5 months seems like an eternity.

now this is the direction i wanted life to go in, finally.

and nothing is any better.

Last night I dreamt
That somebody loved me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm

Last night I felt
Real arms around me
No hope, no harm
Just another false alarm

So, tell me how long
Before the last one ?
And tell me how long
Before the right one ?

The story is old - I know
But it goes on
The story is old - I know
But it goes on

Oh, goes on
And on
Oh, goes on
And on

im waiting for this horrible feeling to subside. I'm waiting for a night where I dont expect a call. I'm waiting for someone to truly understand me and where I'm coming from. Its been four days and it feels like forever. I dont want to wait forever.

the color of my walls

I love my new job!!!

I would really love to shoot myself in the face. I'm wasting my time.

Painting my room mustard yellow is quite possibly the worst mission EVER.












everything looks like absolute shit right now, but i believe i have some good ideas, im also going to invest in a nice fish tank and fill it with a bunch of those really colorful guppies...my inspiration is dereks 5 year old sister who only wanted guppies for her birthday.

I cant wait until redecorating is finished.



anyways i start my job at XLR8 in the mall tomorrow, and i cant wait to finally have some money.