____guts

____guts @ 2008-10-09T19:22:00

2008-10-09T23:24:29Z

FINALLY

no, i don't care how lame you think it looks.

____guts @ 2008-10-03T00:15:00

2008-10-03T04:18:47Z

get over it, randi.

do i ever write anything truly sensible anymore?

don't be silly, it's all completely and utterly sensible.

i'm really, really good at pretending everything's okay.
i guess that's one of my life skills.

____guts @ 2008-09-30T02:24:00

2008-09-30T06:36:21Z

if i thought another wish, they'd see the light of day.
but you stand beyond the sun.
beyond the reach of 'just a friend'.

maybe if i grew wings, maybe if you lost yours.

as i hold my breath, a throat full of cememnt.
i'm disgusted by repetition.

your friend,
friendship.

sup, gaylord?

____guts @ 2008-09-05T22:17:00

2008-09-06T02:18:18Z

I'm bored, andddd at the moment, lonely. i want to talk to someone buttttt there is no one.
poo.

____guts @ 2008-08-06T22:39:00

2008-08-07T02:51:24Z

I haven't heard one thing you have said.
This whole time you were talking, I was too busy picturing you dead.

giggidy-giggidy, oh yeah!

The balance in my bank account is -50.26. Today was my first day off in almost two weeks. I'm getting a promotion at work that equals a raise, and an automatic 40 hours a week. I woke up at 11, starting watching Pans Labyrinth, but fell back asleep around the middle (after she eats the grapes) and didn't wake up again until 5. Tomorrow i'm off but I'm going in for an hour to do the cigarette order. Then I'm taking my sister to get school supplies and probably seeing Pineapple Express, if I have enough money. Life seems so weird.

____guts @ 2008-07-15T20:17:00

2008-07-16T00:20:15Z

i'm tired.

i've seen the dark knight 3 times already. it's amazing, needless to say.

10 days until breaking dawn!

and..... i'm not asleep. why?

____guts @ 2008-07-12T19:20:00

2008-07-12T23:34:25Z

by my side, you'll never be because i'm fake at the seams, i'm lost in my dreams. i want you to know that i can't let you go, and you're never coming home again.
by my side, you'll never be. i wanted to tell you i've changed. i wanted to tell you that things would be different this time. i see you, you see me, differently.

you tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again.

I'm pretty 'blah' lately. I work all of my days off at other stores for extra money. I'm almost caught up on my cell phone bill, and i'm going to start paying my credit card and the hospital soon. Any extra money, I'm saving. Well, that's my plan, anyway. I'm happy being free, as free as I can be with all things considered. I've been hanging out with Shawn, Lauren, Luther and Andrew a lot. Probably not so much with Andrew anymore since him and Luther broke up. I do like him, though. I've also been enjoying my days more-so than usual with the help of mother nature and her wonderful cannabis that has bestowed it's way upon my life. It'll never be out of hand, though, so don't you worry.

(insert small portion of space for my twilight-related rants) - BREAKING DAWN COMES OUT IN 20 DAYS! THE QUOTES HAVE STARTED. I CAN'T FIND THE ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY MAGAZINE YET. I HATE THE COVER. I HATE CHEST HAIR. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE MOVIE. THE EXTRA'S ON THE PENELOPE DVD ARE AWESOME. I'M GOING TO SEE THE DARK KNIGHT, 50% OF MY REASONING IS TO SEE THE NEW TWILIGHT TRAILER IN FRONT OF IT.

...anyway.

I love driving. I want to drive. I think a trip is well in order, soon..

____guts @ 2008-07-09T22:07:00

2008-07-10T02:17:49Z

I could listen to this song while watching this .gif image for ages.
Favorite thing ever.

oh, and if anyone is at the grocery store next week and see's the new cover of Entertainment Weekly featuring Twilight with Edward and Bella on the cover, DO NOT look at the cover. Instead, feast your eyes upon THIS version (manip source). Robert Pattinson is so hotttttt. Thank you and GOOD DAY.

____guts @ 2008-06-28T22:38:00

2008-06-29T02:53:04Z

oh, and NO THANKS TO LAUREN,

and i know i'm late..

but i love jabbawockeez!

____guts @ 2008-06-28T22:19:00

2008-06-29T02:37:08Z

Sooooooooooo I thought I'd make a little post. I'm tired, and I love listening to bobby dupea.

okay, so first off, my hair is TOO GODDAMN LONG.

