EVERY ONE FUCKS UP,

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 01:34:26 GMT

i miss the feces out of this journal.
oh well. if you havnt already hurry and
add me on younger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_than

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 04:12:55 GMT

younger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_thanyounger_than KTHANX, I ADDED MOST OF YOU THAT WERE ON MY FRIENDSLIST ON THIS USER NAME, IT'D BE NICE IF YOU ADDED ME BACK, BECAUSE I LOVE ALL OF YOU, AND WANT TO READ YOUR POSTS. (:

comment, add, me add.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 06:02:54 GMT

new journal,
it ll be friends only.
younger_than

gah.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 04:23:42 GMT

i miss pickle, i miss having friends, i miss the mungia brothers, i miss church, and the top floor of parking lots. and a bunch of other things.</td>

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 03:25:58 GMT

way too many times i feel like i have to prove my exsistance.

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 01:44:08 GMT

yeah, its raining, and i love it like every other person,
i love every part rain, except when it spinkles, and you just
atrat smelling liek wet dog after you dry up. i the overcast,
and i love how it sky looks so clear after it rains. i liek
that the ground it wet, and theres a few puddles along the way,
i feel like rain cleans eveyr thing up. julie and i walked home
in the rain today, i got drenched, my hair is sitll pretty wet,
i guess it was okay. hopefully neither of our
colds got worse. me having a short sleeve sweater, and wearing
beaded indian shoes didnt help much in the rain. the weather is
getting cold and i need more winter clothes. hopefully i find
something atsalvation army on wendsday. i ve been really indifferent
about alot of things and i havnt been thinking too much, so i guess im
content. in that im not depressed. but really i think i need a new
batch of people to meet and get to know. i feel like i ve got too know
alot of people and there is no one i careto get to know. i found good,
but temporary. people in this small city is just all so self centered,
and close minded. im really going to consider this moving situation.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 04:26:35 GMT

i dont really expect any thing from any one any more.
gosh i am such a pessimist.

not implying to my parents.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 02:34:19 GMT

some parents really need to grow up and be examples to their kids and teach thier kids some stinkin morals.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 00:36:53 GMT

gawd im really too stinkin irrational soemtimes.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 00:12:03 GMT

it's not changing yourself, rather it's self control.

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 16:02:02 GMT

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 23:05:17 GMT

people in india made shoes for me.

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 00:44:07 GMT

school and finance has bugging the feces out of me. and i really really didnt want to goto school, i looked like the bigges bum today, people literally told me i look like a little bum, it was cute, but its alright, its friday. i didnt talk much the hole day untill 5th period, when i saw that my horrible english teacher wasnt there, i was never so happy to have a sub in a class. and 6th period we had a sub too, it was cool, even though i love mrs sulkis, i refused to do the work she left us and just socialized with kelly and gabriel. aww sweethearts. yah, and every one was packed up 10 min before the bell. it was amazing. and the sub didnt mind at all. i went to sams after school, and i met sgt. peppers and met all his new fishies. and i had sam buy me food. yay for burritos. and mexican rice milks. after i got dropped off at home and went to church, sometimes the kids at church make me feel so big, i want to be able to do cartwheels without hurting any one, nor my self. i think i did one almost cartwheel, after a billion tries, and its really sad to see little versions of me. its really, but its oaky because i know they ll turn out fine, its just sad that they have to have to so har don themselves when it isnt that bad. a few scratches on your arm will go away... haha i am in a good mood finally, im enjoying every minute of it, i just have a weird feeling about tommorow, but i ll murder the psat. so its alright. every one bailed out on homecomming on the last minute. bahh. im going to fake it for the night and have somem fun. good bye,

