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July 22nd, 2004
11:45 pm
mi so sick of being alone. im so sick of thinkign that you loved me. you brokw my heart and im so alone im so sick of crying alone, and sleeong alone, and im here with a bottle of haha and ots sad. please save me. IM LOST IN BLAH SAYS CONOR OBURSTOl.
you said you hate my suffering, you said you would take care of me, where are you now,.
im so saf
d
ohshit,
i dont know anymore...........................................
you said our love would never die.
okay
im gonna be lit on fire.!!!!!!
Current Mood: THAT GUY WHO SINGS
Current Music: ^^^that guy who sang!
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July 21st, 2004
10:27 am
what is not, not to like
a shiny bike
no lock, no key
its there for me
its for real
im gonna steal
a pair of wheels
[..]
you travel far
without a car
and pedal hard.
so, join the fun
you could have one!
waiting for my lucky day to get my speedy getaway
[.]
you want it now?
ill show you how!
Current Mood: jolly olly ooooooo
Current Music: bt. effcee
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July 20th, 2004
03:41 am
so many of my friendships have gone down the drain, but i dont want to gain them back, whatever is sucked into the pipes, is what i've washed off myself,
ive lost so many friends lately, and i dont really care, cause its just not the same.
the friends i have right now, the ones i hang out with, and talk to, are so amazing, it makes up for everything, and everything else, hahahahaa can die.
peace out you niggers, im sleepy and boys are annoying me
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July 19th, 2004
08:53 pm
Current Mood: inlove
Current Music: belle&seb.AGAIN
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01:18 pm
i love him
goddamn
Current Music: belle &seb
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July 17th, 2004
09:21 pm
Today was tizzite shizzit. I got my wrizzist pizzierced.
Translation from nigger to ENgLISH :
today was fun, went to hollywood with dan the man and got my wrist pierced, and I took my high school exit exam, it was fun stuff yo
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July 16th, 2004
10:39 am
I'm really scared about something. I'm scared that things won't turn out the way I want them to, especially because I've been wanting and waiting for the longest fucking time.
oh fucking motherfuckers, shoot me now
Current Mood: anxious\\worried
Current Music: trapdoor fucking exit
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July 15th, 2004
05:21 pm
i cant stop crying. i hate my life
Current Mood: :'(
Current Music: music cant even relate this time
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04:47 pm
decisions, decisions...
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July 14th, 2004
02:03 pm
It sucks to lose the one you love..
&&how great do you think it feels to gain it back?
Current Mood: impatientttttttt
Current Music: the 'je nesais quoi'
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July 12th, 2004
05:45 pm
Don't you just love me
yeah you do, yeah you do
oh and shut up sarahballs. you ssackie whool.
Current Mood: whippiie
Current Music: the flying lady, hala waya|!
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July 10th, 2004
06:12 pm
hi u floppers~!
so u boca burgers with bran muffins and cheeeeeeeeese
^^^^ that shasserie up there was alexisballs and her bablymouther. ...........!!but im olympia, somewhat stoney ssacko with sloopy infront of vons //gushers with sarahlah on the pavement, ya know. but sometimes its the milk with the lactose.. OH NO! Oh my goodnessballs with sackerues, and shrimp!?ewwwzeys?!shrimper shrimpballs, shrimpos! hipidi hippos! hippidi hippoopoos.! alrighty. ive made an (_v_) (ass) of myself.
oh lordy manners
Current Mood: okay (alexis llaughed)
Current Music: actually yeah
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July 8th, 2004
07:07 pm
It's funny how ungrateful I was until I realized today, how lucky I am, and how fucking lucky most of us are. I know there are some really shitty things in our lives we have to deal with, but seriously, there are some fucking people who have to deal with living on the streets, girls having to fuck for coke and survival, it sucks.
& I know how unfair most shit is for us, but if I hear one more fucking complaint from you or myself, I'll just laugh, we're all so caught up in the most superficial worries that we end up losing side of what's really important. And those people out there fucking for coke or whatnot, those are the people who know what they're talking about, regardless their lifestyle, I'd believe their words over anyone's here anyday.
Buuuttt, these are just my thoughts...
On the other hand, I'm really happy today, I don't have anything significant to complain about and I have 10920293 things to be happyass about, such as, Jaime<33
Current Music: hediwg -wicked little town
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July 7th, 2004
12:11 pm
This year, so many things have triggered the change of my outcome, I already know what to expect from the world. I hate knowing whats going to happen next, all of the antisipation, you know.. I love not knowing things, and wanting to know, asking questions, getting ideas,..but this time, I already know, I know exactly how everything will end up. The only things I don't know are when I'm going to die, and where I'll be after I'm 18, or if I'll ever become 18. i don't know that, but everything else, I know.
