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Well hello livejournal! Long time no write. According to the little thingy it says that its been 58 weeks since my last entry. Thats a long time! Anyways, part of the reason I decided to write today is because i have given up facebook for Lent. I am slowly going insane from boredom and loneliness. Actually on top of not having facebook, I've also been sick for 3 days; not common cold sick but rather in-bed, deathly sick. It really sucks because I'm never sick. The up side is at least this isn't happening on my birthday which is in 6 days! / Kinda tired at the moment gonna hit the sack. <3

grlLacrosseFreAk: so like you know what tarot cards are?
Samster1010: yeah
grlLacrosseFreAk: ok well i know this guy...u remember the red head guy with his wife who was on crutches at the new years eve party?
Samster1010: yeah
grlLacrosseFreAk: well he reads tarot cards....and like he always reads mine like every 6 months and the this time it said that i was going to go into a relationship but i was going to be hesitant about it...and like all this stuff...but like i dont know who the person could begrlLacrosseFreAk: but that once i decided to move past a roadblock and i accept this relationship, i will be really happy
Samster1010: ooooh
Samster1010: when did this happengrlLacrosseFreAk: umm saturday
grlLacrosseFreAk: and the time before that
Samster1010: ooh
grlLacrosseFreAk: was like in the summer
grlLacrosseFreAk: and like it said that i was going to meet a new guygrlLacrosseFreAk: and stuff
grlLacrosseFreAk: and this time
grlLacrosseFreAk: it said that i was going to come into a relationship
grlLacrosseFreAk: and like normally it doesnt say that
grlLacrosseFreAk: it says like i will overcome challenges or something...i guard my emotions, etc...things i know
grlLacrosseFreAk: but this timegrlLacrosseFreAk: im confused
Samster1010: hu
Samster1010: m
Samster1010: i think
Samster1010: no i dont think
Samster1010: idk
Samster1010: cuales son algunas guys en tu vida
grlLacrosseFreAk: well like the only new guy i met was hernan but i know that would NEVER happen
grlLacrosseFreAk: and then there is daniel
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: ay dios porfa noSamster1010: oh i mean the porfa for hernan
grlLacrosseFreAk: so thats why im confused
Samster1010: u are welcome to get together with daniel
Samster1010: but
Samster1010: thats about as likely as me and kaleb
Samster1010: OMG kaleb
Samster1010: oh no
grlLacrosseFreAk: nah i doubt it
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: i dont even know him
Samster1010: yeah
Samster1010: and he has novia
Samster1010: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: so yeah...
Samster1010: humm
Samster1010: juank
Samster1010: u talk to him ocasionally
Samster1010: tamnbien tiene noviaSamster1010: ummm
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah right
Samster1010: ja
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: hey all ur friends who are guys are latino
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: shoot watina in training
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: hum
Samster1010: q massss
Samster1010: wt about me
Samster1010: i want a reading
Samster1010: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: sure haha its really cool how he does it and like he mite freak you out a little bc he is like into the magic stuff but like you can see how he reads them by looking at the cards
grlLacrosseFreAk: the cards have clues
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: wellyeah isnt that the point?
grlLacrosseFreAk: and freakin the first card down was THE LOVERS
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: awwww
grlLacrosseFreAk: he was like ooo
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: so yeah...normally the cards like say different things that will happen...but this time it was revolving all around one emotional situation
Samster1010: ooOoOOOooo
grlLacrosseFreAk: that was the lovers and overcoming stuff that will lead to a happy relationship and how like i will have a friend(it was a knight card so it tends to be a guy friend i guess) there who is trying to help me with the problem but like i wont see it as help and then the same with an adult figure...but once i overcome these things i will have a happy relationship with some UNKNOWN PERSON!
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: yeah and some UNKOWN problems
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol with a nonexistant person
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: but like im so wrapped up in it bc it also said in the last reading that i was going to find a guy and then things were gonna get a little shaky later on...but now its later on and it says that i have to make the step
grlLacrosseFreAk: wtf
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: wtf hun
Samster1010: its
Samster1010: TAROT cards
Samster1010: its not all true
Samster1010: u know that right
Samster1010: no proven facts
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: but like i want it to be real
Samster1010: oh i know ch ikita
grlLacrosseFreAk: i want to be in a relationship
Samster1010: paciencia
Samster1010: lol
Samster1010: aww
Samster1010: me too
Samster1010: or just
Samster1010: like divertirme lmao either wa
grlLacrosseFreAk: oh you shhhh
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: SHHH what
Samster1010: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: you can get any guy
grlLacrosseFreAk: ok
grlLacrosseFreAk: unlike me
Samster1010: no
grlLacrosseFreAk: uh yeah
Samster1010: uh do u want to know something
grlLacrosseFreAk: what?
Samster1010: for the latino croud, im cool cuxz im different and i also fit in
Samster1010: thats y i like it so much
Samster1010: for my fellow americans,
Samster1010: im the same as i was since kindergarden
Samster1010: nada
Samster1010: so
Samster1010: please
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah but fellow americans suck
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: truue
Samster1010: but
Samster1010: lik
Samster1010: e
Samster1010: u get my drift?
Samster1010: do u want a latino?!
Samster1010: yo can i hook u up
Samster1010: no i cant
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: but thats ok
grlLacrosseFreAk: rofl
Samster1010: well i decided
Samster1010: i dont want to be hooked up
Samster1010: so therefore
Samster1010: i probly shouldnt hook anybody up
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: i say
grlLacrosseFreAk: good thinking
Samster1010: we be each others wingmen in dominican
Samster1010: ahahhah
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: just for divertido though like nothing seriuos
Samster1010: cux long distance is bad
grlLacrosseFreAk: oh man dr here we come
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
Samster1010: hellls yeah

