I am a
dinosaur. I pretend to be cute. I refuse to be kind to people. I stomp and I
growl. People do not consider me dainty. I believe that I better than you and
bigger than you. I eat everything. Most people stay away from me. They do not
care what is on the inside; they think that they already know what kind of
person I am. These people are fooled, because I put on a mask so that my true
self will never trickle out and be seen. </span>Although the people that
surround me everyday think they know who I am, a part of me exists that few
people ever see.
Most people avoid seeing my true self, but even so, people
who are distant from me notice some of my more personal traits. One trait of
mine that others acknowledge is that I am a fighter. For instance, when I want
to reach a goal, I do everything in my power to succeed. Likewise, I disallow
people to get their way if what they are doing contradicts my morals, beliefs,
and values. Generally, people also notice that I am a loner and an
individualist. One reason for me being a loner is because I deny the access of
my innermost thoughts to almost everyone. For example, I have a very hard time
making new friends, but the few true friends I have, I keep. Another similarity
of the perceived me and the real me is that over the years I have acquired a
unique and superior intelligence. For instance, I always find logical solutions
that most people do not understand. Also, my parents have big expectations for me
to be as intelligent as my brother, who is currently a legal genius. He has
often served as a role model for me to strive to be more educated. Evidently,
people see the real me everyday, but there are some things that they
incorrectly assume
While part of me shines through to most people, a number
of misconceptions about me exist. One very wrong assumption that people make is
that I am social. Even considering that I have a loud voice, I detest talking
in public or participating in social events. For example, I dislike sitting
with people at lunch because they talk so much. Most of the time, I sit by
myself or with one other person so that I might have a constructive conversation.
Another misconception that people make is that I have a lack of focus. This
assumption may have to do with the fact that I tend to over think things. This
misconception is wrong because I am usually very focused on my priorities, and
when I start something, I finish it. Yet another big mistake that people make
about my personality is that I constantly beam with joy and amiability. For
instance, I am my own worst critic. I also always find faults and negative
traits in things and people. Also, I have been a pessimist as long as I can
remember. Obviously, my peers miss every time they try to pinpoint how I am on
the inside; however, there are few that truly see the vast void that is better
known as the real me.
Keeping in mind the aforementioned views that people have
of me, there are aspects of my true self that few see, and even fewer
understand. One thing that people usually are mislead about is my inability to
handle stress. For example, people may think I am carefree and I untroubled by
the bumps along the road of life. In reality, I have trouble handling changes
and disappointments. I also am bi-polar. I can be extremely happy one moment
and then start crying because of a mere nothing. I often surrender the control
of my emotions because I have much trouble handling the stress that comes with
my emotions. Stress causes me to start losing weight, obtain fevers, and other
health problems due to this unavoidable fact of life. Another trait that most
people are uninformed about is that I am a dreamer. Every moment, I search for
the perfect life that can never be mine. For example, I still have the
imagination I had as a child. I still daydream countless hours about impossibilities.
Another example is my creativity. I love to make beautiful things. It might be
surprising that most people fail to know about this passion I have for the arts.
I consider my art very personal. Another trait that people take little notice
of when they first meet me is how strongly I feel about love and hate
relationships. For example, when I love someone, I hold on to that person to
the point that I allow them to step all over me. Also, when I hate someone, I remember
for as long as that person is still alive. It takes me very long to get over
wrongs done to me by people that don’t even know me. I doubt that people will
ever truly see the real me, no matter how many times I try to explain myself.
In conclusion, I am a different person than most think I
am. However, sometimes people are right about me. Even then, it is only a mask
that they see. They only see the dinosaur. They see just another teenager with
a frown and perpetual angst. Few will ever be allowed in my thoughts. Only
those few will have the chance to meet the real me. They will see something
that no one else has seen, because everyone else only sees the dinosaur.
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