who & why & where & when to go

___treefingers @ 2006-10-31T21:45:00

2006-11-01T04:45:18Z

i sleep on the couch at my grandparent's house.
my belongings are all piled high on a coffee table.

i live off the frozen dinners my grandpa offers me every night
& they're really not all that bad. beggers can't be choosers.

it's halloween & i have nothing to do.
i've never been trick or treating.
my grandma is back home as of her 80th birthday, 3 days ago.
thanks for all your prayers.

i lost both my contacts so i'm now partially blind
until i can afford more.
isn't that awesome.
i thought so.

but ya know, it's really not all that bad.

___treefingers @ 2006-10-25T01:59:00

2006-10-25T09:23:36Z

i believe that i have fallen victim under a few false impressions. it's something you can only blame yourself for, but that makes it no less frustrating. i'm under the impression that getting out of san diego would equal an escape from my life's current problems. i'm also under the impression that these problems will fade with time and yet, as each day passes, i see this might not be true. so i ask myself, "am i simply forced to live the remainder of my life with these difficulties?" i know i sound like a terrible pessimist but i assure you i'm not. i'm just stuck with a head full of thoughts and questions i can't answer.

i just want a small place where we both can live & laugh and create our own escape. please, God, let it come soon.

___treefingers @ 2006-10-21T19:22:00

2006-10-22T02:22:23Z

i start at claire de lune on monday.
hell yeah.

___treefingers @ 2006-10-11T15:42:00

2006-10-11T22:42:35Z

the whole starbucks thing didn't work out how i thought it would.
after i had already been told i was going to be hired
they told me it wasn't for the store i applied for
but for a location right down the street.
so i go to the store down the street & it's TOTALLY different.
they close 3 hours before the location i applied at,
so my availability wouldn't even allow me to work there.

so i just said screw it & am on the hunt again.
i have an interview tomorrow at noon for a brand new coffee house down the street
pray pray pray it works.
i am on my last $3.
& that is not a joke.

___treefingers @ 2006-10-07T12:24:00

2006-10-07T19:24:09Z

in 3 days i will officially be an employee of

i mean, damn the man & all but...
you gotta do what you gotta do for the bones.

___treefingers @ 2006-10-04T10:22:00

2006-10-04T17:22:34Z

like the peacocks wandering the walkways of the zoo
who have twice the autonomy the giraffes and the elephants do,
saying:
"no one can stop me,
no one clips my claws!
now everyone watch me
scale these outside walls!"
you took the pious and profane,
turned around the praise and blame,
said "a glass can only spill what it contains"
to the perpetually plain and the incurably inane
a glass can only spill what it contains

___treefingers @ 2006-09-25T20:40:00

2006-09-26T03:40:29Z

my grandma fell today.
she was trying to walk down the stairs of the front porch with her walker and slipped.
i found her sitting in the driveway, with all of her things sprawled out around her.
things that had fallen out of the large pocket on her walker.
she was completely covered in blood that was dripping from 2 different spots on her head.
her face, her hair, her shirt, her hands: all drenched in blood.
i have never seen anything like this in my life.
there was a thick pool of blood on the ground from where she had been laying.
when i saw her all i could do was scream for ryan to come help me.
he held her while i ran inside to grab towels and call 911.
when i picked up the phone my grandpa was already talking to someone and i heard them say an ambulance would be there soon and we needed to apply pressure to her head.
my grandpa wasn't really phsyically able to do anything to help her and it was a miracle that ryan and i showed up when we did.
after i knew the ambulance was on its way i sprinted back outside and wrapped a towel around her head.
with a wet towel i attempted to wipe the blood off her face.
there was so much blood.
even her mouth was full of all the blood that had poured down her face.
i tried so hard to be strong, to not panic.
i don't know what i would have done if i was by myself.
ryan held my grandma until the ambulance came while i held the towel around her head and tried to clean off her face.
he kept talking to the both of us, telling my grandma she would be ok and telling me as well.
i probably would have panicked had it not been for his presence.
when the ambulance came i watched as the paramedics layed her out and put her on a stretcher.
at this point she started falling into a state of deliriousness due to blood lose.
her eyes started clouding over and rolling into the back of her head and she was crying out that the neck brace was hurting her chin so badly, but no one could do anything.
after the ambulance left and we had washed the blood off our hands and arms ryan held me for a minute and let me cry.
then we had to clean all the blood off the driveway with bleach and water.
a few hours later my mom called to tell me that my grandma had broken her clavicle bone, and several bones in her hand.
in addition to this, there is also a little bit of blood on her brain.
it's not too severe, but it's still definitely not a good thing.
right now she's in intensive care and tomorrow will be transported to the hospital.

i definitely experienced one of the most traumatic events in my life today.
or at least, i SAW one of the most traumatic things i've ever seen.
i keep closing my eyes and seeing my grandma sitting in the driveway covered in blood.
i have also never seen my grandpa cry and today i saw him cry twice.
when i told this to my mom, even she said she's never seen him cry.
i didn't mention that i also had 2 job interviews today.
all i know is... i could definitely use a nap.
i'll let you know what happens.

please keep Betty Jean Dunton in your thoughts and prayers.

thank you.

