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house of jealous lovers.
12 July 2011 @ 11:11 pm
 I can't even begin to catch up with this. Ten weeks on Testosterone, recently returned from Perth (never go) saw Jenna, Queer conference - fucked misogynist, right wing Queers in my face, lots of drugs, initiated a vague relationship with someone I like and tonight want to run.

Maybe check my tumblr, I update it more than I do/will(maybe) this -

correctivejack.tumblr.com
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
20 April 2011 @ 02:15 am
 'i want to wake up to someone who doesn't think think that they know me.'
'I want-'
'I want-'
'You want an unwritten life.'
'I want an unwritten life.'

Ultimately education in Australia be it tertiary or secondary is so flawed and deliberately authorised by the mastermind type work of renounced freedom. It is explored everywhere, in civilised and the presumably uncivilisied nations. What is civilisation? Merely a scapegoat prescribed throughout centuries, eras that establishes a class system, erects privilege. And anyway, political freedom has been censored and manipulated with and without consent. With and without knowledge or awareness. People relinquish their political freedom by submitting to an easy culture, a 'me' culture. Constructed using the finest of capitalisms tools. I didn't see it, it didn't hurt me, it has nothing to do with me. 
Anyway, I wish to only study elsewhere. Institutionalised or otherwise . 
 
 
I am reliant, I am self sufficient, I am embodied by those before and after me, I am able, I still miss having a partner and consistency, I am a rat. This is my race,

 
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
20 October 2010 @ 05:41 pm

The subdivision is huge and so easily pandered to.
Who are you to assimilate my gender

Affirm my stance as a man

A

Dick

Less

Man

He she

She him

Shim

Labelling me like

I’m a fucking

Goddamn crim.

Don’t dare drag your eyes down my chest

Checking for the tumors that cause me more pain

Than the welts

and scars ever did.

Look

At yourself privilege dripping down your jaw,

While you feverishly copulate, marry, live outside a

Curtain that bears no discerning eyes and scorn.

 

Have you ever considered the boundless weight that

is the struggle to identify?

Do you

Know of the life long war ahead

Of me

Of them?

 

A furnace

Blistering my throat

Every

Fucking

Time

I have to step foot in front of foot into

The bathroom that parades the

Stick figure

That

Is

Not

Me.

To bend down and lift the seat

And

Even those

Days when

Fuck that

I sit and

The burning scalds my

Throat

Tongue

Lips.

Filing away my teeth

In attempt to stifle

The spluttering

Screams

The fucking fist fights with the cubicle.

No.

 

Do you see

My small,

Soft hands creating excuses

For my soft voice,

For my soft,

Hairless chin?

 

It hurts, Mr

To retain

A love

For a man

I can’t ever

Come

Into.

Fuck.

 

My

Queer shoulders don’t

Steer wheels, Allen.

They drive off cliffs,

They fall forward,

They ache

From my

Secret breasts

And my ill

Shaped spine

Bent

Like me

And you

For you.

Why aren’t you sauntering down

Supermarket aisles

Finding me beside the

Watermelons,

Pulling me back

Adjusting the

Sick

Sad

Disposition

So frequently endured and

Worn

By me

And them?

Why aren’t you

Uncrossing

My

Arms?

Telling me

There’s nothing to hide

Be proud

Young man.

Ensuring that

I know

And they know that

I am

We are

Not

Alone?


 
 
house of jealous lovers.
12 April 2009 @ 02:17 pm
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house of jealous lovers.
10 March 2009 @ 11:06 am
On Sunday, Krandall introduced me to a fucking amazing reserve right near my house. There we found that two queers had been murdered, slain and dragged from beyond the rivers mouth. We decided to take some photos with his new digital SLR.

 

 
 

 

everybody's sick for something that they can find fascinating everyone but you and even you aren't feeling well.

 
 
Current Music: Amanda Palmer - Astronaut.
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
05 March 2009 @ 12:35 pm
I never wanted to be a Pokemon master anyway -
They tried to take my tights from me,
They tried to take my RIGHTS from me!
And when they caught me stripping Pidgeotto of it's feathers,
they locked me in a poke ball for 5
long
years.

And you ask me now, Margaret, why I wont surrender -
I don't care if you'll give me 57 trained pokemon.
Team Rocket blast off at the speed of light, surrender now, or prepare to fight.
 



There is this girl, who smokes 5 cigarettes at once, she frequents the Brisbane scene with a poet who calls himself the B.F.G and incessantly speaks of dreaming people are asleep. They took to Amanda Palmer with force, I managed to snap them with my digital eye.











I dreamt you dreamt I dreamt you were asleep.
 
 
Current Music: Son Of Nun - Free Palestine
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
03 March 2009 @ 04:42 pm
Margaret and all of her spies wait anxiously for me to leave this big building - it's okay because Krandall is hiding in my backpack with his level 100 Mewtwo.
 
 
Current Music: Bloc Party - Ion Square.
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
06 November 2008 @ 01:11 pm
Yesterday while exiting the bottle shop, I looked to the pavement to find an A4 piece of paper printed from someones computer. It was stuck to the pavement with rain and footprints - it featured a black and white stencil of Obama and beneath read, PROGRESS.


Some people do such strange, wonderful things.
The weather is almost a unpredictable as I am.


 
I would love to slow dance in the rain to Sigur Ros right now.


 
 
Current Music: The Knife - Pass This On
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
24 September 2008 @ 11:38 am

Last night I felt like I was picked up on a magic carpet and taken away from the level of consciousness I have inhabited for years. Strong willed women have always given me butterflies in my nouns and in my verbs, in my breath. To listen to such conviction, experience, is to derive the same historical understanding the Jewish do from their Psalms. I will listen to her advice, her objective analysis, her strength and her sound. I revel in this light.
I am testing acquaintance with the realms of consciousness. I concentrate on not necessarily evading the seemingly exhaustible realms but more on wielding them sequentially so that in amongst the hysteria, productivity is prevailing; emitting flavours and annals of things I am finding mid-flight.
Like a kaleidoscope, with each step I spin and assimilate first level, second level, third, until the alarms sound to warn of sovereignty. Everything as one, nothing as everything. Spilt and smeared and again natural selection prevails. I am carefully learning to disengage from real world impulses and settle for the enigmatic staircase of doors& windows.
the seams are withdrawing from their homes, weaving a noose on the way out and for once i'm not scared.



 
 
Current Location: in reverie
Current Music: Maia Hirasawa - Crackers
 
 
house of jealous lovers.
12 October 2007 @ 08:44 am
Before you run away from me
Before you're lost between the noise
The beat goes round and round
The beat goes round and round
I never really got there
I just pretended that I had
What's the point of instruments
Words are a sawed off shotgun

I am in love with the new radiohead album already.