strangers on the street, lovers when we sleep

___etoile @ 2008-09-08T20:17:00

2008-09-09T00:18:34Z

fuck college a little bit. i'm not unhappy here, but i'm not happy by any means yet. i have yet to find my niche, and it kind of sucks a little bit. i don't know how to compel others to talk to me, and i don't know how to compel myself to talk to others. it's really difficult. i miss feeling whole. i miss youuuuuuuu.

___etoile @ 2008-08-04T20:48:00

2008-08-05T03:50:32Z

i'm not doing so well with this... i'm not flat out bawling or anything, but i just have this distinct feeling that it will be difficult for me to let go of some things... and i'm freaking out a little bit about it. i want to just be free of this place, but i just can't allow that to happen.
i want to float on a cloud to new york and settle like a snowflake and melt onto the ground amidst my new people.

but i wish you were there to melt with me.

___etoile @ 2008-07-19T03:29:00

2008-07-19T10:34:50Z

dudee, so my family is here which is cool. i think i like callum best. we joke around. it's nice to feel like i have siblings... brothers, you know? whatever.
i had dinner with the fam, dad, and erik tonight. erik seemed a bit awkward, but spending time with him nowadays is THE MOST IMPORTANTTHING EVERRRR. like. what the fuck will i do without him, life will be unbearable and sucky. whyyyyyyy isn't he going to ny with meeeee, FUCK LIFE UP THE CUNTHOLE.
whatever, erik <3s santa weed so good for his highs. basically i'm a little drunk right now, but i managed to drive lots annnndd get erik home safely without barfing all over his living room.
erik, why won't you come with me in my suitcase, my best bud?
'cept i hate it when you take me to parties that you essentially ignore me at for a lot of it. not tiizzziightt, ya know? thanks dude.
anywhoooo, my job is coming up. maybe raging waters. all very tight. i kind of wish i didn;t have my job anymore, but whatever, i can't argue 1200 bucks. no way josemexican.

you make me wanna shout

2008-07-14T08:10:23Z

so basically fuck. big time. tonight was a mess. a huge mess. and now i don't even know what to think anymore. gaaaaaaahhhhhh life throws big ole curve balls atcha, and they always give me black eyes :-/, fuckfuckfuck.

___etoile @ 2008-07-13T01:00:00

2008-07-13T08:08:33Z

i got a holga, so i'm hoping to take some cool pictures of people to make my dorm room feel more homey... i;m nervous about leaving i guess, so maybe this will make it easier. i'll have the people i love smiling down at me from the walls above me and it'll be tight. i'm also using my dad's camera which is a little more complicated so the pics could all turn out crap but i hope not...
my cat's been chilling with me, which is nice. but she snores and has no teeth. she's kinda weird. and i feel fucking bad for her cause i named her something really retarded when i was little and now i can't change it cause you know... she'd get confused or some shit....
i guess in a lot of ways i've been doing better than usual, but like, i've had a couple of breakdowns lately... maybe it's just summer's ending too quickly, or i'm not seeing enough of everyone or whatever, but it's beginning to wear on me. crying sucks.
i'm getting a job though! i'll end up getting paid about $1200 overall, which will be amazing, so i'm really excited about that.
i just hope i get to see erik enough; he's leaving the 3rd, and who knows if he'll be back in time to see me off. i told him we have to see each other every day, which was a bit of an exaggeration, but ya know, it's chill. but like... no we have to we have to we have to. it's super important.
and i've been drawing and painting and stuff. i did a couple egon schiele copies which was cool... the faces were a little crude, but i didn't want to take too long perfecting everything cause it's not original material.
i hope i stop requiring alcohol to feel comfortable in social situations, but it seems like everyone does nowadays. it's pretty sad, but i'm basically socially retarded so i don't know what to tell you....
holga pic:

soooo prettyyyy.

___etoile @ 2006-09-26T11:25:00

2006-09-26T18:24:50Z

it's over...

___etoile @ 2005-09-12T17:40:00

2005-09-13T00:39:23Z

Click here.

Click the above link and post a comment. The guy will donate one dollar to aid with Hurricane Katrina for every comment, so comment!

I love you.

___etoile @ 2005-04-05T19:00:00

2005-04-06T01:56:56Z

Join please.

pritty cule

2005-03-23T05:25:25Z

ever so sweet,
you baked it in cakes for me.

Aurelia; Jeremy.

Nick; Camille.

Aurore; Ashley.

Jeremy; Aurelia.

Jeremy; Nick.

Jordan's butt; Aurelia's pooch.

Aurelia; Jordan; Jeremy.

Aurelia.

Jordan; Aurelia (background: Aurore, Amber, Morgane)

Aurelia; Jeremy (Nathalie, Clemence..)

Jeremy; Jordan.

Jordan; Ashley.

Jeremiah the Great.

Someone come visit me so I'm not lonely this weekend with all y'all in Palm Springs. (*cough*SamJordan*cough*)

Love,
-Gigi.

___etoile @ 2005-02-01T21:14:00

2005-02-02T05:12:34Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

everyone rejoice

2004-12-31T05:23:15Z

GIGI'S BACK!

YAAAAAY.

I got back today at about 3:30, stood in 18 million lines... Eh. The plane ride was alright. Definitely better than before. I had a window seat and everything. Oh joy.
London was fun. I went shopping, visited only one museum, went on the public transport (bus, train, tube) an awful lot, saw family... Had an awful row with an aunt and now I shan't be speaking to her anymore.

Ah. All's well that ends well.

And I've moved. Everyone come give me hugs and kisses and house warming gifts.

And call my cell and say welcome home. I want to talk to everyone! I've missed you all insanely.

It's my birthday a month from Saturday.

Is it true, lovers?

2004-12-12T17:12:51Z

You Are the Individualist

4

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

___etoile @ 2004-12-01T22:11:00

2004-12-02T06:11:01Z

No n0t now x: Leo or Keo or whatever-wants to know when if i'm coming in winter...why?
No n0t now x: And he bloody said BEAVER power when it's obviously a MARMOT!
Baby Britain x: So you two can have a drinking face off like you've been talking about FOREVER.
No n0t now x: Ooooooh.
No n0t now x: Right.
Baby Britain x: No one knows what a marmot is...
No n0t now x: YES THEY DO!
No n0t now x: Don't SAY THAT!
Baby Britain x: Haha.
Baby Britain x: You only know cause you looked up world domination on google and that's what came up.
No n0t now x: NOOOO marmot is marmotte in français and I see them all the time when I go to Val d'Iser
No n0t now x: They whistle for effing sakes!! They aren't beavers!

Gotta love them marmots, huh?

____pandemonium wants some love.

Give her some ♥.

kthxbye people.

Shivaree

2004-11-26T19:30:31Z

"There was a time way, way back in Egypt when a man was so scarce that a woman had to wear her coins and do a little dance in the marketplace to attract one. [...] I saw belly-dancers in the murals on the tombs in Egypt, with zills on their fingers."

"You've been to Egypt?"

"Hell sport, I danced there in the moonlight before the temple of Isis."

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Life is turning out to be quite a show.

___etoile @ 2004-08-30T15:58:00

2004-08-30T22:59:52Z