My life is so fucked up right now. It seems like im always around stress and problems. I want to get away. Im like really homesick for spain and my friends. I missssss them sooo much!!! Why am I so ugly? Why will i never have a boyfriend or somebody that i can really relate too. I feel like i can only tell certain friends certain things. I only try to be good and I get treated like crap. College stuff is soooo stressful and I feel left out. Why do people judge me for my looks? Why am I so self concious? I want a close relationship, im ready for it. But i dont want to burden anyone. I feel like by telling all my problems that i will have them concerned and put them down too. Just telling Sam about my spain experience evoked so many emotions out of me and I think it made Sam feel bad for me too. Its horrible. I just need somebody to tell me that its going to be okay. Everything is going to be okay. Just suck it up. You can deal with it. Because right now, I really cant deal with life. Im not happy. Even if it appears so, there is so much that the world doesnt know. My father is getting worse, im getting worse. I hate him because I want him to hate me but he wont. He just comes back in again with love. Not because he wants to but its because he forgets. He forgets that I just yelled at him and comes back in like nothing happened. All fueled up again. And its just like I CANT TAKE ANYMORE! i need out. I need to get my family and I away from here. If he doesnt care about himself how can I care for him? My SAT scores came back average and that was just the whipped cream on the cake. I felt sooo depressed that i didnt get better. American is looking for a lot higher than 1540. I am so screwed. I just can't understand how when i try so hard the world just throws more obstacles and stress into my life. Why? I'm a good kid. Why do I feel like crap? I just want to sit down and cry. Cry for hours. I don't have stability. I dont have confidence. I need to stop being a baby and stick it up. I hate wallowing in self pity. I wish i could just find someone to relate too. Someone who I can share my life story without burdening them and just feel like they are not judging me. I feel trapped.

I dont know if any of this makes any sense. Im kind of just opening my heart out.

-xox

soraya XOXO: explica!
grlLacrosseFreAk: oyyy
Auto response from soraya XOXO: jamaican me crazy.