___treefingers @ 2006-09-18T03:05:00

2006-09-18T10:05:22Z

i'm going apartment hunting tomorrow.
wish me luck.

___treefingers @ 2006-09-10T17:38:00

2006-09-11T00:42:36Z

___treefingers @ 2006-08-25T11:45:00

2006-08-25T18:46:39Z

i am currently without a phone.
and will be for the next.... who knows.
if you have $400 laying around & would like to pay off my bill
please let me know ASAP.
in the meantime, if you need to get ahold of me.
well, that just sucks for both of us now doesn't it.

___treefingers @ 2006-07-30T10:18:00

2006-07-30T17:18:34Z

___treefingers @ 2006-07-24T18:50:00

2006-07-25T01:49:55Z

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___treefingers @ 2006-07-19T12:18:00

2006-07-19T19:47:16Z

i finally got to a computer that i could upload my pictures onto.

that's right, kiddos.
i'm a full on carnivore now.
i've also been pooping out my intenstines for the past two days.
but i guess that's the price you pay.

ryan and i have been exploring OB and sunset cliffs for the past week or so.
i've found all my new favorite places.

this during the day.

this at night.

the drive in theatre has also been our new found love, as i mentioned earlier.

and now, what i know you've really all been waiting for...

she tries her best to roll with the big boys.

i know she looks cute, but she is a little terror.

i have more but the computer is making my eyes hurt
& it's too nice of a day to be sitting inside for this long.
it's lunchtime anyway.
perhaps i'll make myself a hot dog...

___treefingers @ 2006-07-15T19:14:00

2006-07-16T02:24:10Z

i got that old school game controller that you plug into your tv & it allows you to play EVERY video game from the 80's.
what i'm trying to say is i've been playing mario bros. WAAAAY too much. i've been playing it on the sweet tv my sweet gave me. bad idea on his part (i'm sorry i can't beat level THREE & that i'm making you lose your mind playing it over & over again).
we saw superman today. my dad took us. the theatre was so crowded we couldn't find three seats together so my dad ended up sitting RIGHT behind us. aaaawkward. i got a digital camera also. actually, it's only part mine. but either way, expect tons of pictures. soon. and yes, lots of the new kitty.
i got two advanced screening tickets to see Little Miss Sunshine. i have the ability to get more. let me know if you're interested.
well, i better go pump more people's blood with espresso before they raid the place.

stay tuned.

___treefingers @ 2006-07-10T19:08:00

2006-07-11T02:07:55Z

ryan & i got a new kitten. her name is sage. she's dark gray with bright green eyes. she is so playful & loves us to death. we are the best parents ever. our kitten rules.

___treefingers @ 2006-06-20T22:06:00

2006-06-21T05:06:26Z

it's been awhile

what's new with you?

2 really important things

2006-06-14T20:36:20Z

1. are any of you looking for roommates?
2. are any of your work places hiring, or do you know where i could find good work?

LET ME KNOW pleeeaase.

radiohead.

2006-05-30T00:10:37Z

is anyone looking to buy a ticket to see radiohead?

___treefingers @ 2006-05-07T09:06:00

2006-05-07T16:06:48Z

radiohead tickets sold out FIVE MINUTES after going on sale...
& i got TWO of them.
i'm so happy right now, you don't even know.

___treefingers @ 2006-04-25T22:12:00

2006-04-26T05:12:38Z

go here
our new creative outlet.
add it, love it.
if you live in the san diego area, come support it.

this desert heat is trapped inside my bones

2006-04-14T19:26:55Z

i am stuck in las vegas because my boyfriend can't get off work. but let me tell you, as soon as i get that phone call i'm putting our bags by the door and twirling around in the dining room chair until he arrives to take me off into the sunset. cheesy? yes. equally true? yes.
i woke up this morning at 9:07 & had two slices of toast with peanut butter & a hard boiled egg for breakfast. i cleaned danny's room & the stupid girl inside of me kept thinking how wonderful it would be if this was our bed i was making & our trash i was emptying. sometimes i think i'm too anxious to grow up & should just slow down & let things happen. but at the heart of it i think we were created with that womanly instinct to want to love a man & to care for him & take care of him. & in return be loved so deeply it makes our insides burst with butterflies & causes us to look at the world through different eyes.
i feel chaos in the air surrounding this weekend. i'm preparing myself for it even now. i need to take a shower. & wait for that boy to come home.

___treefingers @ 2006-04-13T12:59:00

2006-04-13T20:06:48Z

it's my fourth day in vegas.
my boyfriend bought me a hair cutting chair. [!!!]
so come let me do your hair in my garage.
& this dvd:

if you are a fan of gorillaz, you MUST see this.
it is absolutely incredible.
tomrrow we head back to san diego.
ROAD TRIP!
we're gonna stop in every town possible & make it last as long as we can.
this has been the best 2 week vacation & i don't want to go back to real life.
don't you wish it could be this way forever?

___treefingers @ 2006-04-04T22:31:00

2006-04-05T05:32:10Z

thai food dinner date with your dad in hawaii.
bound to be a good evening.

___treefingers @ 2006-04-02T17:41:00

2006-04-03T00:41:47Z

hey guess what?

I'M IN HAWAII!!!

___treefingers @ 2006-03-28T20:19:00

2006-03-29T04:19:14Z