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jumping on the bandwagon.
made a tumblr.
aubreyross.tumblr.com
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[07 Nov 2008|12:48pm] |
I hate how stressful school is. This semester itself has not been bad at ALL by any means.. but next semester, even just getting the classes I want.. is making me freak out a little.
For once I have an A in math. I am shocked. Who woulda thought..
But as for next semester, I am so annoyed that my advisor has yet to get back to me so I can't sign up for classes yet.. and all the classes I wanted are FULL. I am so pissed beyond all means. I'm going to be a senior, this is crap. My parents are paying for me to take shitty classes that I have no interest in whatsoever.
As far as grad school goes.. I am planning on PROBABLY, as of right now, applying for Eastern's grad school program for secondary teaching. It's the Master of Science and teaching certification combined, since I apparently found out too late that I could have gotten my teaching certificate as an undergrad.
I hate how information is so hard to figure out.
If only I can get a hold of my advisor, talk to the education department and graduate program people, and figure the rest of this shit out..
Then I'll be good.
Ughhhhhh.
Why can't some stuff just be easy.
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[25 Apr 2008|01:14pm] |
I'm getting a 6 month old pug puppy.
Alex and I decided to call her Emma.. Lady Emma Wrinkleton in full.
She comes home with me Wednesday.
I am soooo excited!
And yes, I already bought her clothes to wear.
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[24 Feb 2008|12:39pm] |
I've begun feeling like everything has been too good lately to be true.
It's strange to shift from years of constant unhappiness to continuous happiness.. it doesn't feel normal.
I hope I'm wrong about this.
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[17 Jan 2008|12:44pm] |
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I can't help but feel like I've wasted time on people who were not good for me.
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[04 Jan 2008|10:38am] |
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Goodbye shitty 2007, worst year ever.
Welcome 2008, praying it's better than the last.
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| Christmas |
[25 Dec 2007|03:21pm] |
I love Christmas. I love buying gifts for the people I care about and I love getting excited for the holiday. It gives me something to look forward to every winter when I know I'm on the verge of depression and a long, cold, dark 3 months ahead.
I got a really cute dress for New Year's Eve and matching jewelry. I'm so excited; it's going to be so much fun.
And today I was totally surprised with what I got. I wasn't expecting to have a big Christmas this year because my parents kept stressing that money was tight and etc. but I got Planet Earth, Shark Week 20th Anniversary, and all 3 seasons of the Office on DVD. I also got a ton of gift cards which is great cause I really need to get some new clothes for myself. I got a GPS system for my car so I will not need MapQuest anymore, I got a bunch of awesome little stuff and the cell phone I wanted, and I got a brand new Dell lap top! Not expecting that AT ALL. My dad said he figured I'll need it for next semester when I'm stuck at Eastern all day 2 days a week. And since I want to go abroad next semester it will come in serious use.
Hope everyone has an awesome Christmas!!
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[16 Dec 2007|07:11pm] |
My life is sorting itself out, slowly, but at least it's starting to work out.
And it feels nice.
I picked out my classes at Eastern for the spring. I'll go 2 days week.
HALLIE'S BACK!!!
Which means.. a whole month of ridiculous adventures. :D
And I want to go to England with Hallie for a week in May.
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| fuck black friday. |
[23 Nov 2007|12:34pm] |
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i think that unless dire need called for it, i would not brave the crowds of people at 3 in the fucking morning just to hit up the 'black friday' sales.
i like my sleep and not having to deal with crazy moms and cranky dads, thanks.
but i DO have a 10 page history paper to write and i don't really feel like doing it today. then again i always wait 'til the last minute possible to do it. i work better under pressure anyways.
and somehow i have managed to not spend a ton of money lately and i have more than $350 to my name. usually i'm scrambling to keep $40 in there. which meeeeans serious christmas shopping will be happening soon. i'm already done with two people so i only have a few left.
maybe i can actually afford to get my arm finished or get my feet started in december..
OR i'll have extra money to go to newport and NYC with! that makes me a happy girl.
