Sarah Conrad

___hatehatehate @ 2007-11-30T17:16:00

2007-11-30T22:15:51Z

I work at armani now.. I'm exciteedddd

___hatehatehate @ 2007-10-16T10:34:00

2007-10-16T14:35:26Z

my girlfriend's best friend really liked me, when she realized she can't have me she is trying to break us up. it's pretty sweet. but I love nicole she's the bestttt
school is good
yeahhh bye :]

___hatehatehate @ 2007-09-20T14:33:00

2007-09-20T18:35:04Z

idk if you didn't get the memo but kohl's & target aren't couture.

___hatehatehate @ 2007-09-06T12:43:00

2007-09-06T16:43:53Z

nicole is the best thing thats ever happened to me<3

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-16T11:43:00

2007-08-16T16:19:53Z

I've been trying to get together the tattoo's I want and really think about it because I dont want to regret them. I want to get the world "alive" on my right wrist to remind myself that I'm alive and that I should be greatful for everything that I have because alot of the time I'm so fucking selfish. Or liebe meaning "love" in german [my grandmother is from Germany] OR The serenity prayer on my ribs which freaked me out seeing that was on my grandmothers prayer card the serenity prayer is also spoken to open and close a NA/AA meeting. Advice on what I should get would be amazing :]

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what real love looks like<3

she's got a way about her...

Me, MIM & Kim<3

Me & Nicole!!!<3

ballinnnnn'

I like most of the picture. except the ugly bobble headed bitch in the white tank top who had to ruffy me to have sex with me lolz. fucking cunt.

MIM & nicole are badass<3

we're redic.

best friends!

pirates in love.

5am.

SLEEPOVERS<3

VOODOO HOUSE!

fire island with the hotties<33

okay so this was written about me because apparently when I changed my bathing suit in the parking lot I didn't cover up all the way ;

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-09T09:29:00

2007-08-09T13:37:54Z

last night was really bad.
I was really upset and I drank. alot.
I scared nicole and thank GOD no one let me drive
I am a miserable bitch. I miss my grandma
and pretty much hate the world.
I'll be okay.

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-08T16:29:00

2007-08-08T20:38:30Z

my grandma died this morning.
I can't explain how I feel.
I didn't want to talk/see my girlfriend or my friends.
I wanted to see melissa. so I did and I'm happy I did.
As much as I bitch about her I miss her and sometimes I'm jealous so I talk about how she's a piece of shit but she is there for me when I need someone and nicole doesn't know my family and grandma like melissa does. I'm thankful melissa and I can put aside our bitchiness and be there for each other :/
My grandma asked about melissa constantly even though I'd tell her we broke up she'd STILL ask pretty much EVERYTIME I saw her :/

I need to go to the beach and sit there and write music.
thats what always calmed me I miss danny we need to start up the band again lol it was cool

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-07T11:31:00

2007-08-07T15:59:08Z

Last night I'm at a bar in East Islip with my friends and the owner of the bar came up to me AND ME thinking he's going to ID me is like do you have a job? and I'm like ughh yeah two.. why? and he's like do you want to bartend here? and I was like fuck yeah and he's like okay and I'm like well I don't have my license and he's like can you make drinks and I'm like yeah of course and he's like okay good your cute and you can make drinks your hired I was like FLIPPIN SWEEEEEEEET<3

so being cute goes a long way.
I miss my girlfriend but I'll see her later<3
I'm taking her to see the mets play even though I hate them and love the yankee's I am THE best girlfriend in the world<3

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-04T17:49:00

2007-08-04T21:50:23Z

This morning I woke up next to my beautiful girlfriend.
It was incredible...