soraya XOXO: porfaaaaaa
grlLacrosseFreAk: por que quieres saber?
soraya XOXO: porque estoy concerned jaj
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao
soraya XOXO: =]
soraya XOXO: dimeeeeee
soraya XOXO: rin3
soraya XOXO: fine*
grlLacrosseFreAk: well its complicated
grlLacrosseFreAk: and you know what, i should be used to it but im not
grlLacrosseFreAk: my life is always on the brink of collapsing
grlLacrosseFreAk: always
soraya XOXO: awe well let me help. im usually on that same verge always.
grlLacrosseFreAk: ok well number 1 and most prominent concern which evokes about 10 different emotions is that my father is drunk. He's not an abusive drunk but rather a forgetful dumb drunk. I've had enough of it. I really cant stand it anymore and there is nothing i can do. Where would our family go? i just cant stand it, honestly. He's revolting and i just hate him. I can't wait for college
grlLacrosseFreAk: then...
grlLacrosseFreAk: there's school
grlLacrosseFreAk: im always stressing...but it's like i always have to put up a front and im tired of it
grlLacrosseFreAk: i just wanna be me
soraya XOXO: is there anything else thats bothering you?
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah
grlLacrosseFreAk: and then there's like stress for college, a car, to get on with my life...to get away from here but i feel guilty because im leaving my bro and my mom to deal with my dad
grlLacrosseFreAk: and then like im so desperate for attention its sickening....i'll take anything....and like then at that teen night, i was homesick for Spain, i met some totally awsome ppl there who helped me thru all my hard times and now when i am having a hard time here, they are not here and...
soraya XOXO: andd..
grlLacrosseFreAk: like i remember one night at a bar in Spain i was so desperate for attention from a guy that i made out with one guy but i didnt tell him that i was leaving in like 2 weeks and i felt bad bc i think i led him on and then at the teen night when sam was dancing with eduardo, i didnt have anyone to dance with for a long time and they were all doing the grind and i just felt so ugly and unwanted, i wanted to cry, but then this latino guy came up to me and asked if i wanted to dance and now i feel bad cause i danced with him but i never got his name or i dont even know who he is and if was just dancing with me out of pity or because he thought i was pretty and grrr
grlLacrosseFreAk: just too many emotions
grlLacrosseFreAk: not enough michelle
grlLacrosseFreAk: r u happy now??
soraya XOXO: woah.
soraya XOXO: well
grlLacrosseFreAk: i told you it was stuff you didnt want to know
grlLacrosseFreAk: but noooo, soraya wants to know
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: im sorry
grlLacrosseFreAk: thanks
grlLacrosseFreAk: :-)
soraya XOXO: geez sorry michelle.. i didnt mean for it to be such a struggle for you to tell me.. i was just trying to help
grlLacrosseFreAk: no its fine
grlLacrosseFreAk: it actually helps, knowing that somebody else at least knows what generally goes on in my life
grlLacrosseFreAk: :-)
soraya XOXO: ok
soraya XOXO: so can i give my feedback?
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah
grlLacrosseFreAk: duh
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: ok
soraya XOXO: so first..
soraya XOXO: your dad.
soraya XOXO: well im sorry to hear that.. like my dad drinks.. and like im totally not close with him at all.. like idk i kinda dont really want to get involved.. and my uncle is a drunk practically and ifeel so bad for my aunt because she doesnt live here and she has no one to help her.. but like you cant really change a person, they are the way they are.. like and unfortunately we have to accept that.. like for example like my parents are getting divorced, and i have to learn to accept that, for the better for us all.. and like you just have to move on and concentrate on the good things in life..
soraya XOXO returned at 6:45:08 PM.
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah i know that but its like i accept it and accept it until i cant accept it anymore...
grlLacrosseFreAk: idk its always been a problem of mine
soraya XOXO: hmm yea i know have you takled to your mom about it?
grlLacrosseFreAk: of course lol and thats why ive accepted that i cant do anything about it...where can she go? we have no money, no house, and my moms irish, its not like she has family here, she's the only one
grlLacrosseFreAk: its like a lose-lose situation
grlLacrosseFreAk: he's holding her back
soraya XOXO: from?
grlLacrosseFreAk: from living her life and from living our lives...together happy
soraya XOXO: well you can.
soraya XOXO: but its not up to you
soraya XOXO: like in some way
soraya XOXO: but not entirelly
soraya XOXO: if your mother isnt happy in her life
soraya XOXO: she needs to make a change
grlLacrosseFreAk: but how?
soraya XOXO: and start maybe a new life
grlLacrosseFreAk: with what?
soraya XOXO: its gonna be hard.
soraya XOXO: but it wil all pay off at the end
grlLacrosseFreAk: the nonexistant money that we have? my father spends every spare nickel on alcohol
soraya XOXO: well then make a seperate acoount like if you rmom wants out
soraya XOXO: have him pay for his own stuff
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah we have that....see i would just get up one day and leave thats it but my mom is different...she obviously married him for some reason and its harder for her...we have no money, no house, nowhere to go, and i think she feels that she can't just leave her husband...he's in such bad shape...like a whole bunch of medical issues and stuff
grlLacrosseFreAk: idk
soraya XOXO: well yes thats true
soraya XOXO: but like
soraya XOXO: try to find him help
