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I like myself a lot. I'm honest. I am a good listener. I seem to give good advice for the most part. I try to empathize when I can. I'm fiercely protective of those I care about. I'm blunt. I believe in "tough love" when the situation calls for it. I can be very stern and unyielding, even to those I love dearly. I talk a lot. I talk FAST. I honestly believe half the things I talk about are entirely uninteresting but everyone claims otherwise. I love to tell stupid stories about my day. I plan a lot of the stories I tell ahead, so they're worded in the funniest way possible. Most of the time, though, I don't think before I talk. I end up saying stupid things. Often I have to backpedal and assure the person I'm talking to I didn't mean whatever I said in the way it sounded, I'm just an idiot who has no foresight. I pout. I cry very easily at sappy movies or heartwarming commercials. Puppies will melt me into a puddle of useless goo. I take everything personally. I hate shopping. I do, however, like new things. I love fantasy. I don't like things that are "for show." I'm terrible with money because I hate looking for the "best deal." As soon as I have money, I spend it, unless I seriously do need to put it elsewhere. I am the sort of girl who will buy something that's near the register if I'm waiting on line too long. I am obsessed with new underwear and handbags. I still can't justify owning a $300 purse, though. Even as a gift. I believe in being happy with what you've got. I'm strangely intelligent. I forget everything but sometimes remember the smallest most insignificant details ever. I'd like to think I'm pretty damn funny. I find humor in everything. I consider it my best self defense mechanism and the way I get through life. I love sarcasm. I'm also extremely clumsy. Walking and holding things generally doesn't work out. I don't dance. I'm bad with music anyway. I still sing and dance when I'm home alone. I'm vain enough to fish for compliments. I don't believe a lot of the compliments. I touch my hair and my face when I talk, even though I spend almost forty minutes on both when I go out. Despite my concern with my appearance I rarely look alive for work. I love to read and write. I like words. I love keeping journals. I love talking online; usually more than talking on the phone. I like romantic comedies. I will watch movies I like over and over again. I like repeats on TV. I reread novels. I'm obsessed with vampires and werewolves. I have an insane amount of dog trivia stored in my brain. I love staring at people. I have a bad tendency to stare. When I am in a sour mood, I let snarky little comments slip on purpose. I'm moody. I go from happy to annoyed easily. I blame my astrological sign (Cancer). I'm nurturing, as well, on that note. I like to take care of people. I like feeling like I have a purpose. I hate being inconsequential to anyone. I collect foxes. I have too many books. I try to clean my room often but I never seem to find the time. I spend hours a week on my computer. I think I'd die without it. I love making fun of things in good spirit. I have an unending list of pet peeves but I try not to let everything bother me so much. As I am getting older, I am getting more feminine. I'm extremely mature for my age. I think that's mostly due to my extremely fxcked up childhood. I wouldn't change a thing about my past. I believe people grow closer through tragedy rather than through laughter. I recuperate well. I am usually in control of my environment. I do not allow people who like to control others around me. I am a leader of sorts. I love 80's pop. My taste in music, movies, and books isn't really that eclectic. I'm not really very unique. I daydream a lot. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe things work out for the best. I'm less innocent than I come off. I honestly do care if people dislike me for no good reason, but I get over it very quickly. I would rather be disliked than unnoticed. I spend a lot of time thinking about who I am as a person.

I consider myself a walking contradiction. I get annoyed when people complain a lot, but that doesn't mean I don't complain. I consider myself pretty independent, yet I seem to always be asking for help. I'm not boring, but I'll usually rather stay in and watch TV then go out. I don't like it when people just disappear and never tell anyone what's wrong but I have a tendency of retreating when I feel too overwhelmed myself. I don't like being rushed, but I'm constantly rushing myself and others anyway. Some days I am the most patient person you could ever meet, and other days I'm incredibly impatient. I hate when people reply "nothing" when something is obviously wrong and I ask them what it is, but sometimes I find myself giving the same reply because I feel whatever is bothering me isn't really that important. I don't like going to bed but I hate getting up in the morning. I think I'm generally intelligent, but sometimes I'm a complete airhead. I remember what I was wearing one evening months ago, but if you tell me to do something on Monday I'll forget by Wednesday. I've been told I am an atypical girl because I'm honest, straightforward, and rational. I'm a typical girl because I'm slightly obsessed with makeup, hair, and house furniture. Mess and clutter bothers me but I'm totally guilty of it from time to time. I believe in doing the right thing all the time but for whatever reason I can't always do the right thing. I hate confrontation yet I know how to argue. I'm frightening when angered but I feel guilty immediately afterwards. I like feeling needed, but needy people get under my skin incredibly fast. I claim to put myself first but really, I don't unless sanity or health demands it. I consider myself optimistic but I'm really cynical a lot of the time. I love being teased by people I like, but I can get offended pretty easily. I like being the center of attention but hate people fawning over me. I claim to know what I'm doing but I don't always. >>;

I believe people mean well for the most part. I expect more out of people than I should. I end up being disappointed often. It takes a lot of pain and time for me to finally give up on someone. People who blow hot one second and cold the next bother me more than people who are habitually cheery or habitually snappy. I think a lot of people have stopped trying to know themselves and have therefore become people they wouldn't necessarily like if they took the time to see their true reflection. I think truly nice and good people are discouraged by others and by the environment and that's sad. I respect people who don't feel the need to brag about their accomplishments or lament their failures. I like people who can "see the light." I really do think some people just need a hug and a kiss. I think a lot of people don't necessarily mean to be as selfish as they appear to be. I do believe a lot of people just want a hug and a kiss. I don't like people who have to know a little bit about everything and need to share that knowledge all the time with everyone. I don't like people who have to point out their good traits in an attempt people won't focus on their bad ones. I like people who can always find the humor in life. I like people who laugh at everything. I like people who never let on how much they understand. I like people who make it clear to you that they like you for a reason. I think people can generally be separated into groups of "Trying To Act Smart," "Smart," and "Trying to Act Dumb." I like people who try their best even if their best isn't that great. I think it's really great when people are unafraid of making funny faces at babies, dancing in public, or laughing really, really loud.