Growing up shouldn't be this hard.

Trying to figure out the school thing is killing me. Do I go? Do I stay & work?

My first payment is due and I have no money because I quit my job and haven't started my other one yet.

I didn't get into rez which means I have to find an apartment.

And I'm not ready to leave yet.

It's weird because I just assumed that when it got closer to the time and I made my decision that things would be different. That i'd get used to the idea of leaving. If anything, my resistance to the idea is only stronger.



But at the same time, it's my own personal stubborness that won't let me back down. I feel like I need to force myself into this. At this point, either way I'm screwed. But I just don't want to be in debt for the rest of my life for a mistake I made when I was young.

Ugh.