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i really don't know.
i just wanted to tell everyone how amazing my life is.
my life is pretty amazing, by the way c:
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[December 12, 2009 | 05:13 AM] |
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sometimes, when I'm alone, pretending to sleep, my mind wanders to places I forgot about. and its right then, in those drawn out moments before m eyes roll into the back of my head, I miss you. I miss who I made you out to be. and even though you ruined me in every sense of the word, I still can't imagine where life without you would have led me.
I know you think your life now is better without me. id be lying if I said I didn't feel the same way. but, I know you. and I know you have those annette infested moments as well. and I guess I just wanted you to know that my stomach doesn't churn anymore when I revisit you and I that summer. but it's all still clear as day. it's almost too real sometimes. I guess it helps to know where I can find you. where I can hear your voice, and see your face. even if the air is lined with unresolved tension, seeing you alive is mindblowing most of the time.
sometimes I think you were just a dream.
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[December 10, 2009 | 04:33 PM] |
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ahhh. life is so good.
I'm on the bus home from working at the salon. it was pretty slow today, which is good cause Amy and I want to get all of inventory done before 2010.
deva asked if I'd start helping out with rent. they want kevin to leave because he's a huge douchebag to everyone, except maybe me ha.
I'm super happy about that, though. I love them all too much to like, reap the benefits of dating calvin for much longer haha. idk. this bus is really crowded, and I love it. it makes the ride 10x warmer haha.
so. my first check from floyd's is only going to have my hours from last friday on it, and yet it's still gonna be $70. for one day. that's insane! $11hr is incredible right now.
ummm. everyone at school keeps asking what I'm going to do for my graduation, and I hnestly have no idea. I can't really afford to bring in loads-a-food. also, im going to bawl my eyes out. ha. like foreverrrrrr. I can't believe I'm so close to being done, dude. it's mind blowing.
Sunday is my first day of work without Amy. bahhh. I'm kind of VERY nervous about that, only because I'm going to cry if I screw up. but, I have my little notes haha, and Trish will be there. I think that's part of why I love my job so much. I mean, when I was in day class, it was Trish who was there for me, and who would nderstand when my life started deteriorating. it's so cute. she told Amy how good I was at hair, and that she'd be silly to not take me on as a stylist once I get my license. Amy said she'd give me a technical interview when she needed another stylist, and I almost shat myself. twice. ha. that's literally my dream salon.
I'm hungry :c being poor isn't fun. but after this weekend, I'll be good. I had to steal chicken breasts yesterday to eat. pathetic, I know. but I really had no choice. haha except! it was adorable, when I came home cal was like, "I have a suprise for you" and I was like, o_O what? and he.. hahahah.. went into his closet and took out a cold bowl of soup he said he stole from Kevin, and I heat it up in the microwave and ate that fucker while we watched Matchstick Men and then passed the fucckkk out after a tickle fight and many many kisses.
we haven't fought in so long. I'm really not used to it. I'm not used to having a relationship that's not only incredible, but normal. like, calvin once said, "you're not being used to me is really scary. I mean, you can have normal friendships, and relationships. what you've gotten used to and been a part of ISN'T normal by any means. and the fact that you're alive right now is living proof of how badly you deserve to be happy finally."
like. hello husband. ha.
bwahpahpahp. idk! I'm getting off the bus soon, so I'll wrap this up.
erm. 4 months this saturday ughh <3 I honestly can't wait. like. ahhhhh.
okayokayokay ♥
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[December 08, 2009 | 06:00 PM] |
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um. hello!
my liffeeeee has been nothing short of amazing. my boyfriend is, for lack of a better word, perfect. I got a job at Floyd's, and for those of you who have no idea what that is, it's the most badass salon on mass ave. :D
I don't know. this time last year I was a completely depressed lump swooning over a closeted homo-mentalcase. needless to say, my surroundings have vastly improved. having a job in cambridge basically confirms many beliefs surrounding whether or not I'm making it out here.
I has 924hrs, so I have 76 to go before I'm fucking DONE with Blaine/Empire.
I guess there's just not so much to say because so much has happened? haha.
my dad actually told me he was proud of me(weird) the other day. my mom is more than excited for me and my new life. my brother is pretty excited for me, along with my sister.
I guess what I miss most is mary. I know that's really fucking random, but idk. she was there for me when I was a complete wreck. we both got bfs and shit, got caught up in life I guess? idk. I just know she'd be ecstatic for me, and tell me she was proud of me.
so, if you end up reading this, I miss you marylee :c
val contacted me, and we briefly hung out at the cleaners like a week ago. I was fucking super thrilled about that, I really missed her. she looks incredible.
idk. I guess I'm finally getting what I deserve. I'm finally doing what I love, with the people I love, while being in love, and above all appreciated.
so. um. merry christmas c:
ps: soundtrack to my life right now? Sleepyhead by Passion Pit
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[November 11, 2009 | 04:01 PM] |
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I got to hang out with andy and kevin last night, and then calvin bob and alec met up with us and played hackey sack in harvrd square at 1am. it was incredible. my whole life is incredible.
I have been revisited by things from my recent past that months ago would have really upset me, but I'm finding it almost funny that there's all this drama that I have to be made aware of instead of being involved. I can't believe how much ridiculously better my life has gotten in so little time.
I don't know. its just pleasantly suprising cause like, my psoriasis is literally disappearing. like I can actually recognize my bird tattoo. and like, my arms are clearing up and its like GONE from my forehad.
its just so amazing, everything is. c:
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