User Profile

IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THE WAY I LOOK AT YOU:

Oh great, here I go again I'm stuck in this rut and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything? Why do I always believe, that I'm in love with everyone I see? And, why did the next one have to be you? It's rock paper scissors to whether I am getting over you at all.

THIS PLANE IS DEFINATELY CRASHING.

Why does my heart always beat before yours does? Questions of science, science and progress, do not speak as loud as my heart. When you said you loved me I knew I was getting fucked. you said you'd never let go-all that stopped.. you used to turn me on, now we're just getting off. that's why I'm leaving you. In the motions and the things that you say, it all will fall, fall right into place. Doesn't it kill you too? Sometimes when you realize that you've spoken too soon or fallen so quickly. Oh, you are the roots that sleep beneath my feet and hold the earth in place. After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything, so I'm making myself believe in you. You don't know how lovely you are. And you'll say you don't want to be with me 'cause no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way. And it's not fair-why do I have to be so? Oh I feel everything much more-much more than you ever will. when i say you sucked my brain out the english translation is I am in love with you, and it's no fun. But i don't use words like love 'cuz words like that don't matter. But don't look so offended, you know, you should be flattered. You give me that look that's like laughing with liquid in your mouth.. Can I call you sweetheart.. or even babydoll.. Fuck you and your untouchable face, fuck you for existing in the first place. I dont care who you've been sleeping with these days, you're outta my hair-it's growing just above my smiling face that I wear every night I drink myself to sleep, not thinking about you.. not thinking about anything at all. Love is like falling, and falling is like this. And it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye so I can't send you messages.

THIS BOAT IS OBVIOUSLY SINKING.

You can cross the line whenever you want to, but I'm calling it love soon. L-O-V-E, love. You came to me like a dream, the kind that always leaves just as the best part starts. And at night, I dream of reasons that I can't let you go, but I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls so thick that I can't see past you. I know I should hate you but I cant replace you in my heart. Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed and I wanna crawl in with you, but I cry instead. I want your warm but it will only make me colder when it's over. Love is blind... love is a lie! The strands in your eyes-color them wonderful-stop me, and steal my breath. Why am I so pathetic? Don't get it why you won't return my calls.. and I'm hoping that I might upset you by saying what I want to 'cause it's not like you don't know I've fallen for you. Look at the stars.. Look how they shine for you.. How do you do it; make me feel like I do? This world's an ugly place.. but you're so beautiful to me. I sit around and think about how alone I feel, then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness because it's the comfort of being sad- sometimes it feels so right. You rhapsodize about beauty, and my eyes glaze. Everything i love is ugly. I mean really, you would be amazed. Just do me a favor; it's the least you can do. Just don't treat me like i am something that happened to you.

THIS BUILDING'S TOTALLY BURNING DOWN.

In this life like weeds, you're just a rock to me. When do I get to wake up to you? I am thinking its a sign that the freckles and our eyes are mirror images, and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. And I.. have to speculate.. that god himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay. And true, it may seem like a stretch but it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away; when I am missing you to death. I'm dying just to taste your lips. I just want you to know that every pool of water reminds me of you.. Is that all right? But it would be all right If we could see each other sometime.. If I could somehow make you mine? Somewhere under water maybe you could find my heart 'cause that's where I threw it after you had torn it out. There's something about the look in your eyes-something I notice when the light was just right. Reminded me twice that I was alive; and it reminded me that you're so worth the fight. Hunger hurts, and I want him, so bad, oh it kills. Cuz I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up. I've got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold. Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love. Christ it hurts. Like stars in my belly going supernova. I feel like a zombie that refuses to live. Haunting the junkyards and cutting myself on scraps of you. Do you know what I love the most? Even suburbs would be o.k. with you between my sheets. Oh well, you've got me under your spell and I don't think that I'm kidding around. I don't think I can forget you now. I look you in the eyes; I try to read you thoughts. Your voice like the sound of sirens to a house on fire; you're saving me. And I miss you when you're around. And all you want from me is a broken heart. I'd have to walk a thousand miles to find the ground deserving of your feet. I wanna wake up naked next to you, kissing the curve in your clavicle. Well here I am. I don't know how to say this. The only thing I know is awkward silence. Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.

AND MY HEART IS SLOWLY DRIED UP.

Friends (12):

Friend of (8):