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[March 19 2008 6:14 PM] |
haven't been on in awhile.
life has been weird lately everything is falling apart.
i don't know what to think
or even what to do anymore.
i always seem to always get the short straw
when we all draw.
when is it my turn to get the long straw
instead of the short straw.
i just want to be happy.
is that so much to ask for?
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[July 24 2006 4:09 PM] |
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so basically i have ahd the best few days of my life thanks to jake alli and yeah thats it i love you two so much thnx guys yer the best
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[July 9 2006 8:43 PM] |
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So basically im starting over...
I know what I want now, and Im going after it fighting:) I like a new boooooy♥
I'm happy for you know and wish the best for you...
I just pray that I stay happy, because thats what I am now and I'm lovin it...
Oh and big thanks to TIM, he puts the smile on my face everymorning when i wake up... The big sqaure kind:]
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[May 6 2006 7:59 PM] |
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please tell me what to do. im lost in a terrible place, take me away from here take, this state of mind.
i love you, im sorry, i promise i can do it just have faith in me, i do.
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[April 29 2006 3:18 AM] |
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i love you, i wait for you.
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[April 17 2006 12:57 AM] |
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Happy Easter everyone.....
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[March 14 2006 5:20 AM] |
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Second two the last entry... I ment everything i wrote. i loe him more then life. Im goign to be strong? I love him thats all.
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[March 10 2006 11:32 AM] |
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I don't know why I do that I know it's not going to say it and I'm not going to be on there. But I'm staying positive... I know you just need your time and when the times right for you I'll be back on there and it won't say that anymore. The past two days have gone great and I love how much fun we are having. The smile has yet to leave my face... even when I look at that on thing, it still stays there so I know it will be fine now. Because you make me happy. I love you.
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[March 7 2006 2:56 PM] |
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Yesterday things seemed as if they were going to get better, but today I woke up at about 7ish... and just lyed* there in bed just waiting for my daily morning wake up call I get from you everyday before you head off to school, but it didn't come. I knew it wasn't going to. It was just weird I felt so empty. then lunch time came around and I knew your phone had been shut off but I still called just hoping maybe it was back on and you answer and want to taalk but I just got your voicemail. Yesterday when you and I had saw eachother and talked I told you iwas scared that you and I were not going to happen again and I asked you if you were to and you told me "No I'm not and that should show you something, Bridget we didn't force arseves to met nor did we to fall in love and we don't have to to make this work, its going to happen on it's own." I just hope you are right. I wasnt this to work so badly right now I'm going through hell and it's only been 2 days, and I can't even imagine what you're going through. I just feel so empty it's weird I can't really put a finger on it though it kinda feels like I forgot something and dont know what it is or where it could be, it feels like Im lost liek Im in a foriegn place were people are speaking a language I can't understand, this is just so scary. I love you... They arent just words its how I feel. I mean when you're not around me all i can do is think about you and can't wait till the next time I just see you'r smiling face, you still give me butterflies everytime we kiss, when I'm with you nothing around us matters because its like we are walking on air and no one can touc us.... "US", I really like the sound of that, but now we are just plain Sal and plain Bridget. I hate this I mean Im writting like its over and I dont want that, I mean I dont feel like its going to be, but what am I suppose to base this off of, I know you love me and you know that i love you so what happens, I mean arent people in love suppose to be together? I know you are going through alot right now and you don't need anymore stress I respect that, I want this to work out so thats why i want to do this I want to give you you'r space and time. i just dont know how I'm suppose to do this, how when I see you I'm not suppose to just run up and hug you hold you in my arms kiss you face till its wet. I can't not talk to you I can't not see you, it hurts just way to much. How much longer is this going to take, yes its been 2 days only but I dont know what to do, or how to do this. I mean Scot and I dated for almost a year and a half and I hate to say this but it never hurt me this bad I never felt empty like this. Please just know I love you more then anything. That night at Sarah's this past weekend when you came into the room and told me you were scard about us(I knwo you were alittle fucked up... ) and feel asleep when I was talking to you but this is what I had to say...
Salvatore, I love you more then I have ever loved anyone, I mean even more then some of my family members, That nights we had in January (10-11) when you told me you loved me and you wanted to give yourself to me you wanted this to be for good forever I took that to heart and when I told you the same I meant it. I dream of what are life would be like as we grow up together and grew grey and old. You give me so much hope and so much promise in my life. You've made me a better person and I'll give you my heart soul and life for that. You're the only one I want to be with, no one could ever replace you, you;re the most amazinig person ever. You're going to great things with you'r life you're going to cahnge the world and i'm going to be right by you'r side while you do it hand in hand baby. You are my heart and soul, my soulmate, no one will ever take you away from me. Salvatore Joseph Scibona I love you.
Im going to wait for you for how ever long it takes and I'm going to help you with anything you need through this. You know I really think this is going to be ok I just need to let you do you'r thing.
If it's ment to happen it will over and over. You can't erase DESTINY.
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[March 5 2006 7:17 PM] |
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You Are the Helper |
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You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.
You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.
Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.
You connect with people who are charming and charismatic.
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Can you believe I was also a 2.
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[February 23 2006 6:26 PM] |
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Things are going amazingly better. I love him. Thats all there is to it. No one can bring us down, I dare you to try. Are love is to strong....