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| the hind sight bias sucks. |
[20 Nov 2007|08:39pm] |
i wish life could go back to the way it was 2 years ago.
it was so much less complicated.
and i had been through so much less shit.
if only i'd known then what i know now.
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[10 Nov 2007|08:39pm] |
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I feel like I'm heading toward dead ends in every direction.
I fucking hate this.
Commence the drowning feeling.
And repeat the 'I don't know what to do with myself' feeling.
Fuck this.
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[05 Oct 2007|10:55pm] |
and you'll choke on those words, no one can swallow that much pride
and my contentions all ring true, every word you said was a lie.
and i thought we were friends but you changed that in time
you're too caught up in the trends and your ego's on the line.
you played the role until i called you out and i really hope you listened,
i really hope you change things this time.
don't feed me that line.
i'm waiting for something that you'll never give..
never again.
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[02 Oct 2007|05:26pm] |
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It's like I'm in fucking high school all over again.
People need to grow up.
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[22 Sep 2007|03:07pm] |
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I regret not packing up my shit and just moving to Boston to live with Megan.
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[09 Sep 2007|11:05pm] |
It's awesome having pretty much your whole life fall apart in a matter of months.
And it's funny who you come to trust, only to find out they're no better.
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[02 Sep 2007|09:27pm] |
I'm starting to think it's possible to just go numb when it comes to things that used to make me sad.
I think I've just dealt with so much crap for so long and that I'm so sick of feeling terrible that I'm beginning to block out the bad things and I'm just trying to hold onto the good things for as long as I can.
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[01 Sep 2007|03:30pm] |
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It's funny that I get called a liar and accused of things but then everyone else just sits around and talks shit and half of it's not true or just things they've heard or they deny that they did or did not do/say some things. Half of it's straight up hypocrisy.
It's all just funny to me now because I don't care anymore. I admitted my wrong doings. I've realized how pathetic the whole situation got to be and I've washed my hands of it completely.
I honestly don't care about almost anyone around here anymore. Save for a handful of people I saw last night and a few others, I just don't. It's high school all over again and it's so ridiculous.
Boston, January, I opened up a savings account today so I can start saving up every week.
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[29 Aug 2007|08:03pm] |
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It's ridiculous how every aspect of my life is scrutinized and then turned into some form of a rumor. Half of them are so pathetic that they are becoming funny.
On the other hand, Maria and I discussed the whole moving deal. January is the set date, and if I can save up $100 per pay period, I'll have $900 ready to move with. My parents and her mom are going to provide us with furniture and probably extra money as well.
I've done a few thorough job searches and apartment searches and we both have come up with a lottttt of options. We're looking mostly into Allston, as she has friends who live there and it's pretty much a heavily-packed college area.
I'm so fucking excited.
There's so much to do in Boston and if I take a semester off and work I'll be able to save up money and afford to actually have fun.
And we can have a sweet house warming party after we're all moved in.
The time could not be more perfect to get out of Connecticut, for the both of us.
Now I just need to graduate in December and get my degree, save up money, and it will be all set.
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[29 Aug 2007|01:07pm] |
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Things have been remarkably more peaceful the past few days, well minus one event.
Pete and I went to the $1.99 movies in East Providence last night and saw Pirates 3 and I loved it.
The movie theater was not ghetto too which was nice since it was so cheap.
I told him we should make a movie date night every Tuesday night since they are only $1 on those nights.
Other than that, classes started and I have shit tons of homework. It's crazy. But I have a little relief knowing it's only for 3 months and in the spring I'll be taking a semester off, hopefully to move with Maria.
And I have tons of stuff going on this weekend.
It's nice getting things back in order.
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[25 Aug 2007|02:40pm] |
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Summer 2007 was fucked. I'm not sad to bid it farewell.
Spending time with friends who make me laugh. Growing in my relationship with Pete. Exercising. Starting school and working hard to make the Dean's List again. Graduating. Working to save up money. Tattoo appointments. Forgiving and forgetting. Working towards being healthy physically and mentally. Rebuilding friendships. Growing up. Setting new, higher goals.
Starting over.
Leaving the drama, hurt, and bad memories of this summer behind.
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