grlLacrosseFreAk: we've tried...it wont matter anyway cause the first step is admittance...he has to admit that he has a problem and he wont
soraya XOXO: then all you can do is stop trying
soraya XOXO: just you need to encourage your mom
soraya XOXO: to start a new life
soraya XOXO: and help her through it
soraya XOXO: does he work?
grlLacrosseFreAk: yep
grlLacrosseFreAk: but spends a lot of it on alcohol
grlLacrosseFreAk: and wont come home till 7:30 when he finishes work in North Sea at 5
soraya XOXO: im sorry =/
grlLacrosseFreAk: meh what can you do? just live with it....im almost outta here anyway
soraya XOXO: yesthats truee
grlLacrosseFreAk: anyway....:-( thats what my life is always like and most of the time i can deal with it but sometimes, something will happen, and then everything just goes down
soraya XOXO: yea i know
soraya XOXO: but its like
soraya XOXO: hard but yuo hjave to hang in there.
soraya XOXO: liek i was so going downhill
soraya XOXO: my life was like
soraya XOXO: dskjfhsdfjhs
soraya XOXO: but like
soraya XOXO: dk
soraya XOXO: idk*
soraya XOXO: i just looked for brighter days
soraya XOXO: and like i concentrated on the positive
soraya XOXO: because i have so many good things ni life
soraya XOXO: and so like
soraya XOXO: whats the point in being unhappy?
soraya XOXO: like it doesnt do anything good
grlLacrosseFreAk: exactly
soraya XOXO: so just live your life
soraya XOXO: and
grlLacrosseFreAk: thats what i normally think
soraya XOXO: enjoy every moment
soraya XOXO: because it goes by wayyy too fast.
grlLacrosseFreAk: yep
soraya XOXO: but yea its ahrd about spain
soraya XOXO: but like you have to make close friends
soraya XOXO: that are here
soraya XOXO: that can also
soraya XOXO: support you a
soraya XOXO: and be there for you.
soraya XOXO: and for guys
soraya XOXO: well all guys are dogs
soraya XOXO: hah
soraya XOXO: but like
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: i think you feel abd
soraya XOXO: because you like
soraya XOXO: kissed him
soraya XOXO: and poss like him
grlLacrosseFreAk: hes the one who like stalked me the entire night and like...finally he like took me outside and asked me who i was and i said i was american etc... but like i knew that i was going home in lik2 weeks and i knew i shouldnt have gone with him bc it wasnt going to last but i did
grlLacrosseFreAk: it was actually funny when it happened
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: my friends like didnt see me dissappear with him so like they went crazy looking for me
grlLacrosseFreAk: and when 1 finally found me they told my other friends and they were like taking turns spying on me behind the bar lol
soraya XOXO: haha awee
grlLacrosseFreAk: and then his friends were coming
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao
soraya XOXO: hah
soraya XOXO: it was funny
soraya XOXO: i hooked up
soraya XOXO: with
soraya XOXO: a guy
soraya XOXO: from spain
soraya XOXO: when i was ther
soraya XOXO: OMFG.
soraya XOXO: SO HOT.
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: LIKE EVERY
soraya XOXO: GIRL WANTED
soraya XOXO: HIM
soraya XOXO: his name was
grlLacrosseFreAk: IKNOW!!!
soraya XOXO: noel.
soraya XOXO: hahah
soraya XOXO: sooooooo good.
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: btu then i found out he smokes
soraya XOXO: hah
soraya XOXO: so i was like
soraya XOXO: uhh thanks
soraya XOXO: but i h/u with him twice
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah they all smoke there
soraya XOXO: yeaa =/
grlLacrosseFreAk: like they start wehn they are 11
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: its pretty bad.
soraya XOXO: liek this kid was 9
soraya XOXO: 8*
soraya XOXO: and smoking
grlLacrosseFreAk: yeah
grlLacrosseFreAk: but so like when that same kinda scenario happened at the teen night i kinda was like, "ooh" and remembered Tote (that was his name lol it was his nickname actually) and then like idk i just had a mini breakdown
grlLacrosseFreAk: idk
soraya XOXO: awe
soraya XOXO: im sry
soraya XOXO: but it was just a one night thing
soraya XOXO: its hard
soraya XOXO: but we gotta face it =/
grlLacrosseFreAk: yep
grlLacrosseFreAk: and like my friends in spain told me he was looking for me for a couple of weekends afterwards lol i felt bad
soraya XOXO: awe
soraya XOXO: =]
soraya XOXO: woo!
soraya XOXO: hah
grlLacrosseFreAk: i did it!
soraya XOXO: hah
grlLacrosseFreAk: i sent it to 10
soraya XOXO: niceee
soraya XOXO: btw
soraya XOXO: whos ur crush?!
soraya XOXO: =]
grlLacrosseFreAk: my crush??
soraya XOXO: ouiio
soraya XOXO: oui*
grlLacrosseFreAk: oui?
soraya XOXO: oui-yes in french
soraya XOXO: dur dur
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao
soraya XOXO: =]
grlLacrosseFreAk: mabe its that random latino lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: rofl
soraya XOXO: haha
soraya XOXO: awe
soraya XOXO: when's the next teen night
soraya XOXO: ?
grlLacrosseFreAk: dunno
soraya XOXO: lol
soraya XOXO: i wana go
soraya XOXO: hah!
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao
grlLacrosseFreAk: its akward at first...well not for sam cause she freakin knows like every spanish kid in our grade
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
grlLacrosseFreAk: *school
soraya XOXO: lol
soraya XOXO: yea well its not that awkward for me
soraya XOXO: hah in australia
soraya XOXO: i was like
soraya XOXO: dancing all night with this
soraya XOXO: guy
soraya XOXO: but when the lights turned on
soraya XOXO: I STOPPED.
soraya XOXO: =]
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao!
soraya XOXO: =]
grlLacrosseFreAk: playa!
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: woo!
grlLacrosseFreAk: lmao
soraya XOXO: =]\
soraya XOXO: cheers!
grlLacrosseFreAk: right o
grlLacrosseFreAk: lol
soraya XOXO: lol