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[February 17 2006 9:48 PM] |
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why is this sinking fatser then i can take a bucket and clear out the water. this isnt suppose to happen to us we are like a puzzel, take just one piece away and its ruined. listening to others doesnt help thery arent part of the puzzel, no one else is. its just you and me. i dont know what i would do if i lost you, you make evrything what it is for me its all better now that you came along. i love you in every possible way i could. this feeling just overcomes me evrytime im around you words cant describe it though its just an amazing feeling you bring me./ but what i can tell you is that you make me feel so much more alive, i want to make something of myself now because of you , you make me want to succed. this all prob sounds all mushy but you know what i dont care its how i feel. ISNT GROWING OLD &GRAY MEAN FOREVER?
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[February 10 2006 7:48 AM] |
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Kissed someone: Yes, just yesterday(my lovely boyfriend♥)
Smoked cigarettes: Everyday
Got so drunk you passed out: yes but lest not talk about that
Rode every ride at an amusement park: Of course Valley Fair...DUHHH
Collected something really stupid: Yes, I use to collect pillows.LAMEEE
Gone to a rock concert: Yes.
Helped someone: Ask and you shall receive
Gone fishing: I LOVE TO FISH!
Spun turn tables: Nope.
Watched four movies in one night: Yes, 1.The Little Mermaid 2.Pretty In Pink 3.The Sandlot 4.Billy Madison... Ever heard of sleep overs... haha
Gone long periods of time without sleep: Didn't sleep at all last night.
Lied to someone: Yes.
Been dumped: 3 times.
Snorted cocaine: Yes.
Failed a class: Thats my life story.
Smoked weed: Yes
Dealt drugs: Nope
Taken a college level course: Yes, in 8th grade but it was just an art class tho.
Been in a car accident: Yes, but only one.
Been in a tornado(typhoon). Almost just missed us.
Watched someone die: On t.v
Been to a funeral: Yes, my Aunt Jeannette. R.I.P Aunt Jeannette, you are missed dearly I LOVE YOU!
Burned yourself: No.
Ran a marathon: No but I ran the mile at school... haha
Your parents got divorced: Yes.
Cried yourself to sleep: Plenty of times.
Spent over $200 in one day: Try over 700$.
Flown on a plane: All the time mom use to work at the airport.
Cheated on someone: Once, but NEVER AGAIN.
Been cheated on: Plenty of times.
Written a 10 page letter: Yup.
Gone skiing: I tried.
Been sailing: No
Had a best friend: Been through plenty of them.
Lost someone you loved: Yes. My Aunt Jeannette.
Shoplifted something: Yes.
Been to jail: No.
Had detention: Story of my life.
Got in trouble for something you didn't do: All the time.
Stolen books from the library: Yes.
Gone to a different country: No.
Dropped out of school: Yes I did, but I have my G.E.D
Been in a mental hospital: No.
Fired a gun: I hate guns.
Gambled in a casino: No.
Had a yard sale: Plenty of times.
And a lemonade stand: HAHA Kool-Aid count?
Been in a school play: Yea about 3.
Been fired from a job:... Yes. Cinnabon
Taken a lie detector test: No.
Swam with dolphins: Never been in the ocean.
Gone to sea world: Yes in 3rd grade, class field trip.
Voted for American/Australian Idol: YOU KNOW IT!!!!!!
Written poetry: Yes.
Read more than 20 books a year: Been close.
Loved someone you couldn't have: No I have him.
Used a coloring book over age 12: ALL THE TIME.
Had surgery: Tonsils* count?
Taken a taxi: Yes.
Seen the Washington Monument: In a book.
Had more than 5 IM's/online conversations going at once: Duhhh.
Overdosed: On pills in 6th grade.
Had a drug or alcohol problem: I dont think so.
Been in a fist fight: Yes. A few.
Suffered any form of abuse: Yes, verbal&physical.
Petted a wild animal: Yes at Out Of Africa. A snake... you know the big one.
Used a credit card: Yes... But my mom has taken mine away from me now.
Gone surfing in California: like i said i have never been in the ocean.
Did "spirit day" at school: Yes.
Dyed your hair: Since 5th grade I havent stopped.
Got a tattoo: No but can wait to get one.
Had something pierced: I have my Monroe& ears done.
Got straight A's: BAAAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhHhaHHAhahahHAhAHHhahhahhAhahahahahahhaHAHAHAHA
Been on the Honor Roll: BAHHAHAHHHAhAhahahaahHAhahHAHAHAhahahAHAHAHHAHAHAhahahAhAhAHAhAhAhAhAhAHAHAHA
Been handcuffed: Yes
Known someone with HIV or AIDS: No
Taken pictures with a webcam: HAHA sadly yes.
Started a fire: Yes. How else do you make s'mores...
Had a party while your parents weren't home: Just a few GOOD friends where there...
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone. NOPE!
Done surveys like this to pass the time: This is the first one I have ever taken.
Held your breath in a tunnel the entire time so that you could make a wish: Of course. I Dream big.
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[February 9 2006 1:36 PM] |
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Im not hungry anymore.
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[January 30 2006 8:14 PM] |
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Baby, is this LOVE?
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