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 03:28:44 GMT

i keep my self awake with instant energy,
all all sorts of things that dont natually
belong in my body, and im surrounded with
people that are aging without wisdom, i
critisize my self, yet i make my self believe
im better than alot of people only because
i can acknowlege my faults, when really, i
am no better than they are, i let my faults
be, they are too firmiliar to me. i shouldnt
break any news to any one, i should let them
figure and see things for themselves, i need
to stop caring so darn much for alot of people.
im so sick of high school, teenage things,
to the point where i dont care much about it
if it just flies by, im fed up with realizing
something then it going back to my original thought,
if that made any sense, it goes back and fourth,
& its getting really confusing now. i just want
to be sure about things, and of my self. and
stop trying to live other people's lives for them
and learn to be more articulate. i just cannot seem
to cope with being a bit less free to achieve
greater complete freedom. i feel like moving to
another city, or something, i feel like getting
to know people that i ve never even seen till then,
and them getting to know me from scratch. i
think i got too much downey in me right now. yuk.
im going to have a horrible time at homecomming.

"they that can give up essential liberty to obtain
a little temporaty saftey deserves neither libery
nor saftey." -Benjamin franklin

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 06:40:25 GMT

i havnt really done layouts
in ages, but i was bored and
did something, ___float
i feel like it looks too messy.
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

aww.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 03:00:50 GMT

i have major emotional swings. its funny. one minute i hate the world the next i love it. and im laughing
my heart out. my mom bought me a mini rose, its funny how she knows me so well sometimes.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 01:10:40 GMT

i havnt been able consentrate on any thing, nor get my mind to focus on one thing for a moment. itd been wondering aroung in irrelevant places, i ll read words yet i wont know what im reading, i think of something to say in my mind, yet i say another. its really weird, and frustrating. i am way too irrational sometimes. i let my emotions be the tyrant. and my body and mind seems to do what it pleases, and believes in the things it says. i guess i got rational jen to nuetralize me, im faking alot of things at this point in my life, and i have no passion for any thing, which leaves me with no priorities, no motives. what am i to do in these situations? i have no clue. bah.

i liek funny last names.

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 23:29:44 GMT

i can be really stinking happy at times, its sort of
sad that when i stop thinking, i get happy. late start
was cool, so was one lunch. i saw people i havnt seen
in a really long time and it was sort of akward, but i
liked it alot. i miss just standing around with omar,
alfredo, and those boys. changes arent my thing. i end
up missing random things that were that important.
i miss standing around infront of the vending machines
with tan, miguel and adrian, saying i miss all this
is pointless and wont make me stop miss them. if that
made any sense, but it was nice having one lunch and things
be a bit similar to how they were. it was nice talking
to joe and omar at the same time.

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 05:50:07 GMT

so lifes been weird.
i havnt really updated about my life
in my LIVEjournal in awhile.
and im not planing on it. gawd its already 11.
i was planning on going to bed at 8 30.
wow i am awesome. yeah. things with friends
are better due to me droppping all of it.
its alot better that way, i was expecting too much
our of a 15 year olds friendship.
yeah picture.
and i really miss football games, and
alot of other things, how kelly was, monica,
and yeah football games. people need to stop
changing for the worse. and i need to stop
criticizing other people.

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 02:30:45 GMT

its my first shower since thursday,
i am eating a eggo for dinner,
and im going to bed at 8:30
and tommorow is late start.
tonight is going to be amazing.

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 22:40:35 GMT

i am going to homecomming.

WOW!

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 08:40:09 GMT

that was an amazing performance, who ever slept through it, wow what a shame. jenny looked beautiful. aww im so proud haha im such a geek. i stayed up by my self, the living room felt so big. and after the performance i clapped by my self. yay, the whole show was amazing. (: and its all on film yay!

CONNAN O'BRIEN!

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 01:00:10 GMT

RILO KILEY ON CONNAN TONIGHT.
i am so excited. im curious what
song they ll play, theres an art/photo
contest for yearbook, student life,
im gonna give it a try for fun.
i need a nap so i can stay awake

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 22:51:31 GMT

i am alot more sure of my self than maybe two months ago,
i know why i feel what i feel, and why i do the things i do.
i am more self confident. but not in a coky sort of way, and
im sure thats why i ve been caring alot less about my looks
and what others think of me or my actions etc. go me, haha

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 07:12:39 GMT

happy happy october, only because the worst month is over.
err. i just realized i skipped septembers period.