fuck

i guess it was too good to be true, anyway. all the music i've loved for the past 3 years in one place. way too good to be true. i'll be spending what could have been the best 4 days ever at home, fucking home alone and sitting on my ass. i should have expected that shit. damn it. i've been looking forward to bonnaroo for 5 months. i know it's a stupid thing to dwell on, but im really bummed out about this. like, i love the seeing live music. it overwhelms me. it makes me so happy. and i know for the next couple of days im just gonna be thinking about where i could have been if my parents would let me go.
fuck, fuck, fuck. im so fucking bummed out about this. i would try to brush it off and be like "i guess i can still have fun here" but right now my attitude sucks because i got my hopes up. never again.
fuck.