___hatehatehate @ 2007-08-03T08:49:00

2007-08-03T12:53:41Z

theres a situation thats taking place at the moment thats making me sick to my stomach and I feel like helping someone before it's too late but obviously they won't believe me and last time this situation occured I held my tounge and I was so fucking right.
Anyways, nicole is amazing I love waking up with her on the beach and cuddling and ugh were in love and it's pretty damn sweet.
& I'm done trying to see people who dont answer my texts or calls and then a month later will be like OMG I MISS YOU. HEYYYYY eat it.
my grandma and uncle are BOTH dying I dont want to talk about it.
I'm bitter all the time except when I'm with nicole.. it's crazy how she makes me feel<3

___hatehatehate @ 2007-07-28T03:49:00

2007-07-28T07:50:09Z

now I know what AMAZING sex feels like.
I've apparently been missing it my whole life.
Nicole is the best girlfriend I could ever ask for.
I have 584758943598 pictures. I will post them eventually..

___hatehatehate @ 2007-07-11T13:23:00

2007-07-11T19:27:05Z

My cruise was incredible wow.
what happens in mexico STAYS in mexico<3
but I tbhought about nicole 24/7
I got presents for a few people not many people mean shit to me so if you get something you're important to me..<3
when I get back to new york I'm uploading my pictures and posting them they are insane I'm taking nicole to mexico and ugh she's so beautifujl and so is mexico okay bye<3hfgjkdfhgjkgh df

I'm broke and I maxed out my credit card and my mom is mad cause she's paying for it I'm getting a new car maybe a mercedes if I keep doing well hehe byebfhjgfjhgfz<33

I lover you all.

___hatehatehate @ 2007-07-04T22:00:00

2007-07-05T04:16:06Z

I left for pensacola beach florida the 1st :] I've had an amazing time ugh so many beautiful blondes<3jhfkjgh Tomorrow I'm leaving for cozumel mexico to surf and surf and more surfing. I've been talking to nicole and ugh she's pretty incredible I can't wait to come home and kiss and hold her oh man. I'm in mexico for a week then leaving and coming back to pensacola beach to surf the waves here and hang out with family. My family hates the fact that I'm gay but we just dont speak of it. This girl is like all up in my head and it's crazy ahhhh jkfhgk <33 anyways I'm getting presents for nicole and rachel and um thats about it. Because they're good people and I really miss them :/ I'm in alot of pain ugh root canals are pretty dope so I'm vicoden right now and a little loooopy ;]
I wish nicole was here I'm freezing but under all the blankies ugh I miss her beautiful face and cute lipsssss omggg<3
fire works were amazing I wanted to be under them with her<3
ew I've been thinking about melissa lately.. as much as I dont want to ever think of her again unless I randomly see her but we had some good times and I miss the stupid things she'd do like silly faces and acting like a retard yeah I miss that whatever sometimes I wish we could get back together but I nkow things will never ever be the sameeeee
oh I stopped drinking I ended up fucking some girl and not knowing where I was lolzzzzz and not remembering anything? apparently I'm amazing in bed psh I ownn at life<3
I have mad pictures from pride and soon to be mexico/florida<33hgfjkghf
I love a few of you and miss alot of you and can't stand some of you and I dont know why you all stalk my shit?
whateverr I'm waking up early for mexico nighttttt<443343

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-26T18:27:00

2007-06-26T22:36:53Z

rip cody :/
2 car accidents
beach
PRIDE PARADE<3hfkhgdfkjh!
bowling
cancun in 4 days<3
bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks
tanning

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-18T10:58:00

2007-06-18T14:56:46Z

boobz x3 (10:55:27 AM): I ran over a guy on a motorcycle!
SteveeJahn (10:54:45 AM): omg
SteveeJahn (10:54:49 AM): how was he\]
boobz x3 (10:56:48 AM): he went to the hospital
boobz x3 (10:56:52 AM): that fucker was finee
SteveeJahn (10:55:16 AM): lol i want a bike but im scared of people like you

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___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-18T10:46:00

2007-06-18T14:46:27Z

I got into a car accident :/
& I'm in this weird funky love triangle.
I hate when girls fight over me hehehehhehehehhe!
I still love dani even when she pees on me :]
wow kristine and dani are def my number one niggas