Hey, I am alive. I am in spain having the time of my life. Don´t really feel like writing this everyday because i have an actual journal that I write in. For now, I will let you all know that I am fine and Obanos is absolutely stunning. You should be jealous.

-xox

This might be my last journal entry for a while. I dont know how the computer access over there is set up so who knows. Tonight I am packing like crazy!! I am kind of worried that I am not nervous. I think mom will have a nervous breakdown at the airport. I saw my baby for the last time tonight. That was kind of depressing. Otherwise, I am so ready for this trip. Bring it on!

-xox

3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!

FOR: MCGAY/MICHELLE



14 SEP 06 - THURSDAY
AIR LUFTHANSA FLT:401 ECONOMY MEALS
LV NEW YORK JFK 500P EQP: BOEING 747
DEPART: TERMINAL 1 07HR 10MIN

15 SEP 06 - FRIDAY
AR FRANKFURT 610A NON-STOP
ARRIVE: TERMINAL 1
AIR LUFTHANSA FLT:4410 ECONOMY REFRSHMNT/COMP
LV FRANKFURT 915A EQP: AIRBUS A321-200
DEPART: TERMINAL 1 02HR 25MIN
AR MADRID 1140A NON-STOP
ARRIVE: TERMINAL 1

I leave on Thursday. Not Wednesday.



