i wish everyday was like today. i haven't felt like this in so long, and i missed it so much. i laughed till my stomach hurt, i had horrible gas and i didnt even care, i was just me again. chasing kids down the hallway with mechy with our helium balloon and voices, i think they love us now. finished my hippo. danced to techno in my kitchen. making outrageous handshakes. trying to learn dance moves and failing. john mayer. elf. perfect friends. running like a maniac. jumping all over the place. feeling like i can do anything. fanning the car out at red lights. singing with no radio. talking about old times. jones soda. comb overs. scary wake ups. giggles. chaos. butterflies. everything in one night that i love. 

i'm in the place that i want to be, i have the people i need, i'm accomplishing the things i wanted to accompish. advanced painting class. straight A's [for once]. drivers license in a week. going back to church. 

i have everything i need, and now all i have to do is build myself back up, because i showed myself tonight that i can. i was upset for 5 minutes, and then it went away. i'm actually gaining strength and control of myself. i love my best friends, i love the people i'm getting closer with, and i love my family. i am truely blessed, and i cherish it everyday. 


i'm high on life.
and nothing can bring me down from my high. absolutely nothing.