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-14T10:23:00

2007-06-14T14:22:27Z

I like Kay, she's pretty lovely<3

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-12T01:06:00

2007-06-12T05:16:51Z

Pride was pretty amazing,
except when this mentally unstable girl who belongs in a straight jacket randomly screamed shit to me and bumped into me just to touch me again ;];] eat your heart out kiddo I'm so over you and everything your about which all in all doesn't impress me anymore.
I'm kinda sad I didn't hang out with everyone but everywhere they were psycho would follow.
I'll make it up to you guys I love you guys and you know that :]
I hung out with dani, kristine and jeff the WHOLE time<3 I love them we went bar/club hopping til like midnight we went to zen where I met mad cutiesss<3 then I dropped off kristine and dani & jeff and I went around huntington village looking for bitches and beer and boys [for jeff] we hung out at Christophers with his friends who were amazing <3

Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
She tastes like you only sweeter<3333

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-07T09:23:00

2007-06-07T13:23:27Z

so she comes to my job and is disrespectful to me, sweet.
Why can't she just grow up? This really blows my mind.
Being that I did nothing wrong to her.

well I'm seeing rachel, nicole, jacka and bridgette tonight so I'm happy now :]

___hatehatehate @ 2007-06-05T09:17:00

2007-06-05T13:17:11Z

I'm absolutely loving life right now and it couldn't get any better
I got my first assignment and am starting my first step soon

sheena told me last night she believes in me...
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___hatehatehate @ 2007-05-31T10:37:00

2007-05-31T14:40:18Z

As of last night I believe in love at first sight<3
I met this girl and she's soooooo beautiful<3
she's a drummer for a kick ass hardcore band and she wears armani and she makes cute faces and drinks the same drink I do<3
I'm exciteddddd bridgette is coming with me to see her next showww!!
wow yeah hollister called me begging me to come in ugh suck it bye.

OH NICOLE RACHEL AND BRIDGETTE are my favorites<3 JUST so you know.

___hatehatehate @ 2007-05-31T03:21:00

2007-05-31T07:21:07Z

I held you close as we both shook for the
last time take a good hard look.

reality check? I think so.

2007-05-29T04:24:10Z

For most of my life I focused on trying to fit in, striving to be in societies terms as "cool". I did everything and anything for people to like me. I've come to realize that when I transfer and leave hopefully for good I won't speak to really anyone anymore, yeah myspace comment every other month? Thats a real scary feeling. I feel I've enjoyed all the state of New York has got to offer me and I'm not impressed and I need something new. A fresh start with plenty of new faces. I have yet to decide where I'd like to transfer but I definitely have a few semesters to really focus on that. I'm also really suprised with myself I've grown up a ridiculous amount the last 2 years. High school for me was a big joke, never went to classes & when my butt was in the seat I'd barely even pay attention. After graduating [entering in the "real world"] & losing melissa; was a major reality check. I basically had NO one being that I made Melissa my life. Realizing this I busted my ass during the semester and managed to maintain straight A's! Going from barely passing my senior year, losing the only thing that made me happy thinking my life was worthless to being on cloud nine; all because I paid attention in school &strived to better MYSELF! the benefits are overflowing. I just got my second job and I love it. I love being busy and making money! I used to spend all my money on other people, not anymore! I'm still taking diet pills but not as many as I usually do. I feel beautiful for once.. however my mother told me "I hope it's not windy today because you'll definitely blow away" whatever. This girl's been talking about me to people and obviously cannot carry a conversation without talking about other people because she has no personality what so ever. I've been really weird lately probably because I have my period.. I've been crying a lot haha it's pretty lame cause I'm such a badass and all haha =]

how has everyone else been?

___hatehatehate @ 2007-05-28T21:47:00

2007-05-29T01:50:02Z

I miss julie,
she was the best girlfriend
I miss her so so muchhhh
16 of working straight. shoot me.
I have my period which I never get
and I'm in pain it sucks so much
madd shoppping at aberr<3
next week when I get my check; armani with melllll<3

um maroon 5's new cd is amazing.

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well

And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you

___hatehatehate @ 2007-05-26T20:38:00

2007-05-27T00:38:29Z

"So in the end, was it worth it? Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last days of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in. I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by when they're busy making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost barely enough to stay alive.But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door."

-blow