- But I don't understand!
- November 28th, 2005
Some of you might know.
Some of you might not know.
This Thanksgiving was the best time, I had. All my cousin & their kids were there and everyone was so happy and there were no fights, my cousin and I didn't even fight. And we usually fight alot. It was great. I'll never forget it.
Saturday, I was supposed to go to [my last year as a senior]the christmas parade. Well... *sigh* That day was the worst day in my life. My dad died that day. He either had a severe heart attack, because he had heart problems already, and/or had an aneurysm.
I'm not 100% sure what caused it. I was confused the whole time, everyone was screaming and they took all the kids in my room and I had to watch them, while not knowing what the hell was going on. My cousin's husband found him outside laying on the ground. I doubt that there would've been a way to prevent it.
I'm worried about my mom and my sister. Mostly my mom. She's so lost and I can't stand to see her like this. Everything is so different and confusing right now. I don't like change. I don't like how things are going to be now. But hopefully we'll get through it. We were going to have a birthday party for him Sunday. We were going to have alot of people there and take pictures of him and the family... I wish that he would've stand longer.
I knew that he wasnt going to make it, because of all those heart problems but I wanted him to at least see me graduate. But I guess that's not going to happen now.