buy me a plastic ring

Happy Holidays all!

2005-12-27T16:53:47Z

So I had a pretty good christmas!
I don't want to sound like a scrouge or anything, but
I def. got sick of my family when we got together
on christmas eve! I don't really feel like it is my
fault though that they make me dislike them.
I mean, who really likes people who are
snobby, plain rude, and always make you feel
like they are so much better than you? No
one, that's who! Really, its not myy side of the
family, it's the stupid wench my uncle married.
She's so materialistic and she totally passed it on to
my cousins..so i guess its not their fault either, but
i would think at least the 13 yr. old would notice how
she acts. but then again, thats how everyone in their
little suburbia place acts. its hopeless, so christmas eve
it was going alright, it was really good, and then i had
to interact with my aunt, and it all went down from there. lol
i knew the best part was going to be actual christmas morning
with my mom and gramma! and it was!!! i got soo many good gifts,
my mom got really creative this year, i give her major props for that!
lol, i love all my presents, well, maybe except some my dad and step mom
got me, well...cuz they are like on a diff. planet, they have no idea what i
like or want, so come christmas time....they totally guess, and i can tell.
anywho i was soo happy when my mom finally got to open her gifts, i got
her EVERYTHING on her list, except for one thing cuz the store had
sold out of it. anywho, i had an aaaaaaaaawesome christmas, and i hope
to have a good new years too. i got invited to a party from an older friend,
and i was going to ask my best friend to go with me but shes like, "no i know
there are going to be distructive decisions going on, and i dont want to be a
part of it!" and im thinking dude just cuz some people may be drinking doesnt
mean that you have to, and anyway, most of the people drinking are probably
going to be 21 or over ANYWAY! but whatever, ill just ask someone else to go
i guess...le sigh. none of my friends have asked me to do anything over break
yet, im totally like drifting away from all of them it feels like. its gay, but idk...

♥♥

p.s.-im still not over you

2005-10-23T21:05:08Z

so its been a while.
homecoming is probably the
only thing that i have to update about
it went well, it was pretty interesting.
lol things have been a little..
awkward since then, but nothing
that i cant handle!
so anyway,
school pretty much screwed poms over again.
giving spirit award money to the dance team=not fair.
everyone worked hard for that award,
making signs, the band changing their pre-game
everyone did something, and its not fair to
give one group of people all the money/credit for it.!
moving on...
ive been pretty proud of my friends lately.
they have been doing things so out of character.
i love it, because they are actually sticking up for themselves.
now, i dont know how long it will last,
but in the mean time, i dont know if i could be prouder.

before:

after:

♥♥♥♥ her!

she didnt have time

2005-10-08T01:43:02Z

Wow. it has been so long since my last update.
School has started, and while it started VERY rocky
things hav DEF. gotten better.
The last time i updated, i had that one dress.
well x-nay on that one.
i have it, in my closet actually,but
I found another dress, and it fit me PREFECTLY
So i decided, why not get one that fits you now
instead of trying to kill yourself into getting into the other one
This one is really cute, too. It's ivory, full length, strapless, and it
has beading and sequins around the top.Its sooo cute!
I also found my date for homecoming, so thats good.
I hate all the little details that go with Homecoming, but
Oh well, we are getting them all figured out. lol.
My grades in school right now = awesome.
It'll all go down hill from here. lol.
Ugh I'm taking the PSAT next Wednesday, and I
was really hoping I would know another sophomore
that was taking it, but my friends decided not to, or
forgot today was the last day. Alas, i am alone in this one lol
What else what else...Cory has been weird lately.
I think shes jealous because my date is cuter than hers <33
=D!! I really think she does though, not to be mean, but her
date is like...ugly and like short and i hate to say it but kinda gross.
I mean my date is no Michael Phelps or anything, but compared to her
little freshman band date, im thinking i got the better one. I know that sounds
horrible..but oh well, if she had a better date she'd probably say it to my face!
I've been getting into country music a lot, and i have no idea why. I like constantly
listen to it now though, i really like it. I shall continue.
Homecoming= T minus 8 days.
will def. update with pics. =)

homecoming!

2005-08-17T03:22:06Z

oh man, im really excited!
my mom agreed to get my dress today! ::squeel::
we called to make sure it was still there..
and they put it on hold til we could get there!
stupid lady grabbed the wrong color,
so i had to go and find it anyway
then i found another that was gorgeous...
but, i didnt even try it on! lol
so now i have to lose the weight
so it fits oh so perfect..!
if i dont look perfect...
i just wont go, i know that sounds
soo like selfish, but if i go, i really
want to wow people, and look good!
ugh, well tomorrow is the student council meeting.
i get to see cory....woo?
well i should probably get to sleep..

t minus 4 days til the party!

omgz what slut!!

2005-08-14T23:58:39Z

So here goes my little 'rant'
so last night i went to a friend's ex-boyfriends house with my friend and what do they end up doing after my friend promises not to, they make out the whole time and completely ignore me, while im sitting on the opposite end of the couch.
and to make things worse my friend wanted me to like make out and do all this stuff with her ex's friend, so SHE didnt feel weird! i mean wtf, what ever happened to that saying "chicks before dicks"!?!? as far as i knew, we were best friends, but i highly doubt any best friend would do that! i seriously am re-thinking how good of friends i thought we were. i mean yeah this is one thing, but now that i think back on our friendship, shes not that good of a friend, she lies almost 24/7 and loves to talk about people behind their back, i mean i know everyone does it, but i swear she gets some sick twisted joy out of it. it just really pisses me off, and then when we were talking about what had happened, all she would say is how she "loves" him, and how good he makes her feel, and i was want to like knock some sense into her, i know he is completely using her, he will tell her everything she wants to hear and she will believe it, and he only does that because he KNOWS he can get sex out of her, and the BEST part about that is that this guy has a GIRLFRIEND, he is 16, and his girlfriend is like 12, so i know the reason he was being nice to my friend was because his 12 year old gf, hasnt given him any sex, and they've been dating for like 2+ months,i mean i dont blame her, but this guy is like a sex addict, and he was worried about me hating him before this, well right now i hate them both, i dont even know what to say to her, i dont think she understand how effing pissed i really am! i dont know why i expected more from her, she has no self control, and she wanted to be the center of attention! i really should have expected less from her, she whores herself for every guy just to make herself feel good, and thats pathetic! god, i dont even know how to get this out of my head, because i really thought that she would try, i guess im just really disappointed, not with her really, but with myself, for believing another lie.