Second, I DON'T WANT BLACK GODDAMN HAIR. i'm not the fag back-up vocalist for metro station.

"Shake It" By Metrostation

VS.

RANDI DOES NOT LIKE.

anyway. teeth are cool.

and... i think that's all i'm going to post.

oh, and this.
randi likes katy perry.
love this song.

KEEP UP THE SRS BSNS GUYZ. BAI.

i just wanna break you down so badly. i trip over everything you say.

2008-06-24T11:51:43Z

Adam Lazzara is so hot.. *sigh*

Why don't I ever feel like writing?

____guts @ 2008-06-13T10:32:00

2008-06-13T14:35:21Z

It seems like i've been posting nothing but lyrics lately. lameee.

____guts @ 2008-06-05T23:14:00

2008-06-06T03:16:44Z

i want to spill my guts.

blaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

____guts @ 2008-05-29T00:06:00

2008-05-29T04:09:52Z

sadly, i've grown to love avenged sevenfold. thanks to my lame sister.

i'd quote the lyrics, but since the song is a story i'd have to quote the whole thing. it's fucking wicked, but crazy.

you had my heart, at least for the most part.

____guts @ 2008-05-26T21:26:00

2008-05-27T01:28:11Z

one last kiss, before i go.
dry your tears, it is time to let you go.

____guts @ 2008-05-22T08:05:00

2008-05-22T12:06:08Z

I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know, my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

____guts @ 2008-05-10T00:40:00

2008-05-10T04:41:41Z

someone wrote this in my truth box tonight on myspace.

"I'm not sorry for your defense mechanisms, taking in everything I ever told told you and finding some way to laugh at my expense. I'm not sorry you couldn't help but think that everything I ever wrote/said was directed towards you. I'm not sorry you couldn't think up anything positive about me. I wish I could tell you that you surround yourself with people who have ridiculed you and turned you into something ugly - but I am the enemy. Because I have turned myself into one. Because I couldn't sit around and wait to understand why you treated me that way you did. Life is a circle Randi."

it's true.
and sadly, i really haven't a response to this.

____guts @ 2008-05-06T10:16:00

2008-05-06T14:19:26Z

this song expresses my feelings more than my words can.

it doesn't hurt me.
you wanna feel how it feels?
you wanna know that it doesn't hurt me?

you don't want to hurt me,
but see how deep the bullet lies.
unaware that i'm tearing you asunder.
there is thunder in our hearts, baby.
so much hate for the ones we love?
tell me, we both matter, don't we?

____guts @ 2008-05-06T07:19:00

2008-05-06T11:19:33Z

ohhhh, boy.

where is life going to take me?

____guts @ 2008-05-05T23:01:00

2008-05-06T11:18:58Z

why is randi currently struggling to hold the urine inside of her body?

THAT'S WHY!

____guts @ 2008-04-24T22:06:00

2008-04-25T02:10:03Z

i have a "truth box" on myspace.
it's anonymous, and i hate that.
i want to know who says these things.

____guts @ 2008-04-24T00:38:00

2008-04-24T04:43:33Z

it's been a while.

i went to portland. in as few words as possible, it was completely amazing and i'll be moving there by the end of the year.

i'd write more, but i'm tired right now and excited from seeing tegan and sara on leno.

blahhhhhhh

____guts @ 2008-04-09T03:19:00

2008-04-09T07:22:19Z

i'm nervous as hell.

on my way to the airport.
chhyyeaeaaa.

____guts @ 2008-04-05T11:05:00

2008-04-05T15:08:54Z

so, today is saturday.
i leave early wednesday morning (so i'm not counting wednesday. i'm counting down to tuesday night)

i'm excited as hell, and starting to get really nervous/scared about the plane.
i'm doing all of my laundry right now.
my suitcase is on my bed, open, ready to be packed.
all i do is work so the only clothes i really need for the next few days will be my work clothes, lol.

portland, here i come.

p.s., i'm still obsessing over twilight.

____guts @ 2008-03-30T03:58:00

2008-03-30T08:02:27Z

i don't feel like myself lately.
it's odd.

i feel like gushing out a bunch of random words, tangling them into sentences and making them have some profound meaning. I'm entirely too incoherent to do it at the moment.

i honestly do feel like writing, though.
and i feel like making you listen.

where has my world gone?