17 SEP 06 - SUNDAY
AIR IBERIA FLT:382 BUSINESS SNACK
LV MADRID 440P EQP: MD-88
DEPART: TERMINAL 4 55MIN
AR PAMPLONA 535P NON-STOP
REF: 2WXJUK
MCGAY/MICHELLE SEAT-4F

23 JUL 07 - MONDAY
AIR LUFTHANSA FLT:4417 ECONOMY REFRSHMNT/COMP
LV MADRID 615A EQP: AIRBUS A321-200
DEPART: TERMINAL 1 02HR 40MIN
AR FRANKFURT 855A NON-STOP
ARRIVE: TERMINAL 1
AIR LUFTHANSA FLT:400 ECONOMY MEALS
LV FRANKFURT 1000A EQP: BOEING 747
DEPART: TERMINAL 1 08HR 10MIN
AR NEW YORK JFK 1210P NON-STOP
ARRIVE: TERMINAL 1


-xox

LEAVING WEDNESDAY SEPTEMBER 13th!!

-xox

We freakin went to the double header mets game today and stayed in the diamond suite!! It was so fun. They had steak, and giant pretzels, and open bar. I even took a picture with Mr. Met haha because im so cool you know. Tomorrow I am going to the city to get my visa and do some shopping!!

-xox

Hey so a lot is going on in my life right now. I start school in Spain in 10 days and I leave in less than that. I will find out the exact date tomorrow. Right now Amy invited me to her birthday party tomorrow so i guess i will go. Then she invited me to a Mets game on Wednesday. Then on Thursday we are going to get my visa in the city and get some fun shopping done at Laila Rowe and Urban Outfitters and what not. Then Friday I am spending the whole day at Cedar Point to do the things that I have never done because i work there too much. This includes kayaking with Debbie and going out to the lighthouse on the gator. I can't believe that I am actually going to go through with this. I am leaving for 10 months.

-xox

I lied about a real update later. I'm to tired and lazy. Nothing much is going on. Have to work at 1 today. 22 days till I start school in Spain.

-xox

Day off tomorrow yay! Been really busy. Update later.

-xox

My life has been so chaotic lately its scary. For all of you who don't know what I do in the summer this is for you.

Every summer our family is forced to move out of our house. You see, we rent our house but our landlord comes in the summer from Scotland so we are forced to move out. So what do we do?? My mother but a trailer/rv 4 years ago. Every summer we take all of our belongings and put them into a storage unit. Some stuff we take with us camping. We spend 6 weeks in Cedar Point Park in East Hampton, where I work. My mother and father also have part time jobs there as well. I basically live and work in the park for the 2 months of summer. It stinks really bad because i have no computer or television. Nobody comes and visits me because the park is so far away and I can never get to Southampton. After the summer, our family moves back into our house for the winter.

Now that you know this, you can understand how my life is so chaotic. With me going away and what not my life has just been upside down. I have e-mails up the ying yang that I have still to respond too. Then I have the task of organizing my time. Then I have work. I work so many hours its against the law. That's why I'm off the books. I make 10 dollars an hour and I work 6 days a week, 9 hour days. Sometimes more, sometimes less. My one day off is always hectic considering I have a lot of things to do and I never have time to go home. Sometimes I am just screwed and can't do anything on my day off because my parents work the days i am off.

I had my first manicure the other day. I hate the color.

Went to open volleyball this morning because my boss gave me an unexpected day off. Now my legs hurt.

-xox

I am alive. Barely.

-xox

I was in a photogenic mood

















I know im self centered by doing this haha.

-xox

Guarantee FORM HAS ARRIVED!!! yay yay, I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO SPAIN!!!! the name of my school is Zizur Mayor. YAY!

-xox

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So apparently my host family called my house today while I was at work. My mom answered the phone and omg what a way to start my new life in Spain. My mom thinks she can speak spanish but she cant. She probably wound up saying something like "Michelle is at home and does't want to talk" haha oh man that would be bad. Then my brother tried his shot on the phone and apparently that wasn't successful. They did however manage to get their phone number. My host sister never responded to my email so I dont know. I'm going to call them in the morning because they are 5 or 6 hours ahead and I have to be in work at 8.

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YAY! NEW LAYOUT!!! Thanks mystik00769. Mary Poppins is my favorite movie!

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