| Sunday, November 11th, 2007 |
| 5:38 am |
disrespect
relief from the people who have only caused stress and drama feels so good. never again will i be manipulated by the ones who say they "care" and think they know me better than i know myself. i'm so happy that i'm not alone, and even though i feel like i have lost a couple of friends whom i have cared about for so long now, it is absolutely right to cut them off and let go of all the pain and heartache they have brought me. I have lost all respect for them and never want to associate myself with people like them ever again in my life. Definately never let myself get close enough to someone like that so they can rape my life from the inside out. thank you for showing me your real sides. your own insecurities will be the death of you. The real truth is that you will never have anyone care about you completely to the point where they would take a bullet for you because nobody can trust what you have to say and nobody cares. pushing your opinions and insecurities on other people will get you nowhere in life and i really hope thats exactly where you end up. with no one and nowhere because that is exactly what you deserve. Current Mood:  relieved |
| Saturday, October 27th, 2007 |
| 3:09 am |
shits going all good. i really need to just start focusing on school and my own life right now, and i think ive been making the right decisions to be able to do what i need to. im about to get a job as soon as my cast comes off and im doing lots of exciting things like, getting my tattoo...  and my new bike...  im happy. |
| Tuesday, October 9th, 2007 |
| 1:27 am |
watch out
because im falling down hard and fast. at least thats what it feels like. i think it might be because i detached myself from what was holding me up and keeping me steady, always pointing me in the right direction. this was the first person ive ever been with that i honestly cared about more than myself. But i couldnt bring myself to drag on what i felt was failing only to make the separation less painfull. i feel awful about how i went about ending it but i couldnt bring myself to do it like a man because of the respect and how much i still care about her. now im just left with friends who look down at me and a bitter ex... time to start over i guess. Current Mood:  discontent |
| Thursday, September 13th, 2007 |
| 1:43 am |
when the person you care about most cant even look at you... you know you did something wrong. i blow so hard. |
| Monday, August 6th, 2007 |
| 12:28 pm |
GhostfaceChillah, welcome to the family. |
| Sunday, May 13th, 2007 |
| 4:23 pm |
Such a depressing weekend. First i fail my driving test... no license. USE was so sweet. Saturday sat in the car literally all day. Did nothing for hours. Ended up smoking and going to dennys, which was pretty fun. Now reflecting on how things kind of blow is just hard not to do. Making things look and feel a lot worse than they really are is probly my specialty. But only to myself i think. Maybe i just need to come back to reality. Maybe this is reality. Lets leave tonight, One last time. Before it gets too cold. |
| Tuesday, May 1st, 2007 |
| 7:12 pm |
THROAT is soar. But it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. Im gonna be home for a while though. I cant wait to be not sick and have my license :) |
| Monday, April 23rd, 2007 |
| 1:40 am |
Sweet weekend. Dont remember a lot of it. But I remember it was fun. And hot fuzz was fucking such a good movie. Go see it. |
| Wednesday, April 18th, 2007 |
| 12:17 am |
It is definately that time of year. love is in the air... :) |
| Sunday, April 15th, 2007 |
| 3:38 pm |
sweet weekend. just too drunk to dance. |
| Tuesday, April 10th, 2007 |
| 11:35 pm |
God oregon was so much fun. Drunken sweet days and nights. I havent had so much fun in the longest time. Im so happy to be doing things again. :) |
| Sunday, April 1st, 2007 |
| 11:16 pm |
Its gettin nice. I feel like its about time for some summer lovin. |
| Wednesday, March 28th, 2007 |
| 11:32 pm |
So i was in my first big accident today. Not great but i mean it could have been worse. Thank god it wasnt. Oh well its been a long day and im still a little bit sore and im just ready for it to be over. |
| Monday, March 5th, 2007 |
| 5:26 pm |
So this last weekend i had an epiphany. A revalation if you will... It was during my bad trip on shrooms and it was one of the most scary things that has ever happened to me. All i could hear was everyone talking about how gone i was and this scene was playing over and over in my head. It was the worst moment of my life when im ugly and crazy and I am just rolling around on the floor trying to tear my skin off and I thought i would never come out of it so i was dreaming that i was going to an insane asylum where i would live for the rest of my life. That has me completely petrified now so I have taken that dream to heart and decided that i need to do something with my life. Actually start going to school and change my terrible habits of being a complete bum. This week is the start of a new life path. One that will actually have a future. Im pretty fucking pumped. :) |
| Friday, March 2nd, 2007 |
| 12:29 am |
Serious question. Hat or no more hat.? |
| Thursday, February 1st, 2007 |
| 4:54 pm |
"On my briefcase was some crumbled weed." Ok so ive been high for the past like 2 months and its over. Im coming back to a 40oz and a party. I miss everybody. |
| Friday, January 26th, 2007 |
| 1:26 am |
AGNES IS MY BRO.! im so pumped for this weekend. its gonna be a good one. FUCKIN YEAHH :) |
| Saturday, January 6th, 2007 |
| 2:12 am |
Im getting my hair cut tomorow. Im kinda of worried. Not really sure how im gonna do it yet. But its gonna be short most likely. 3 o clock at seven salon in bellevue. People should come and see it happen. Its been 2 years since my last my last hair cut. I actually just need some moral support haha. Rip hair 1/7/07 |
| Sunday, December 31st, 2006 |
| 11:28 am |
Happy new years. Lets get fucked up. This years been really long. |
| Friday, December 15th, 2006 |
| 12:23 am |
What a long day. School. Smoking a lot. Bus. Waiting around for the next bus in the complete storm. Sideways rain. Getting drenched. Finally catching the bus. Hanging out in bothell and smoking more. All of it was worth it to see my love. :) Ill do anything for that girl. |
____nickyy