My life is bullshit, I'm an asshole, and I don't give a shit about anything, all I do is talk about the same things OVER AND OVER again. I'm always crying over my loves and losses, living through a stream of artificial happiness, and wishing things would get better, and that I could stop thinking for once, that I could forget how shitty things are deep down, from the roots, and just smile with oblivion. I need to die, or maybe stop smoking or someshit.
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09:49 am
i want the summer to be over already, oh my fucking god, i cant wait until then.
fuck you
bye
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July 3rd, 2004
04:03 pm
( PICKY WICKY PICTUREBALLS. )
Current Mood: sssssssstoney lika ssacko
Current Music: chicks on speed.euro trash girl
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July 1st, 2004
06:00 pm
I dont know what I'm doing anymore. I need a new life, being Olympia sucks...Only because I'll never get what I want.
Fuck everyone and everything.
I want to run away from my life cause I can't cope with it, but where the fuck would I go?
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) whatdoyouthink
Current Music: morissey
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03:36 am
he's really what i call perfect <3
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June 30th, 2004
01:56 pm
i w o n d e r w h e r e
i a m
i cant find myself. i got lost in someone else..
Current Mood: the usual
Current Music: effcee. DW
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June 29th, 2004
03:57 pm
hahahaaa we're all idiots, including you
ahahahahahahahaha
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June 28th, 2004
07:30 pm
I don't know anything. Too many people have too many tricks up all of their sleeves, when it's not one thing it's another...
I can't wait until the end of the summer, I hope the one thing I believe in, is as it seems, cause everything right now is a fucking joke.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/confused.gif) confused
Current Music: tribal
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June 27th, 2004
04:06 pm
...does the outside always bleed when the inside is completly punctured...
k i ll me
im a li t t l e [sad] a b ou t my li fe a nd e very thin g a bou t it
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June 26th, 2004
08:17 pm
i feel so lonely, as if theres nothing inside of me, im so empty, i keep trying to fill in the hole in my heart with drugs and alchool and its getting me farther and farther away from happiness and closer to becoming a livewire, im just shooting out sparks that are digging a pit around me.
:-(
Current Music: ladytron
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09:28 am
are you really what i think you are.. cause im losing track now.
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June 24th, 2004
05:57 pm
wheres gooseylou!!?
Current Mood: giddy and uuhhh high???
Current Music: hayawasaleh.sacapi.feridou ssackoballs
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June 21st, 2004
07:23 pm
fuck everybody except... YOU of course, baby i like you alott
oh and everyone else can go to hell cause you guys stand n significance in my life, other then an extra comment and hello, youre all nothing unless youre my babyyyy<33
Current Mood: inprisonned and yahhhhh
Current Music: mount sims
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June 20th, 2004
01:27 pm
the reason we are single:
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June 19th, 2004
01:24 pm
alexisssss come over. i loveee you loveyyyy mahh lovey dovey who id love to smoke with right now .
Current Music: you japanese baby
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11:33 am
whoa i miss you
Current Mood: moodyballs
Current Music: sarah and her ssacko
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June 16th, 2004
12:04 pm
It was never about how many friends I had on my lists, It was never about how many comments I recieved, I never cared whether anyone listened, liked me or hated me. It's all about me living the way I want, liking who I want, loving and hating who I want. I know I hurt a lot of people, but it's also about caring about my actions, and I don't ... sorry I don't give a shit about everyone's feelings, fuck.. I get shit from different people everyday..
On the other hand, last night was fucken hectic and tonight will be too.
Oh man, you guys...this summer, asdklsjfdsfjhajkhvcjkngfsdjkrhiwuaquwsdhsdjkhnsdlkfhdfmjfhkldfjnhf,ncv`
its only the beginning.
Current Mood: energetic,+hungover.
Current Music: the pixies.monkey gone to heaven
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June 15th, 2004
02:20 pm
Can somebody tell me something...
How could one be oneself if that person doesn't even know what being yourself is. We are products of the worlds personality and we become what we admire. I am so lost. I really want to be myself, but I find myself with the same characteristics as many many people around me. We are just like everybody else,candies with a different wrapper, all the same potential of replenishing; It's all about how tasty you are. Pathetic eh?
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06:51 am
[the earliness to my days]
[brings loneliness to my ways]
bitch.
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June 14th, 2004
12:13 pm
[this sense of rejection..]
[it hurts]
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June 13th, 2004
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