I was surprised because it actually started to sound like more of their older stuff. And once again, they trick you into thinking this is going to be a slow, sad ballad. It's not. Seriously, she always keeps you on your toes with this music. And then... what is that? The crazy operatic death-y singers a la "Whisper"? Hell yeah! This is basically every Evanescence song thrown into a blender.
12. All That I'm Living For - Again with the switchy switchy. It starts out with powerful vocals and strong guitar, and then she gets all soft, and then back to the angry girl music. lol.
13. Good Enough - Mmmk, so far this sounds like a movie soundtrack--a fucking gorgeous movie soundtrack. Almost Elfman-like? Hmmm... one thing I've noticed with this album is that Amy has gotten a lot more fluidly freestyle with her voice. I think this is really the only song on this album that really sounds different and unexpected. I've heard rumors that this will be the new single, and I'm not sure how I feel about that. I don't think it'd really play well on the radio... but I do like it, it's just very very very different. Surprise! And it's at the very end of the CD, too. Although it's definitely a subject that a lot of people can relate to... "Am I good enough for you to love me too?" Kind of a depressing way the end the album, but I'm over it.

OVERALL: I love it. There's not a single song I would skip over, just like with Fallen. I'll have a review for The Killers' Sam's Town later. ♥

Anyway, theatre was boring today because I barely did anything. But I talked to the two freshmen girls (Lainie and Kelsey)... they're so cute. And it's so weird being the senior. I feel like I was where they are now just yesterday--asking questions about the people, how everything works. It's just weird being "older." Seniors always felt so much older than me, but I don't feel that much older than these girls, and yet I'm giving them advice and telling all these stories. It's just weird. Graduation just seems so surreal.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 19:46:18 GMT

Today was one big rollercoaster.
In other words, I'm playing Abigail.

First I felt guilty and yet excited and terribly confused (I spent half of AC crying in the bathroom because my head was at war with itself) and then after I talked to a few trusted friends and sorted out my thoughts, I realized something: Everyone has something, and my something is acting. I don't take AP classes or play sports or try student council or working to get money because I'm working my ass off trying to improve in the thing I love, so that I can honestly say I deserve what I get. I want to be able to say that I got a role because I shook the ground with my performance, not because I'm a senior and I deserve to get a lead role, or because I'm "you know, kryssy... that drama girl." This is somethign I want to pursue as a career, not something to go on a college application as an after-school activity.

So no more apologies, no more guilt, NO MORE.
I'm going to have fun, challenge myself, learn a lot, and finally be proud of something I've done.

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 21:51:42 GMT

The stuff under the cut is a entry about auditions for The Crucible. I'm just going to say what I feel right now about where I stand and be honest. So if you don't want to read it, don't.

Last year when I read The Crucible in tragedy, I adored the character of Elizabeth Proctor. She's a challenge; she hides her emotions, but as an actress, you still have to convey to the audience what she's feeling. She on my audition sheet I circled "any role" but I put little stars around Elizabeth--and ONLY Elizabeth--like I always do. Well apparently no one got the message because I didn't read for her once. I read for Mary Warren and... Abigail. The stone cold bitch with obvious emotions and a predictible personality. (At least, in my opinion.) Unfortunately, I was pretty good at it. Now, another reason I don't want Abigail is because it's the part Jenni wants, and that's already happened twice. I don't want to do that again (especially because it's always a part I don't want or don't think I can play well) and I'm sure it wouldn't make her day either.

But... at some point during the call-backs today, I started enjoying reading for Abigail. So now I'm just confused and I don't know what I want.

And let me clarify something---I'm not after Elizabeth (or Abigail?) because they're lead roles. Seriously, when I read a script I look at how I can relate to that character and how "meaty" their personality/emotions are (or what will challenge me), not how many lines they have or how much people will love me as that character, or even just the fact that it's a lead. Sometimes smaller roles have a more challening and satisfying part than a lead (coughcoughNEVERMOREcoughcough). ALSO! It's that I'm not grateful for any of the roles I've been given or may receive in the future. I've learned something from each of those shows and I'm grateful that the staff could actually look at me and have the confidence that I could pull something like that off. IN CONCLUSION: I'm not greedy or ungrateful, I'm just my own worst critic and I'm constantly trying to push myself.

fndskbhgksdgkjsd.
I don't know.

I'll be happy with whatever I'm given (or not given).
There. That's it. End of story.

In other news:
- I suck at tennis
+ Though I wasn't too bad at serving.
+ A song that Juliette found about me being a necrophilac. Ahahaha.
- Homework?! Since when?!

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 21:48:12 GMT

After reading Joe's entry and then looking at postsecret, I got an idea.

Leave an anonymous comment of anything you want to say to me, whether it's about me or not. You can just leave a regular comment, or you can even make a postcard/picture of any kind. k? go go go!

comment anonymously.

Wed, 17 May 2006 20:00:52 GMT

Six things you wonder about me
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Five Things you like about me
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four things you don't like about me
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three of my best features
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Two words that describe me
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One question for me (ask away, i will answer honestly)
1.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 22:28:28 GMT

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 03:19:21 GMT

I thought this deserved it's own entry...

Okay, since there's no way in hell Guay would ever let us do it in theatre, I want to get a group of people together to do RENT. And I want to do it as a charity event to raise money for (what else?) AIDS research. The only problem would be where to do it, getting enough people, and money.
Also, I'm thinking maybe we could do it as a summer project (because I'm not sure I can handle anything else with Nevermore and B&B).

So here's where I need your help... comment if you want to help out (whether it be through acting, crew, a band?) or if you know anyone else who wants to (leave their email address so i can contact them). Tell your friends. Once I get 30 people to "sign" I'll start to seriously think about putting it together. Nothing's official until then.

FIGHT AIDS.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 04:42:02 GMT

vedette de cinéma means movie star.
just to clear that up.

my name is kryssy, and this is my new lj.
(as opposed to dancinponies)
if you'd like to be my friend, that's great.
but here's some things you need to know:
-i don't like it when people ask to be added and then never talk to me.
-most of my friends are either from school, an flb community, or an audrey hepburn community.
-most of the time i'm cheerful and talk about random stuff.
-but every once in a while i get really upset and have to vent about something.
-i am also a camwhore and tend to post pictures.

still interested? then here's some things i need to know:
-name:
-how you know me:
-why should i add you?:

if i've already added you, you don't need to fill this out.

♥.