Olive

___paperboat @ 2007-08-31T20:23:00

2007-09-01T03:23:41Z

lately, i feel like i have nothing going for me

i feel my luck could change

2006-09-14T23:35:32Z

pre:

post:

this isnt love

2006-09-12T02:27:34Z

everything has pretty much taken a turn for the worse, who even thought that was possible?

ramble ramble

2006-09-08T05:53:27Z

I'm in an awfully strange mood lately. It doesn't really seem as though I'm myself. But maybe I'm just starting to become who I really am and this whole time through out my whole life I've been pretending I'm something else. But how do you really know when something like this happends?
How do you know what you are really all about?
So far up to now I've basically lived life as though I need something or someone to be around and I can't be happy when this isn't true. I need to be loved by someone and/or everyone.
But now I think i've changed my thoughts. I don't need another confused human being to drag me down or even to brighten me up. i can do all of this on my own. I'm not really sure if this is a stage/type of depression but I think I've desovered that you shouldn't depend on other things/people. I want to be independent. I do, so bad. But, it's hard to break the "addiction". I'm basically addicted to people's love and comforted by the constant connection.
Lately I've been hiding it from everyone to keep my pride and be "tough". But that only really makes me more weak in the long run.
Honestly, I think I need to go back to therapy. It really helps, and It's not just for "crazy" people. I love it. It's kind of like a best friend in a way without all of the bad parts. They know you really well (or they will). And they can give you advice and pep talks. It's all there for you of one short bill of 80$ an hour. Ha.
Anyways, this is the lowest I've been in my life, or at least the lowest in a while. But it might be different tomorrow becuase I can't really seem to make up my mind of I'm ok with how things are going or if I totally want to get rid of the person I am.

___paperboat @ 2006-08-29T20:13:00

2006-08-30T03:35:32Z

Cheer up everyone!

Smileeeeeeeeeeeeee!

something kind cool.. sorta, not really, maybe

2006-07-09T21:41:47Z

If you comment on this post:

1. i’ll respond with something random about you
2. i’ll challenge you to try something
3. i’ll pick a color that i associate with you
4. i’ll tell you something i like about you
5. i’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. i’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. i’ll ask you something i’ve always wanted to ask you
8. if i do this for you, you must post this on yours

___paperboat @ 2006-06-13T19:00:00

2006-06-14T02:26:15Z

Long time no talk I guess.
School outs.. kind of. Summer school blows but I guess it's my own fault.
Everything seems to be going smootly right now. It's quit nice.
Although I kind of think my life needs a little spicing up. Hm that would be good.

Went on a camping trip to BigBear with the Coyle's recently.

Ok, stop stop. I know I look great, you don't have to tell me.

The arcade got kind of lame.. or maybe I just got older.

I really like this picture. Idk why.

Haha. Wee.

There were so many of these beautiful trees around. This picture doesn't really give it justice.

We went cosmic bowling at the Bowling Barn.

Our car batterie died.

Annnd I've just been hanging around doing nothing like usual.
Grossmont center fun.

I love this picture.

OMGAHmyspace pixx

Oh and summertimmezz wiith my peeps.

Cotten candy ice cream from right aid is sooooooo good. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

Haha classy, We went to Ryan's graduation at Steele Canyon. It was cold.

And this is the lasest addition to my family. Elliot.

I love him.

Oh and suck you ahve to look at these pictures of me.

Ok well I hope everyones summer is going perfect.

___paperboat @ 2006-05-03T20:13:00

2006-05-04T03:32:39Z

Wow, Coachella blew me away this year.
I'm still trying to catch up on sleep and energy from it but I wouldn't take it back for the world.
I can't wait untill next year. It wil be even better.

The tents from the road.

The mountains were pretty. I couldn't beleve there was snow still ontop. It was SO hot.

The windmills were so sureal.

Emily in the RV.

Saturday before we left the RV park.

We stayed at the Indio Date Festival Fair Grounds.

The art was interesting. Beautifully painted portapotties.

Lady Soverign. I love her side ponytail.

The Zutons. I was realllly hot when I took this picture.

Animal Collective.

I got a really weird tan on my feet. Classy, I know.

Poor Emily was wearing Keds that were a size too small for her.

Ricky was there.

Like my fatty legs huh?

KANYE

Devendra. I'm going to marry him someday.

Chan Marshalls: Cat Power. She was cute. I almost got my boob ripped off trying to get to the front when Ladytron was playing right before Cat Power.

Neon light art. I was loving it.

I was deathly sunburned by Saturday night.

The lights in the Sahara tent were fab.

Soooooo many people.

DAFT PUNK. The besttttttt.

Sunday; Sleater-Kinney

Karen O. The Yeah Yeah Yeah's wonderfulll.

The food was really expensive. 10 freaking bucks for one plate of chinese food.

It was good obviously.

My favorite part was dancing. Emily is the best dance partner.

Massive Attack. Possibly my new favorite band.

Artttt.

More black lights.

hahaha Oh and this guy was streaking. A good way to end his Sunday night at Coachella I guess.

Back in Hemet. woo

Over all I really enjoyed myself. Next year let's get a big crowed together. I want everyone to experience the wonderful Coachella feeling.Haha. It's that great.

___paperboat @ 2006-03-14T18:28:00

2006-03-15T02:28:15Z

___paperboat @ 2005-12-04T22:14:00

2005-12-05T06:15:05Z

Yes, It worked.
You have succeeded.
I'm officially pissed off to the point were I want to shoot myself.
I hope you are happy.
You are a selfish, low, despreate, bitch.
I hope every time you two fuck you think about how much I hurt because of what you did.
I will never forgive you. I hope you live with this for the rest of your life. And I hope you think about what a good friendship you lost over yourself.
I'll miss you.

___paperboat @ 2005-10-17T15:19:00

2005-10-17T22:19:13Z