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The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test
Your Score: 4- the Individualist
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you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka "The Romantic")

"I am unique"

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

* Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.

* Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.

* Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.

* Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.

* Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a FOUR

* my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
* my ability to establish warm connections with people
* admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
* my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
* being unique and being seen as unique by others
* having aesthetic sensibilities
* being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a FOUR

* experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
* feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
* feeling guilty when I disappoint people
* feeling hurt or attacked when someone misunderstands me
* expecting too much from myself and life
* fearing being abandoned
* obsessing over resentments
* longing for what I don't have

FOURs as Children Often

* have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
* are very sensitive
* feel that they don't fit in
* believe they are missing something that other people have
* attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
* become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
* feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

FOURs as Parents

* help their children become who they really are
* support their children's creativity and originality
* are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
* are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
* are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

In 2007, the 'artist' Guillermo Vargas Habacuc, took
a dog from the street,
tied him to a rope in an art gallery, and starved
him to death.

For several days, the 'artist' and the visitors of
the exhibition have
watched emotionless the shameful 'masterpiece' based
on the dog's agony,
until eventually he died.

But this is not all... the prestigious Visual Arts
Biennial of the Central
American decided that the 'installation' was
actually art, so that
Guillermo Vargas Habacuc has been invited to repeat
his cruel action for the
biennial of 2008.

http://www.petitiononline.com/ea6gk/petition.html

always second best.
maybe it's because...
I tend to seek out people whose top spots are already filled.
I don't do this intentionally.
I feel like it's a test that I keep failing.

but it's the same with everyone.
even those who I am not in that situation with.
there is always someone else who comes first.
something else.

I miss what it feels like to be the single most important thing in someone's life.

it'll happen again... one day.

until then here I sit.

I want to see the world. I want to touch it with my fingertips.
I want to laugh in a new place next to new strangers with the same problems evident in their eyes.
I want to feel a different wind blow the bangs out of my eyes as I smile. I want to see the flaws in a city as much as I want to see it's beauty. I want to whisper in all the hidden spots and see with my own two eyes the ones everyone already talks about. I want to give a bum five dollars just because he's playing the guitar on the side of a new street in his old rags. I want to ask him his story and what steps led him to that city. I want to lie in the grass in a new place and stare up at the same sky and make silly guesses of what the clouds are, like "that one's a dog!" or "there is president bush... or is that a monkey?". I want to fall in love over and over again in a different city with the same person every time. I want to take my camera and capture it all so that I can keep it forever; so that you can see the world through my eyes if you're not given the same chance.

if only life were so carefree. =)

friends always let me down.
but I continue to try to lift them up.
my life has been pretty calm.
and i'm not sure if i'm ready for it to be shaken up again just yet.
i've gotten by with the help of friends.
not sure which ones are real though.
I guess time will tell.

I just wanna partyyyyy.
drama free and smiles.
not all this bullshit that people put me in the middle of.
this used to be simpler.

girls are stupid.
we should stick together but we don't.
guys steal social lives.
and we let them.

no boy issues here though.
check back with me next week.
there is no keeping this heart in line.
i've just been lucky not to have met anyone recently that sped up it's beat in a romantic way.

♥